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2019-04-05 at 5:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra I'm in a similar place, just not inviting junkies in to make it worse
I've been getting better at saying "no", but my three weaknesses are:
1. If I'm drunk.
2. They have free drugs to offer.
3. It's a (at least vaguely attractive) chick that makes the request.
Tonight all three applied.
I am only human...
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2019-04-05 at 5:13 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ I didnt say anything about guns. Just like I didnt say psych ward. Why are you changing what I'm saying STAHP IT.
I guess I just immediately jumped from suicide to guns because it's really the most efficient way to get the job done.
I've had the box cutters by my side with the tarp for cleanliness.
I've had the scratchy rope around the neck, ready to kick the stool from out beneath.
But whenever there are any intermediary steps, it's hard.
I figure that if I did own a gun, it'd probably have been done by now. -
2019-04-05 at 5:13 AM UTClol, short-term solutions to long-term problems
how about writing predictive market trading algorithms? -
2019-04-05 at 5:16 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra how about writing predictive market trading algorithms?
Actually, programming projects are the only non-drug/alcohol thing in my life that give me at least some intrinsic pleasure.
And the prospect of making money... That also helps keep me going.
I have been looking into applying ML/AI to market analysis, but it is a HUGELY saturated field.
Despite that, I can also apply sentimental analysis to big name twitter accounts, and combine other unique and creative features to give me an edge...
Tomorrow I will likely add a few lines of code to my market analytics code... It's been a while. -
2019-04-05 at 5:16 AM UTCFine I had the best day of my life yesterday but its 12:15 now so new day and not good I just decided . If you're gonna be depressed, I am too.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-04-05 at 5:16 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks I'll take intense risks before I hit that off switch.
I got bored and decided to do something stupid and risky, which is admittedly out of character. Driving this bitch around while she's selling down, k, molly, meth. She almost oded, her partner got robbed. Very few chops and little money.
Feels like its a rabbit hole I could get trapped in, I don't think I'll speak to her again.
There's an odd draw here tho, the risk... ultimately needs a bit more reward for me apparently.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-04-05 at 5:19 AM UTCI'm also researching Facebook and Instagram marketing... People, for whatever reason, behave like highly predictable drones when it comes to the big social media sites/apps.
Facebook uses Graph API (ideal for social network apps), and I have a bit of experience with that kind of thing...
I could probably do me a great good (by which I mean, fatten my wallet and bank accounts... and maybe give a bit to a charity or two). -
2019-04-05 at 5:20 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Fine I had the best day of my life yesterday but its 12:15 now so new day and not good I just decided . If you're gonna be depressed, I am too.
Don't let my situation take you down.
I'm venting, but I'm still optimistic/hopeful.
We should all strive to keep each other around here at as high a mood-rating as we can.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-04-05 at 5:22 AM UTCThat motivation thread was legit, btw.
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2019-04-05 at 5:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by Nil I got bored and decided to do something stupid and risky, which is admittedly out of character. Driving this bitch around while she's selling down, k, molly, meth. She almost oded, her partner got robbed. Very few chops and little money.
Feels like its a rabbit hole I could get trapped in, I don't think I'll speak to her again.
There's an odd draw here tho, the risk… ultimately needs a bit more reward for me apparently.
That sounds like a night I've had before here and there. My last roommate was an escort / drug dealer... She was not an opiate user, but she was especially stressed out one night, so she took some from her sales stash... She had even admitted previously to being allergic to opiates or some such thing. Well, she stopped breathing... So here I am, with a (partially) dead hooker on my living room floor, panicking like a motherfucker...
I called 911, put the phone on speakerphone, and the operator talked me through the whole CPR procedure (as paramedics made their way over with Naloxone). -
2019-04-05 at 5:23 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks Actually, programming projects are the only non-drug/alcohol thing in my life that give me at least some intrinsic pleasure.
And the prospect of making money… That also helps keep me going.
I have been looking into applying ML/AI to market analysis, but it is a HUGELY saturated field.
Despite that, I can also apply sentimental analysis to big name twitter accounts, and combine other unique and creative features to give me an edge…
Tomorrow I will likely add a few lines of code to my market analytics code… It's been a while.
I'm thinking datamining of news sites, corporate sites, public personal twitter accounts and the like in order to build up profiles of specific companies to predict possible growth
I'm well aware that there are a LOT of groups ideally doing the same thing, but that doesn't stop YOU from benefitting. Also keep in mind a lot of 'career programmers' are spastics, and large projects get jobs done quicker but there are always problems with putting all those different pieces of code written in different styles together.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-04-05 at 5:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra I'm thinking datamining of news sites, corporate sites, public personal twitter accounts and the like in order to build up profiles of specific companies to predict possible growth
I'm well aware that there are a LOT of groups ideally doing the same thing, but that doesn't stop YOU from benefitting. Also keep in mind a lot of 'career programmers' are spastics, and large projects get jobs done quicker but there are always problems with putting all those different pieces of code written in different styles together.
Admittedly, many of my hobby projects are classic wheel-reinventing... I like to look at an existing application, maybe take a peek at the code for a short bit, then try to re-create it from scratch. It's an incredibly educational technique.
I sometimes think of applying some seriously quantitative analytics to the industries from my old company. I seriously think they made a grievous error in letting my go. I had all kinds of potential.
I was typecast, though, as the "blockchain developer." I fucking hate blockchain now. It's this huge marketing gimmick for the most part.
I have many, many, many other skills and areas of expertise. -
2019-04-05 at 5:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks I called 911, put the phone on speakerphone, and the operator talked me through the whole CPR procedure (as paramedics made their way over with Naloxone).
Sounds more intense, she was fucked up but did inform me on cpr. It was pretty fucking surreal tbh.
Anyway, she may be good to know but I'm keeping her at a distance. -
2019-04-05 at 5:31 AM UTC
Originally posted by Nil Sounds more intense, she was fucked up but did inform me on cpr. It was pretty fucking surreal tbh.
Anyway, she may be good to know but I'm keeping this her at a distance.
I should have done the same in my own case.
I fall fast into "love", and she slept with my that night, so I was kinda hooked on her.
She only got worse...
Even at the hospital that night, she threatened to accuse me of giving it to her forcibly.
The funny thing is... I didn't even take any. I used to be a heroin/opiate addict, but I know my limits.
Maybe had I taken it as well, we'd both be dead.
Weird to think about. -
2019-04-05 at 5:36 AM UTC
Originally posted by gadzooks Admittedly, many of my hobby projects are classic wheel-reinventing… I like to look at an existing application, maybe take a peek at the code for a short bit, then try to re-create it from scratch. It's an incredibly educational technique.
That's more or less how I got started... Honestly I feel like I don't care a lot about IT in general anymore given the way things are going and don't really know what else to get into given I've done years of linux/sysadmin/programming work.
Originally posted by gadzooks I was typecast, though, as the "blockchain developer." I fucking hate blockchain now. It's this huge marketing gimmick for the most part.
yeah, the concept itself is useful for decentralised tracking but it's being shoehorned in everywhere because it creates a new industry for training, certification etc. -
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