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2015-10-15 at 4:46 PM UTCI am an imitation human being, and every day I lose more of myself and become more unreal.
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2015-10-15 at 5:01 PM UTCIsn't that happening to us all?
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2015-10-15 at 6:01 PM UTC
I am an imitation human being, and every day I lose more of myself and become more unreal.
No Malice, you're just a melodramatic forever alone and your attitude bothers me. -
2015-10-15 at 11:09 PM UTCAs for the room renting thing, there is major problems with the house. Its an 1170sqft mid 90’s trailer. My grandmother and father let a lot of problems go for a long time and its just gotten worse. The roof leaks in several spots, Im in the midst of tackling a rat infestation (their idea of dealing with the problem was to get metal trash cans to store food in and just shut the doors of the closet they nested and bred in and refuse to let anyone do anything about it because that ment they couldnt sit and watch tv all day while we were cleaning. Also, my grandmother heard a home remedy for rats that included instant potato flakes and water... so she fed the rats for a year or more like that rather than doing anything to really help). Im sure this place is a fire hazard since the cord to her lamp next to her bed was chewed so badly it ahock the fuck out ofnusbwhen we went to move and unplug it. She got mad at us because I saw that there was a bad leak dripping right in her bed, so atleast for a temporary fix I wanted to move her bed so she wouldnt have to lay in water... youd think someone would be grateful, but no. It inconvienced her and she kept saying it was like that for a year (I didnt notice prior but I honestly didnt think someone wouldlet their bed puddle with water and do nothing about it). The other bedroom is fikles with stuff, and has a severe mold issue from the roof and/or the plumbing leaking. This house has been in the care of people who didnt give a fuck for 5 years and it shows. There have been so many times I wanted to do something about it and fix the problems I could, abd get people to fix the problems I cant (the roof being an example) but its always been a fight or arguement to do so and resulted in nothing being done at all. I really did give up. Thats why I stayed in the garage with my dogs for so long, to avoid them/her and to notnhave to see the despair and have rats crawl on me at night. I realize now how mentally unstable she is, to care so little for rats climbing on her in her sleep, water pooling in her bed when it rains and to be angry at the person who sees it and says "oh shit! You cant sleep like this!", not to mention she couldnt even help go through her own things when we did try to clean the house. Plus, there is the issue of who would be staying with me... I dont trust people especially after the last guest we had stay here. Or it could become an issue like the one with the guy who took me grocery shopping. Plus, like you, I like romping around free and naked in my house so with no one here its been wonderful atleast in that regard.
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2015-10-16 at 3:45 AM UTCI think the paranormal happenings might just be a mold infection eating away at your brain. Fucking hell it sounds like you should just torch the place and collect the insurance money.
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2015-10-16 at 4:22 AM UTChydromorphone, have you ever seen those shows about 'hoarders'? those people get pissed when you try to help them.
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2015-10-16 at 8:05 AM UTCWhen you're so overwhelmed with your problems and the problems of the world, of life and existence/reality, all alone with no one to help of speak to, if you could even convey the things that really mattered to you and be understood.
It really makes suicide appealing, doesn't it?
I really don't want to live, I want to commit suicide, but I'm also afraid of the finality of death, even though I believe our perceptions of ourselves are likely illusory. I've read that psychedelics have been very effecting for people in the end of life stage, helping them achieve closure, to come to terms with death and accept it. At the very least maybe they'll allow me to overcome my fear of death, like many non-terminal people report as well, and I'll be able to go in peace. The idea of taking a large dose of benzos so I'll be calm and won't even care, maybe an opiate if I react well to it, and strapping myself into an exit bag feels very appealing. -
2015-10-16 at 9:19 AM UTChttps://www.reddit.com/r/news/comments/3outj3/state_comptroller_munger_illinois_is_out_of_money/
State Comptroller Munger: 'Illinois Is Out of Money Now'Munger says she is having to choose from a number of very bad options to try to make payments, and that even those options are decreasing. She used the following comparison to highlight just how bad the state's cash shortage is: Imagine that you have $7,000 in bills on your kitchen table and only $142 on hand. That is the ratio that Illinois faces at the moment.
Munger says the unpaid bills at her office are approaching $7 billion and a $560 million pension payment due in November will have to be delayed, with the December payment also questionable at the moment.
Good fucking riddance.These people will never learn their lesson, statetheism is the new faith. x/posts from r/ancap:Reminds me of this:
http://econlog.econlib.org/archives/2013/06/californias_pho.html
http://www.pewtrusts.org/en/research-and-analysis/fact-sheets/2012/06/18/widening-gap-update-california
I'm going to love it when this hits them like a train out of nowhere, particularly after leftists used CA as a model for the success of leftist policy.But deficits don't matter and spending grows the economy, giving us more money. How could they even think of hoarding money when so many people are needy. In fact, we should be spending even more, we still need trillions for infrastructure, free college for everyone for life, free healthcare for everyone for life, expand social security and increase payments, high speed internet for everyone, free/subsidized if you can't afford it (can't live without it in this day and age), free childcare, free cell service with data plan if you can't afford it, free housing if you can't afford it, free food, basic income.
Why don't they just tax the rich 90%? That would solve everything overnight.
Those right-wingers talking about ratchet effect with hardly anything ever cut, surpluses simply spent on things that add to liabilities even more, and entitlement mentalities are just crazy shills for corporations who hate the poor.
They aren't going to eat the rich, they'll eat each other. The niggers will go for the nearest and easiest victims, cowardly weak and defenseless liberals in the cities and surrounding suburbs, the bobos (bohemian bourgeois). -
2015-10-16 at 12:04 PM UTCIdk, that dude did kinda have an entitlement mentality.
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2015-10-16 at 1:44 PM UTCTry putting a large clear plastic bag over your head, one large enough to not feel stifling, although if you have issues with claustrophobia any bag may feel this way, then secure it by simply twisting the open end until it's snug against your neck. It's comforting in a way, really feels like it would be the best way to go out. I thought, "If you go to sleep you will never awaken. Are you okay with that?" and I wasn't , but only because I felt I hadn't made my peace with death, that some things needed to be settled before that, or that I'd at least need to dwell on it and think about whatever's left to be thought.
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2015-10-16 at 2:59 PM UTCMalice, don't kill yourself. What if in 5 years your life would be better? Kill yourself now and you'll never know and not experience anything good most assuredly. Having the chance of a possible better life is better than just killing yourself and knowing for sure you'll never be happy.
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2015-10-16 at 3:19 PM UTC
Malice, don't kill yourself. What if in 5 years your life would be better? Kill yourself now and you'll never know and not experience anything good most assuredly. Having the chance of a possible better life is better than just killing yourself and knowing for sure you'll never be happy.
In almost every case I would agree with this. But in case of Malice it doesn't apply. He is terminally damaged and needs to reformat. -
2015-10-17 at 9:48 AM UTCI may not be capable of being happy, and even if I was, what does it amount to? The world will still be the same, it doesn't feel like it will ever be sufficient. You live one moment after the next and then you cease to exist and none of it will amount to anything. What use to memories, the sense of a rich/full life have? Mere shadows of what you once felt, experienced, and if you are unhappy, suffering, they will not bring you salvation.
What can you do, when you don't like and don't want to like, be a part of or have anything to do with, the world you were born into through no choice of your own, the biological vessel you're trapped in, the mind you experience the world through? Don't want this, don't want that, other people are simply a different type of hell, but the absence of them is entirely at odds with millions of years of evolution and causes you to implode under the weight of your own existence.
I really do view myself as being terminally ill.
Unrelated, RAD-140, a SARM (selective androgen receptor modulator) I mentioned before, the only one that may currently be worth using. with pro-cognitive/neruoprotectant effects, along with protecting the prostate from the effects of testosterone, and being more anabolic than standard testosterone, is avaialble for only $55 a gram from nyles7, a reputable nootropics vendor on eBay: http://www.ebay.com/itm/1-Gram-RAD-1...4AAOSw9N1Vty8t
That's about a 3 month supply at 10mg a day.
Could provide therapeutic effects on mood if your testosterone levels are low, or estrogen is too high. This is surprisingly common and there are many things that have a strong negative effect, diabetes, excess body fat (obesity), insufficient sun exposure of sufficient intensity (Recommended daily amounts of vitamins and minerals don't mean what the vast majority assume they do and are often far too low or from very sub-optimal sources. Dietary vitamin D3 from milk won't come close to being enough, at least 5K IU with a fatty meal is needed.) and regular opioid use are the most common and relevant factors to most users here.
God I hate WYSIWYG editors. Damn, looks like it's pretty suppressive, though: https://www.reddit.com/r/PEDs/commen...run_bloodwork/
https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/..._my_cognition/
You'd need to run PCT (post cycle therapy), which is pretty easy and affordable: www.blueskypeptide.com
Still a safer and more interesting option than standard steroids, more readily available with a certificate of authenticity providing data on purity, along with being more convenient as it can be used orally (some steroids can as well, but there are serious issues with liver toxicity, along with lower bioavailability).
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2015-10-17 at 10:22 AM UTC
Unrelated, RAD-140, a SARM (selective androgen receptor modulator) I mentioned before, the only one that may currently be worth using. with pro-cognitive/neruoprotectant effects, along with protecting the prostate from the effects of testosterone, and being more anabolic than standard testosterone, is avaialble for only $55 a gram from nyles7, a reputable nootropics vendor on eBay: http://www.ebay.com/itm/1-Gram-RAD-1...4AAOSw9N1Vty8t
Interesting. I've been debating whether or not to start a cycle but injections and going the whole route of getting illegal steroids is off putting but I may give this a try since its nice and easy.
That's about a 3 month supply at 10mg a day.
Could provide therapeutic effects on mood if your testosterone levels are low, or estrogen is too high. This is surprisingly common and there are many things that have a strong negative effect, diabetes, excess body fat (obesity), insufficient sun exposure of sufficient intensity (Recommended daily amounts of vitamins and minerals don't mean what the vast majority assume they do and are often far too low or from very sub-optimal sources. Dietary vitamin D3 from milk won't come close to being enough, at least 5K IU with a fatty meal is needed.) and regular opioid use are the most common and relevant factors to most users here.
God I hate WYSIWYG editors. Damn, looks like it's pretty suppressive, though: https://www.reddit.com/r/PEDs/commen...run_bloodwork/
https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/..._my_cognition/
You'd need to run PCT (post cycle therapy), which is pretty easy and affordable: www.blueskypeptide.com
Still a safer and more interesting option than standard steroids, more readily available with a certificate of authenticity providing data on purity, along with being more convenient as it can be used orally (some steroids can as well, but there are serious issues with liver toxicity, along with lower bioavailability). -
2015-10-17 at 12:07 PM UTC
I may not be capable of being happy, and even if I was, what does it amount to? The world will still be the same, it doesn't feel like it will ever be sufficient. You live one moment after the next and then you cease to exist and none of it will amount to anything. What use to memories, the sense of a rich/full life have? Mere shadows of what you once felt, experienced, and if you are unhappy, suffering, they will not bring you salvation.
For somebody who comes of like they know it all you sure haven't figure out shit yet?
What can you do, when you don't like and don't want to like, be a part of or have anything to do with, the world you were born into through no choice of your own, the biological vessel you're trapped in, the mind you experience the world through? Don't want this, don't want that, other people are simply a different type of hell, but the absence of them is entirely at odds with millions of years of evolution and causes you to implode under the weight of your own existence.
I really do view myself as being terminally ill.
Unrelated, RAD-140, a SARM (selective androgen receptor modulator) I mentioned before, the only one that may currently be worth using. with pro-cognitive/neruoprotectant effects, along with protecting the prostate from the effects of testosterone, and being more anabolic than standard testosterone, is avaialble for only $55 a gram from nyles7, a reputable nootropics vendor on eBay: http://www.ebay.com/itm/1-Gram-RAD-1...4AAOSw9N1Vty8t
That's about a 3 month supply at 10mg a day.
Could provide therapeutic effects on mood if your testosterone levels are low, or estrogen is too high. This is surprisingly common and there are many things that have a strong negative effect, diabetes, excess body fat (obesity), insufficient sun exposure of sufficient intensity (Recommended daily amounts of vitamins and minerals don't mean what the vast majority assume they do and are often far too low or from very sub-optimal sources. Dietary vitamin D3 from milk won't come close to being enough, at least 5K IU with a fatty meal is needed.) and regular opioid use are the most common and relevant factors to most users here.
God I hate WYSIWYG editors. Damn, looks like it's pretty suppressive, though: https://www.reddit.com/r/PEDs/commen...run_bloodwork/
https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/..._my_cognition/
You'd need to run PCT (post cycle therapy), which is pretty easy and affordable: www.blueskypeptide.com
Still a safer and more interesting option than standard steroids, more readily available with a certificate of authenticity providing data on purity, along with being more convenient as it can be used orally (some steroids can as well, but there are serious issues with liver toxicity, along with lower bioavailability). -
2015-10-17 at 12:45 PM UTCWhat if there aren't any answers? Thinking about the nature of evolution, how we arose by chance, why would it just so happen to work out that there would be satisfying answers to the answers that really matter? Isn't it more likely that the truth would reflect the fundamental lack of meaning behind out existence?
You've had decades more to figure things out than I had. What is there to figure out?Interesting. I've been debating whether or not to start a cycle but injections and going the whole route of getting illegal steroids is off putting but I may give this a try since its nice and easy.
http://www.reddit.com/r/Steroidsourcetalk/
Injections aren't really a big deal once you get the routine down, you honestly barely even feel them if you have good needles, 25 gauge works well for IM, even for thicker solutions, and learn the proper technique. This may sound weird, I was surprised to learn it myself, but it turns out that IM injections are so safe it's actually debatable whether cleaning the site for injection should be done at all. And I'm referring to policies by major medical organizations.
This is a very good option, though, and I'd definitely recommend it for your first cycle. -
2015-10-17 at 1:07 PM UTCStop looking for answers with your mind and start seeing them with your heart.
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2015-10-17 at 5:04 PM UTCSome things you see with your eyes, others you see with your heart.
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2015-10-17 at 5:47 PM UTCThe eyes can't see they can only look.
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2015-10-17 at 6:53 PM UTChttps://www.reddit.com/r/RandomActsOfBlowJob
Someone should try to hookup with someone on there, for our amusement.
Learned about it here: http://mic.com/articles/124581/why-MOON PERSONs-are-ditching-tinder-to-hook-up-on-reddit
