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Do you have something that you desire, yet know you can never have whatever that is?
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2018-08-19 at 11:27 PM UTChey guy u shud prolly shut up LOL u snd dum
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2018-08-19 at 11:37 PM UTCI would do anything for buttholio right now
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2018-08-19 at 11:44 PM UTC
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2018-08-19 at 11:50 PM UTC
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2018-08-19 at 11:52 PM UTC
Originally posted by totse3.com Minimalism is becoming the thing of California (Especially Bay Area)
the stupid thing is the cost of land would still make a small part of an acree (we're talking like 2000 sq feet of a fucking ancre) in itself would be 100k
so a minimalist house now is looking close to 200k
or you can move to methhead central valley 100 miles outside of San Francisco where houses are moving up into 300k
I heard Texas (like Austin) are getting expensive now.
But Houston is cheap for a decent size house.
I'd rather buy 2 acre lot next to a bluff. and dig into the bluff, circulate the air so I don't die of carbon monoxide and create a massive grow room. not for weed but for experimental vegitables that are totally organic without insect destruction.. and plump like that garbage Monsanto does.
A big tunnel cave with organic soil or those hydroponic that people use for weeds. Tomatos, potatos, squash, herbs like italian parsley, peppers, bell peppers, citrus like cuties or mini orange or even large oranges.. and even try and create a humid room for growing bananas if possible.
then when the shit falls off the grid… I'm trading food I grow for gold. fuck your US money.
I'm gonna be like a poor version of Howard Hughs.. become reclusive. learning to grow without salty ass fertilizer.. so whatever topsoil Ihave I will keep going. mixing it with decayed vegetations and chicken shit. (Im gonna have lots of chickens too)
No Pigs. not gonna be a farm. just free running range chickens inside my hidden tunnel I dig into the bluff.
OK I never farmed before. But I grew tomatoes and peppers and cilantro before. easy peasy.. but those grow easily in your windowsill.
Avocados will be difficult. beta and beta trees won't do well unless they're outside. Northern California has the best Avocados. Hass.. not them shitty Floridian ones the size of a football. man those things taste like shit. Making Guacamole from Florida avocados is nasty.
maybe when all of this is built, I will have a fish pond. tilapia
I wonder if you could grow corn indoors under artificial lights. I could make fish tacos.
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2018-08-19 at 11:55 PM UTC
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2018-08-20 at 12:12 AM UTC
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2018-08-20 at 12:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by jedi_darryl
Man card revoked and reviewed for obvious reasons.
Good luck with that.
As for the OP, I don't think I will ever be anxiety free. As in, live in the forest, forget about society, live on my own, free.
I don't think any of us will. For you it is worse, as you have the anxiety of opiate dependency hanging over you. But it's just another thing you need from society.
We are all dependent on society and upon others to give us the validation and the joy that we need.
Will I be seen in the forest running? That's a societal validation all of it's own. If I'm not what then?
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2018-08-25 at 6:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone In this thread I haven't said a single thing about any problem I may be having. I asked others about an issue, and how they cope with that issue. I even said to enter I didn't want to discuss how the topic might relate to myself. I'm more curious of what others are dealing with and how they keep going with it.
Yes, I've been suicidal for a baste majority of my life, and I have discussed it quite a bit on here, but I certainly am not trying to come off as self centered or narcissistic. I care about others and their trials and tribulations; even yours, that's why way back I did offer to try and help when you were using (not to enable, but I didn't want you to get fucked up from using dirty rigs and shit, or have to pay out the ass for just one.) Its why I've helped or at least tried to help others on here too, where I can, however I could at the time. Let me tell you, it hurts a lot to know that Malice is gone. I wish I could have done or said something to help him.
In any case I hope shit is doing well for you. Take care.
Hasn't the sepsis killed you yet? If you really want to follow in Malice's footsteps I can give you the email of his pentobarbital source. We'd all appreciate it. -
2018-08-26 at 12:19 AM UTC
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2018-08-26 at 10:28 AM UTCi would do anything for butthole
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2018-08-26 at 10:40 AM UTC
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2018-08-26 at 10:41 AM UTCnigger
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2018-08-29 at 2:38 PM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice Hasn't the sepsis killed you yet? If you really want to follow in Malice's footsteps I can give you the email of his pentobarbital source. We'd all appreciate it.
Originally posted by stare rape I want it
If you send it to me, I promise I won't kill myself with it, I would just like to have some pentobarbital on hand for emergencies -
2018-08-29 at 3:19 PM UTC