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2018-09-19 at 10:18 PM UTCSince you fuckasses had to make a nice innocent bc/hb comedy thread serious, I'm fuckin killing myself. It's the most logical thing to do, choosing not to is just choosing the slower more miserable and... shittier death.
Now I gotta get back to work. -
2018-09-19 at 11:09 PM UTC
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2018-09-20 at 3:09 AM UTCI bet if Acter could go out on a Friday with me his whole outlook on life would change. He'd be taking shots, smiling joking and having a good time in a slow motion montage set to music.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2018-10-04 at 4:05 AM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ I more or less agree that when and if someone truly wants to do it, obviously they just do it. That's of course not to say that a person can't both want to do it and also want to have their mind changed.
Also drugs and alcohol can be a huge factor, of course. There were times when I was very very close to suicide when I was properly fucked up, and far closer to following through than I ever felt sober. I'm sure that's not uncommon. It takes a lot of courage to kill yourself, despite it often being said as a cowardly thing to do.
Pain has been a huge part of my suicidal ideations, and attempts. I definitely am afraid to die, it's a scary thought. I want to live, but not if it's gonna just be this constant pain, and mental anguish. I want to be happy, just doesn't feel like anything will come together for that... I literally have the worst luck in the world, not considering my own fuck ups I am responsible for.
It takes a special mind set to do it. I was in that mind set not long ago, and somehow just saved by 1337,again. I bled myself out 2,500 + ml of blood in bottles, which is why I am certain of amount (and oh god I was I fucked up for days after that) . I'm considering getting some benzos to help me give no more fucks, and hopefully be able to complete my task next round. I wish I could just get over the fear, and do it right. -
2018-10-04 at 5:30 AM UTC
Originally posted by WE SMOOTH I bet if Acter could go out on a Friday with me his whole outlook on life would change. He'd be taking shots, smiling joking and having a good time in a slow motion montage set to music.
Will it end with a freeze frame of you two giving eachother a jumping high five or gay sex? -
2018-10-04 at 6:41 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Pain has been a huge part of my suicidal ideations, and attempts. I definitely am afraid to die, it's a scary thought. I want to live, but not if it's gonna just be this constant pain, and mental anguish. I want to be happy, just doesn't feel like anything will come together for that… I literally have the worst luck in the world, not considering my own fuck ups I am responsible for.
It takes a special mind set to do it. I was in that mind set not long ago, and somehow just saved by 1337,again. I bled myself out 2,500 + ml of blood in bottles, which is why I am certain of amount (and oh god I was I fucked up for days after that) . I'm considering getting some benzos to help me give no more fucks, and hopefully be able to complete my task next round. I wish I could just get over the fear, and do it right.
you shouldnt suicide because life sucks.
you should only suicide because death rocks.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2018-10-04 at 8:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone Pain has been a huge part of my suicidal ideations, and attempts. I definitely am afraid to die, it's a scary thought. I want to live, but not if it's gonna just be this constant pain, and mental anguish. I want to be happy, just doesn't feel like anything will come together for that… I literally have the worst luck in the world, not considering my own fuck ups I am responsible for.
It takes a special mind set to do it. I was in that mind set not long ago, and somehow just saved by 1337,again. I bled myself out 2,500 + ml of blood in bottles, which is why I am certain of amount (and oh god I was I fucked up for days after that) . I'm considering getting some benzos to help me give no more fucks, and hopefully be able to complete my task next round. I wish I could just get over the fear, and do it right.
Jesus Christ just end it already. If you are this fucked at your age there is no having a happy life anymore. -
2018-10-04 at 10:20 AM UTC
Originally posted by GGG Jesus Christ just end it already. If you are this fucked at your age there is no having a happy life anymore.
I'm working on it. As I said before, fear is a huge part of it to get over, and it takes that special mindset, for me. Anyway, to get to the point of going through with it. If it wasn't for 1337 getting a hold of me out of the blue, I'd be gone. Even Malice, who I thought was a pretty brave soul, struggled with fear before going through with it. I p don't want to do it in such away where there will be a high percentage of failure. So, that also means I need time, and space, and/or the right instrument for my demise.
Until then, here I am, posting on this shitty forum, dealing with you guys. -
2018-10-04 at 11:46 AM UTCFunny how people keep calling it a "shitty forum" and yet keep coming back again and again.
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2018-10-04 at 11:51 AM UTC
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2018-10-04 at 11:59 AM UTC
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2018-10-04 at 12:07 PM UTC
Originally posted by Item 9 "why didn't he say something"
Look what happens when we DO fucking say something
We get either ridicule, guilt-tripped, or "concern" that just makes shit worse in the long run, along with at least two weeks of "how are you feeling today??"
If someone you loved killed themselves, you should respect that decision. Obviously they were going through enough shit to make them not want to be here, and if you can't understand that then you've clearly never been in that position yourself, so you have no right to judge. Expecting someone to continue living for almost a century just so you won't be sad is the epitome of selfishness, especially when the days are so long that yesterday seems as though it never existed.
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2018-10-04 at 12:38 PM UTC
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2018-10-04 at 12:41 PM UTC
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2018-10-04 at 12:48 PM UTC
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2018-10-04 at 2:56 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I'm working on it. As I said before, fear is a huge part of it to get over, and it takes that special mindset, for me. Anyway, to get to the point of going through with it. If it wasn't for 1337 getting a hold of me out of the blue, I'd be gone. Even Malice, who I thought was a pretty brave soul, struggled with fear before going through with it. I p don't want to do it in such away where there will be a high percentage of failure. So, that also means I need time, and space, and/or the right instrument for my demise.
Until then, here I am, posting on this shitty forum, dealing with you guys.
You must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that prevents total obliteration. You will face your fear. You will permit it to pass over you and through you. And when it has gone past you will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Not even you will remain.
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2018-10-04 at 3:16 PM UTC
Originally posted by -SpectraL Funny how people keep calling it a "shitty forum" and yet keep coming back again and again.
I mean, come on... It's just some message board randomly on the internet because of another forum(s) closure. Sure, I enjoy most of you guys, else I wouldn't keep coming back, but the forum itself isn't anything to write home about. When I say "shitty" I'm saying it in the most endearing way possible. TOTSE, zoklet, and now NIS has been a huge impact on my life, especially TOTSE, during my early teens.
Originally posted by GGG You must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that prevents total obliteration. You will face your fear. You will permit it to pass over you and through you. And when it has gone past you will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Not even you will remain.
One of my dad's favorite quotes was "fear is the mind-killer". Some day soon, I'll get over it though. I'm waiting a little while longer just to see if anything changes, because I'd rather keep living the time I naturally would have. I just don't want all this pain and suffering, or at least to have an equal exchange where it's worth while to keep going for the good things. Who knows... Maybe tomorrow I'll be right as rain and happy beyond belief... But probably not. -
2018-10-04 at 5:50 PM UTCYeah, probably not. End it now bitch.
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2018-10-04 at 7:24 PM UTC
Originally posted by vindicktive vinny didnt you claimed responsibility for its closure ?
True, but I'm not the one who actually got it closed. Cause/effect. I was only the effect. It was the Fun Bunch circlejerkers who got both Totse and Zoklet closed. After all, they thought they could just continue shitting on decent users for no valid reason except their own butthurt, but then they found out different and brought the whole thing down for everyone. I was only the instrument of their demise. -
2018-10-04 at 8:36 PM UTC
Originally posted by GGG You must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that prevents total obliteration. You will face your fear. You will permit it to pass over you and through you. And when it has gone past you will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Not even you will remain.
Goddam §m£ÂgØL this is a new low from you
