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2015-07-10 at 2:16 PM UTCIve actually been getting pretty intense withdrawals with the spice blends, when I don't use for more than a day I get intense neurotic anxiety and depression as well as an intense urge to use, so yesterday I caved in, ate 2 grams, and spent the day doing nothing except smoking. Spice has a really interesting high that I've never actually elaborated on-- it's a potent hallucinogenic drug, and smoking it causes you to almost immediately go catatonic. In that state your having all sorts of tripped out thoughts and memories of your life, and later on in the high you start getting paranoid delusions and positive symptoms of schizophrenia which remit when the high is over and your episode of pure pleasure/fear is done, then you come down somewhat stoned for 30 minutes, and feel mildly stoned for another day or two. I've been trying to convince my dad to buy me pot so I have some replacement to smoke so that I don't get the withdrawals as bad.
On my puzzles (I always have to talk about my puzzles), I'm thinking of compiling them, and turning it into an actual game, which I could then submit to Hasbro or something like that, and make $$$. Don't bother stealing my idea because my puzzles are copyrighted, but if anyone, especially someone good at gay porn, would be interested in collaborating, please notify me.
Is there some way to get rid of twitching? The morphine metabolites making me impervious to pain must have led to me severing my spinal cord or something while sleeping in a weird position, so I've been doing neurogenesis type things/facial contortions to try to tone my muscles back into place. I'm thinking I might cut caffeine out of my daily intake, if that doesn't work, cut out the abilify, then the adderall, then the smoking.
I feel like my thoughts are clearer than they usually are. It's pretty cool how antipsychotics and other chemicals that are supposed to work "behind the scenes" per se cause such profound effects in behavior as to change the way an individual expresses themselves through language. Has my personality changed significantly through my 5+ years on totse spinoffs? Of course I've grown a bit and I'm not as much as a shitposter, but I feel like I've become significantly less spirited since my 2 week visit in the psych ward around December of last year. The benzodiazepine withdrawal and discomfort I felt every moment there made me much less emotional in my opinion, because I've never experienced that much pain at any other point in my life.
My lack of social skills is really fucking getting to me. I have nothing to do all day long so I sit at home playing videogames. Then, around 8pm, there's the teen social which is for a play production but basically enables me to be in proximity of other human beings. But, I just sit there not saying anything, because I have no idea how to introduce myself to people, how to make small talk, and my social anxiety doesn't help. I'm also always intoxicated, weird, and now I have a mild twitch once in a while which is obviously great for social things. I can't exactly tell how I come off to other people though and I don't give too much of a shit. I just listen to stupid people talk while I make up shit to do by myself so I don't get bored. There are so many cute girls there and sometimes I notice one or two eyeing me but I'm sure as soon as I start talking they'll be like "there's something wrong with this guy isn't there" and become disinterested which is what sort of happened with the girl I methranted to one day about aliens and entity fractals, but she appreciated that. The turn off was when I wasn't on speed the next day and was all like *goes catatonic* n shit. Then the next day they were insulting me and I said "were you insulting me" "no" "good, keep it that way" and the fat-ish blonde girl brought her dad in with her the next day because she was scared and there were police around I think. -
2015-07-10 at 8:07 PM UTCYou have a prescription for alprazolam XR right? So, next time before you go to the teen social, crunch up some of those and take them. Don't take any spice and just stick to your prescribed dose of vyvanse. Maybe you'll find that just with the benzo social interaction comes easier to you. People like to talk about themselves so if you don't really know what to say you could consider asking them questions about themselves like what are some of their interests and why, then expand on the questions with the answers you get etc.
Also, the more you do just that the better you'll become and i'm willing to bet that at some point social interaction will come more natural to you and you'll feel confident to strike up a conversation with anyone. -
2015-07-11 at 2:58 AM UTCYou may feel dicks but I am dicks. You just adopted dicks, I was born in dicks.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2015-07-11 at 4:51 AM UTCI'm on 20mg of adderall XR a day, and at some point I plan to go up to 30mg. I'm not seeing my old psychiatrist so I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to up the dosage. What are some potentiation methods that can be done on a daily basis to make 20mg feel more like 30mg? I know I can take tums to basify the stomach. Does grapefruit juice help? Anything else? I've also heard that magnesium helps for tolerance, as well as bundy and other NMDA antagonists in general, so I'll have to check that out.
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2015-07-11 at 5:07 AM UTCI'm on 60mg of 2-FMA a day or a gnarly rock or whatever if I feel like it. Life is too short to not be on stims every waking hour.
Take memantine. If you don't enjoy feeling like fucking nigger dick you should ramp it up over a month or so starting hella low but it legit makes motherfuck stim abuse semi-sustainable and one of the few drugs you can take that's actually a net-win for longevity and shit (mostly just because you won't be fucking your liver with as many drugs because you get high easier). Learn to love the alzheimer's treatment, it's some good shit. -
2015-07-11 at 5:15 AM UTCLol I knew you would become a methhead. Make sure to make your magnum opus like I did with my SLA-3 before tolerance makes bursts of brilliance too difficult to attain. Stims are definitely preferrable to downers for me because even after the crash you still have the reassuring feeling that you actually created something and it was worthwhile. It gives you pleasure and brings to the physical world a person's hidden talents For some people that might be jerking off for 15 hours and eating the scabbed skin that falls off for the microdoses of amphetamine in the microdoses of urine that get excreted with the precum, for other people it might be making games or w.e. Do you take the 60mg of FMA as a controlled dosage that doesn't escalate, how does it effect you interpersonally?
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2015-07-11 at 5:42 AM UTCI don't actually take 60mg every day, too much neurotic self restraint, but a 60mg day is a productive day. Like any drug other than alcohol though, it makes social interaction with sober people difficult (and even with people on drugs, only psychedelics really make socialisation with other people on the same drug easier, and even then only after the peak (although most people feel the same so it's not awkward or anything)) so it's not feasible to dose up and head off to work because I'd spend the morning in meetings needing to pretend to not be up as shit and by the time solitary work actually ended up in front of me the high would mostly have worn off and wouldn't help me much. Not a bad thing though, it makes use on non-work days sustainable and I'm not particularly excited to do drugs for my employers benefit, if they want me to be nigger-dick level good they can buy me drugs themselves (they do pay for the coffee so I guess they're half way there).
To be more specific re: your question, 60mg in a day is a soft ceiling I haven't significantly exceeded although I pick how much I take on a given day based on what I need to do and my mood. 60mg at once makes social interaction blatantly unpleasant (I naturally tap my foot or fiddle with pens or whatever, stims make this worse and it bothers people I find, it takes a very conscious effort to suppress). 3 20mg doses over the day makes socialization pretty easy, more like that "I'm high and people don't even know it" kick you get when you first start smoking weed or whatever, but then you can't do open heart surgery like you can with higher doses. -
2015-07-11 at 12:13 PM UTC
I'm on 20mg of adderall XR a day, and at some point I plan to go up to 30mg. I'm not seeing my old psychiatrist so I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to up the dosage. What are some potentiation methods that can be done on a daily basis to make 20mg feel more like 30mg? I know I can take tums to basify the stomach. Does grapefruit juice help? Anything else? I've also heard that magnesium helps for tolerance, as well as bundy and other NMDA antagonists in general, so I'll have to check that out.
Basify your stomach with tums. A proper potentiator of amphetamines is Ranitidine AKA Zantac as it interferes with it's metabolism making your high last longer, i can't speak to it's intensity however. You're also right about NMDA antagonists helping with reducing/preventing tolerance.
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2017-11-05 at 11:21 PM UTCyes yes u
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2017-11-05 at 11:27 PM UTC
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2017-11-05 at 11:41 PM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie You have a prescription for alprazolam XR right? So, next time before you go to the teen social, crunch up some of those and take them. Don't take any spice and just stick to your prescribed dose of vyvanse. Maybe you'll find that just with the benzo social interaction comes easier to you. People like to talk about themselves so if you don't really know what to say you could consider asking them questions about themselves like what are some of their interests and why, then expand on the questions with the answers you get etc.
Also, the more you do just that the better you'll become and i'm willing to bet that at some point social interaction will come more natural to you and you'll feel confident to strike up a conversation with anyone.
a dr prescribed vyvanse and alprazolam at the same time? -
2017-11-05 at 11:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny I don't actually take 60mg every day, too much neurotic self restraint, but a 60mg day is a productive day. Like any drug other than alcohol though, it makes social interaction with sober people difficult (and even with people on drugs, only psychedelics really make socialisation with other people on the same drug easier, and even then only after the peak (although most people feel the same so it's not awkward or anything)) so it's not feasible to dose up and head off to work because I'd spend the morning in meetings needing to pretend to not be up as shit and by the time solitary work actually ended up in front of me the high would mostly have worn off and wouldn't help me much. Not a bad thing though, it makes use on non-work days sustainable and I'm not particularly excited to do drugs for my employers benefit, if they want me to be nigger-dick level good they can buy me drugs themselves (they do pay for the coffee so I guess they're half way there).
To be more specific re: your question, 60mg in a day is a soft ceiling I haven't significantly exceeded although I pick how much I take on a given day based on what I need to do and my mood. 60mg at once makes social interaction blatantly unpleasant (I naturally tap my foot or fiddle with pens or whatever, stims make this worse and it bothers people I find, it takes a very conscious effort to suppress). 3 20mg doses over the day makes socialization pretty easy, more like that "I'm high and people don't even know it" kick you get when you first start smoking weed or whatever, but then you can't do open heart surgery like you can with higher doses.
i never take caffeine or stimulants at work for the same reason. fuck them...im not burning myself out for the-man...i only take stimulants when im working on my own projects.
theres guys i work with or have worked with that literally consume energy drinks all day. one dude i worked with apparently was addicted to the shit. i drove a work truck to a job in the AM and it was completely clean in the interior...he borrowed it for a few hours and returned it shortly after lunch...then when i drove it back to the office there was a pile (4...5...6...give or take) of 5-hour energy drinks on the floorboard along with two empty energy drink cans and a partially filled one in the cupholder. all i ever see this dude eat is something out of a crinkly bag. with that diet this dude is going to implode. -
2017-11-05 at 11:48 PM UTCAside from meth Modafinil is the best "stimulant" in terms of "feelsgoodman" and it actually works. I've had a considerable amount of people argue this with me and my rebuttle is they were sold fake shit or they are non responders. I would even go as far to say Id rather have a 200mg SunPharma tab than a gram of good cocaine.
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2017-11-05 at 11:54 PM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Aside from meth Modafinil is the best "stimulant" in terms of "feelsgoodman" and it actually works. I've had a considerable amount of people argue this with me and my rebuttle is they were sold fake shit or they are non responders. I would even go as far to say Id rather have a 200mg SunPharma tab than a gram of good cocaine.
how does it work for mental stimulation?
for me, caffeine or caffeine/ephedrine/aspirin works fine for physical stimulation and i also notice some mental enhancement...with vyvanse being more mentally enhancing / concentration increasing than physical stimulation. -
2017-11-06 at 12:02 AM UTC
Originally posted by infinityshock how does it work for mental stimulation?
for me, caffeine or caffeine/ephedrine/aspirin works fine for physical stimulation and i also notice some mental enhancement…with vyvanse being more mentally enhancing / concentration increasing than physical stimulation.
Definitely mentally stimulating for me. I'm exaggerating a bit here but it's almost like a "limitless" pill for me. Shit I've put off for ages and ages get's done quickly and correctly. It's the "take on the world" pill for me. I'd call it more of a motivational drug than a stimulant I suppose though I'm definitely "up" when I take it for sure.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-11-06 at 12:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by infinityshock how does it work for mental stimulation?
for me, caffeine or caffeine/ephedrine/aspirin works fine for physical stimulation and i also notice some mental enhancement…with vyvanse being more mentally enhancing / concentration increasing than physical stimulation.
short version - much better than caffeine, not as intense as (nor does it have the side effects of) vyvanse. -
2017-11-06 at 12:26 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Definitely mentally stimulating for me. I'm exaggerating a bit here but it's almost like a "limitless" pill for me. Shit I've put off for ages and ages get's done quickly and correctly. It's the "take on the world" pill for me. I'd call it more of a motivational drug than a stimulant I suppose though I'm definitely "up" when I take it for sure.
ill have to see if i can get a dr to give me some to try. i dont know anyone that takes it that can give me any.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-11-06 at 12:28 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra short version - much better than caffeine, not as intense as (nor does it have the side effects of) vyvanse.
intense? i didnt notice anything 'intense' about vyvanse. if i didnt know i took it to look for its affects, i wouldnt even know i took it...other than lack of fuel for it to burn. that was noticeable. -
2017-11-06 at 1:33 AM UTC
Originally posted by infinityshock intense? i didnt notice anything 'intense' about vyvanse. if i didnt know i took it to look for its affects, i wouldnt even know i took it…other than lack of fuel for it to burn. that was noticeable.
I'm guessing you use a fairly low dosage - I've never actually tried it myself, but I'm told the effects are similar to dexamphetamine.
Regardless, modafinil, armodafinil and the other analogues are effective in my experience - makes you feel sharper and more able to concentrate with fairly minimal physical effects like jitters and the like -
2017-11-06 at 1:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra I'm guessing you use a fairly low dosage - I've never actually tried it myself, but I'm told the effects are similar to dexamphetamine.
Regardless, modafinil, armodafinil and the other analogues are effective in my experience - makes you feel sharper and more able to concentrate with fairly minimal physical effects like jitters and the like
first time was 35mg...second time was 70mg
i only get jitters from stimulants when i dont eat enough carbs...or carb load sufficiently.
