2018-09-14 at 10:37 PM UTC
I took LSD + Pot about a month ago, and regressed to a child like state.
Yes, laugh at this delusional druggie as you will, but I genuinely lay in bed, remembering all sorts of weird incidents from my childhood.
It was a powerful experience. I believe I even regressed to being in the womb, and my regular annoyance at my father fucking me/my mom.
I seem to remember cocks and vaginas from an early age. Like having a penis in my mouth, and in my butt. Being nursed to sleep by my grandmother by sucking on her teats (which look just like Ohfralala's teats) after I forgot my dodee (dummies/those plastic sucking toys). Being encouraged to do a "boyfriend" by various female family members.
Pretty much nothing past the age of three or so. But these early childhood experiences were vital to me.
It's interesting that I think I was fucked by either my Dad or (as I suspect) my Mom's pedo boyfriend in England.
I suspect my Aunt knows the score.
2018-09-14 at 10:40 PM UTC
I think I remember rubbing my mom's vagina with my leg, and trying to do the same with my grandmother when she took me from my mom.
Fucked up, huh?
I also felt familiar when I started doing oral sex. Like it was familiar to me.
I was afraid of sex for the longest time, and still am to be honest. Sex brings the risk of rejection, and since I was raised in a single parent household, except largely by my grandparents, I was always terrified of rejection.
I also had vague memories of being in a car with a male, and doing something, but I have no idea what.
2018-09-14 at 10:41 PM UTC
Anyway, do you think, are these memories real, or are they the fever dream of a degenerate druggie?
I don't think it makes much difference either way.
2018-09-14 at 10:42 PM UTC
I am really high right now so I just rolled around on the couch a little laughing
But if this is serious then I’m really sorry about your Dad’s intrusive dick and the unfortunate similarity between my tit and your grandmother’s
2018-09-14 at 10:43 PM UTC
Even today I remain afraid of sex. For instance girls often hit on me, but I always reject them, due to fear of rejection, no other reason.
I am tall and good looking but poor as fuck, but I don't think I enjoy life now, and I feel like I can never enjoy life with my current mental state.
2018-09-14 at 10:53 PM UTC
And you shall eat, and be sated, and bless the Lord your God
2018-09-14 at 11:14 PM UTC
I’m too defective for husbandry.
I don’t think anybody fucked my ass when I was 7 but I do remember an older man in a trench coat exposing himself to me.
2018-09-14 at 11:26 PM UTC
AngryOnion
Big Wig
[the nightly self-effacing broadsheet]
I keep having repetitive dreams of an Icicle going in and out of my bum.
It hurt and I didn't like it but have no clue who did it.
But I think my uncle gave me herpes.
2018-09-14 at 11:37 PM UTC
AngryOnion
Big Wig
[the nightly self-effacing broadsheet]
Hurr Durr.
Everything in that post true except the herpes part.
2018-09-14 at 11:51 PM UTC
I hope you aren't being serious. And if you are, I hope you're just misremembering/filling in the blanks poorly. I sometimes wonder about this, but I tell myself it's bullshit. I can't believe it, because if I do it'll become an excuse for how fucked up I am. 😔
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