2019-01-03 at 3:18 PM UTC
Lately I've been sobering up, it's been a while since I've done any meth and I'm basically done tapering off opiates/Crouton. My days consist of working so I can't just get high 24/7 anymore so the way I use drugs has shifted from just being totally wasted or twacked on something every single day to using it to deal with anxiety/make it through the day/relax after work. But every time I try to completely sober up it's hard to live with the things I've done in the situation I'm in. My situation is still pretty good and I've got away with a lot so I'm not trying to complain but a lot of the time I feel like I need to get the fuck out of my current location, current job, current situation, current everything. Completely erase the life I have right now and start over. I daydream about foreign locations where nobody knows my name or my past or my history. I feel like if I pursued that path it wouldn't be fun though. I'd still be stuck with the shit inside. But at the same time...it's so appealing
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2019-01-03 at 3:33 PM UTC
Do it. I'm doing it. I am experiementing woth Crouton though, because it's very cheap and quite pleasant in the backgroumd at low doses. I would also suggest getting a gabapentin prescription if you want, because that is the most hwlpful drug I have taken for my anxiety without it affecting my cognition. It also helps my chronic pain
2019-01-03 at 4:59 PM UTC
GGG
victim of incest
[my veinlike two-fold aepyornidae]
It's really freeing to be a faceless nobody but it can also be really lonely. Can't imagine changing my life to that.
I also feel like I'd end up with the same type of issues eventually. Running off doesn't really solve your problems.
2019-01-03 at 5:28 PM UTC
the weirdness is calling me...maybe when i feel a little better i'll trip on AL-LAD and MXE and that will be chill
2019-01-03 at 5:36 PM UTC
Dpt is the last psychedlic I have hope for possibly putting me inti hyperspace, besides dmt which I can't seem ti get into my body by any route because of it's caustucity. Maybe IV, but I don't feel like trying to get crystal clear powder again.
Also, I'm willing to try mushrooms, but I don't have the time to do it. Even MET was pushing it yesterday because I can't find a time where my roomies are gone. Even for a couple hours, which is all I need.
I do feel better after my trip yesterday though. It was EXACTLY the same as my LSD freakout trip, but this time it wasn't very comfortable.
I get to a point each time where I experience all experiences that can be had in the universe, and I realize that this is what we do forever, and that's not exactly the most comforting thing while tripping. Beginning ti questing what "hyperspace" even is. I want to see elves. Maybe that's what the beings I saw were, but I think they were just reflections of how I percieve myself. They didn't seem to care about me.
2019-01-03 at 5:43 PM UTC
dropping ur bombs now on all we've built how does it feel to watch it burn RAISE YOUR WEAPONS AND ITS OVER
2019-01-03 at 6:20 PM UTC
I self destruct every few years ever since I was 16. I even change my name whenever I move to a new place like for example lets say my name is William. I will introduce myself as Bill, Will, Willy, Dick, Billiam, WILL I AM, etc
2019-01-03 at 7:24 PM UTC
i want to MOOOOOOOOOOOVE OUT OF HERE
*takes etiz and settles into a comfortable melancholic blur*
2019-01-03 at 8:04 PM UTC
the problem is with you, not your surroundings.
Just quit using the meth.
2019-01-03 at 9:02 PM UTC
GGG
victim of incest
[my veinlike two-fold aepyornidae]
Originally posted by esbity
Just quit using the meth.
Get out
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2019-01-03 at 9:02 PM UTC
GGG
victim of incest
[my veinlike two-fold aepyornidae]
Scronaldo is a closet homosexual
2019-01-03 at 9:21 PM UTC
kroz
weak whyte, frothy cuck, and former twink
Originally posted by Ghost
I self destruct every few years ever since I was 16. I even change my name whenever I move to a new place like for example lets say my name is William. I will introduce myself as Bill, Will, Willy, Dick, Billiam, WILL I AM, etc
HEY I"M OWEN NICE TO MEET YOU! THIS IS MY FREND WREN HE"S A DERPADEW TOO.
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2019-01-03 at 10:33 PM UTC
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