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2019-05-15 at 6:09 PM UTC
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2019-05-15 at 6:20 PM UTCmy scorpion sign doesn't mean much to me but it can be a real bitch at times in my friendships over the course of my 40 plus yrs on earth. i got a gemini moon that fucks with shit too but its like playing with teenage twins that want to fuck each other. my rising sign makes it all in life about me but not.
i loved travelling the all backroads...in the middle of seemingly nowhere at night. i would usually have my head out of the car/jeep/truck whatever i was in singing 60's -80's songs while totally fucked up. a random farmer a time or several would fire off his/her rifle but i would just laugh my ass off and have another gulp of whisky...any way...I would usually look up at the all stars and drunk wondering why was i here? all that were with me...why ere they with me? so many almost collisions with cousins, brothers...etc. Just stupid shit but seriously looked up as drunk as I was...wondering about everything. Only a few close to me ever understand my fascination with the stars at night. I felt so connected to them...and the stars. Sure drunk but its like I knew so much more about life and everything without words when I did.
I really miss those times. I find in my 40's I see, feel, and experience so much less..and I'm not even trying.Its like those times are gone forever. Yet at night from time to time I dream so vividly about it all ^ everything I mentioned. Like its remembering what was and LIVING in the dream as it was a reality. -
2019-05-18 at 10:22 PM UTC
Originally posted by Octavian What happened to your dad?
He passed away in 2015. I miss him dearly. He died from a combination of things. He had chronic kidney stones that aways was causing him to piss blood. In 15 years I dont recall one time I hadn't seen him NOT piss blood (he pissed outside, sometimes forgot to flush with a quick piss in the toilet, he'd say so if he was pissing a massive amount/passed a stone, etc.) Which caused him to be anemic. He was diabetic and really didnt take care of it like he should have. He had chronic heart failure and right around that time he caught a really bad strain of the flu and also had pneumonia. A year before his doctor had cut him off his pain meds cold turkey outta the blue "because thw DEA is looking into my records" was all he was told. Doctor was writing A LOT of opioid meds to a A LOT of people apparently. He also was a cunt and I had to damn near threatened to fuck himnuo just to get a fucking REFERAL to pain management. My dad did nothing wrong and had been there for 7 years getting shit, and he was not prescribing anymore due to the DEA looking at him... What the fuck is the problem writing a goddamned referal? He was a total Indian douchebag. I did get it though. He just gave up until Malice convinced him to try T-PAIN, so at least he had that for pain relief and I really believe it helped him mentally. Its totally ashamed that he fucking had to suffer like he did though. He shouldn't of had to resort to all the shit he did to be out if pain. Besides all the other shit I mentioned, my father had numerous crushed discs in his back and neck, his knees both were fucked up, and he'd fallen 30ft into a ditch were they were replacing the piping to thw city sewer. In the fall he had cut his hand off save for a little bit of skin holding part of it on. They had to reattach his hand and he had poor use out of it after that alone with terrible shooting pain especially in the cold.
I feel terrible all the pain and agony my dad suffered. If anyone was a candidate for high doses of opioids, he was it. His quality of life would have been so much better. Evweytime he had what he needed he was out living, doing shit, enjoying life. When he didn't, beyond withdrawals, he was in pain and too miserable to do anything but play video games to distract from the pain.
Originally posted by Dregs my scorpion sign doesn't mean much to me but it can be a real bitch at times in my friendships over the course of my 40 plus yrs on earth. i got a gemini moon that fucks with shit too but its like playing with teenage twins that want to fuck each other. my rising sign makes it all in life about me but not.
i loved travelling the all backroads…in the middle of seemingly nowhere at night. i would usually have my head out of the car/jeep/truck whatever i was in singing 60's -80's songs while totally fucked up. a random farmer a time or several would fire off his/her rifle but i would just laugh my ass off and have another gulp of whisky…any way…I would usually look up at the all stars and drunk wondering why was i here? all that were with me…why ere they with me? so many almost collisions with cousins, brothers…etc. Just stupid shit but seriously looked up as drunk as I was…wondering about everything. Only a few close to me ever understand my fascination with the stars at night. I felt so connected to them…and the stars. Sure drunk but its like I knew so much more about life and everything without words when I did.
I really miss those times. I find in my 40's I see, feel, and experience so much less..and I'm not even trying.Its like those times are gone forever. Yet at night from time to time I dream so vividly about it all ^ everything I mentioned. Like its remembering what was and LIVING in the dream as it was a reality.
I'm an Aquarius. I'm the diplomat. I always have had a special connection to the sky I guess because I'm a wind sign.
I did exactly that when I was young too. It was fun, wind through my hair, enjoying the warm summer nights. The last couple of nights ive been enjoying the nearly full moon. At my camp its pretty cool. -
2019-05-18 at 10:24 PM UTCOh yeah and I loved going swimming at the springs when the moon was full. That was so fucking fun. Especially with a fat doobie. Fuck yeah.
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2019-05-18 at 10:26 PM UTCBlue moon tonight people! This only happens every 2.5 years. Be sure to catch it.
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2019-05-19 at 12:17 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone He passed away in 2015. I miss him dearly. He died from a combination of things. He had chronic kidney stones that aways was causing him to piss blood. In 15 years I dont recall one time I hadn't seen him NOT piss blood (he pissed outside, sometimes forgot to flush with a quick piss in the toilet, he'd say so if he was pissing a massive amount/passed a stone, etc.) Which caused him to be anemic. He was diabetic and really didnt take care of it like he should have. He had chronic heart failure and right around that time he caught a really bad strain of the flu and also had pneumonia. A year before his doctor had cut him off his pain meds cold turkey outta the blue "because thw DEA is looking into my records" was all he was told. Doctor was writing A LOT of opioid meds to a A LOT of people apparently. He also was a cunt and I had to damn near threatened to fuck himnuo just to get a fucking REFERAL to pain management. My dad did nothing wrong and had been there for 7 years getting shit, and he was not prescribing anymore due to the DEA looking at him… What the fuck is the problem writing a goddamned referal? He was a total Indian douchebag. I did get it though. He just gave up until Malice convinced him to try T-PAIN, so at least he had that for pain relief and I really believe it helped him mentally. Its totally ashamed that he fucking had to suffer like he did though. He shouldn't of had to resort to all the shit he did to be out if pain. Besides all the other shit I mentioned, my father had numerous crushed discs in his back and neck, his knees both were fucked up, and he'd fallen 30ft into a ditch were they were replacing the piping to thw city sewer. In the fall he had cut his hand off save for a little bit of skin holding part of it on. They had to reattach his hand and he had poor use out of it after that alone with terrible shooting pain especially in the cold.
I feel terrible all the pain and agony my dad suffered. If anyone was a candidate for high doses of opioids, he was it. His quality of life would have been so much better. Evweytime he had what he needed he was out living, doing shit, enjoying life. When he didn't, beyond withdrawals, he was in pain and too miserable to do anything but play video games to distract from the pain.
I'm an Aquarius. I'm the diplomat. I always have had a special connection to the sky I guess because I'm a wind sign.
I did exactly that when I was young too. It was fun, wind through my hair, enjoying the warm summer nights. The last couple of nights ive been enjoying the nearly full moon. At my camp its pretty cool.
Cool. I got a Gemini moon and Aquarius Rising. Although I miscalculated a few times thinking I had a Pisces/Aries rising. Like Duh to me but I can relate to you. Most of my Scorpio is in the 10th House if you follow that shit. I'm glad you can enjoy some things in life despite all you go through. Not that means anything to you but I hope you get all you deserve despite everything. Its seems to me you deserve all the happiness. -
2019-05-19 at 12:47 AM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 12:59 AM UTC
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2019-05-19 at 1:07 AM UTCAquarius. I look up my horoscope in the student paper sometimes, and it's so silly because each sign has a rating every day of how hard the day is on a scale of 1-10, 1 being hardest and 10 being easiest (I know why they do it that way), and EVERY TIME I check it, almost all of the signs are at an 8 or a 9. Usually the very lowest a score will be is a 5. I guess hard days don't exist.
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2019-05-19 at 1:24 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dregs Didn't see this earlier but Thanks Sophie. Maybe a few kiddies will play in the sandbox for you or me later. Some kids like to break the rules in these modern times.
When The Moon is in the seventh house and Jupiter aligns with Mars, then peace will guide the lolis and love will stir their hearts.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-05-19 at 11:21 AM UTC
