2018-06-30 at 5:03 AM UTC
If I have any friends out here who can help me, please... I don't know. I don't even know what you can do. I feel soulless and empty. I hate feeling like this. I just want to be happy again.
My holiday on my USA roadtrip was so awful that I left early and flew home by myself. :( No joke. I started out with so much confidence, but over time it just got worse and worse... I fell into a huge, huge depression seeing all my "friends" (who never gave a shit about me at all) getting laid and having women fawn all over them, while women completely ignored me.
I hate myself, I wish I was never born. I'm never going to get married or have a family... women don't like me at all. And no, it's not because I have no confidence or whatever bullshit reason you think. My friends were even saying how impressed they were at how confident I was being. The reason is because I'm ugly. I'm fucking ugly. I tried Tinder in the cities we went to, and got NO matches even with boosts, even though all my photos were me out doing things from my roadtrip, not just boring selfies. Meanwhile, all my "friends" got 20+ matches on their first day.
I hate myself... I fucking hate myself. The holiday was supposed to increase my self-esteem and confidence and turn my life around. Instead it's made me feel worse. I tried talking to my friends about this, but they just laughed and said I was overreacting. I attempted suicide and that's why I had to go home.
Now I'm more depressed than ever. Someone told me that I need to just focus on myself and forget about girls... but I'm nearly 30. It's almost too late for me. I hate myself, and I don't know what to do with my life now... I was looking forward to this trip for so long.
None of you know what this feels like. You all get laid. You all get girls liking you. That's never happened for me.
I don't even know what to do now... "durr emotionally destroy women, durrr just forget about women"... I'm so fucking soul dead and I no longer have any self-love inside of me. I'm completely broken. Completely fucking broken. I hate myself. :( I'm such a pathetic loser that I couldn't even get a girl interested in me while overseas and staying in hostels. :(
I just wish someone genuinely cared about me. I feel so alone. I'm posting this here because I figure this is the 1 place where some people may actually like me, but I guess I should prepare myself for insults and abuse.
2018-06-30 at 5:10 AM UTC
Have you considered 'joining the other team?'
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2018-06-30 at 5:12 AM UTC
You will find women, hell even friendships in general tend to be more bullshit than they are worth. Wanna deal with unlimited bullshit and drama that isn't yours? Fuck stop this world cause I just wanna get off!
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2018-06-30 at 5:25 AM UTC
Yes
Queers will luv u niggs
2018-06-30 at 5:26 AM UTC
"Homosexuality isn't a choice! You're born that way!"
"Just turn gay lol"
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2018-06-30 at 5:27 AM UTC
Ensign Galm
African Astronaut
[specifically erupt this tetrachloromethane]
You have a fucked up view of the world. Until that changes, you will never get laid. No woman wants to be with a man who hates women.
2018-06-30 at 5:32 AM UTC
Nobody likes me. :( I am completely undesirable.
2018-06-30 at 5:32 AM UTC
At least ur not.feelimg like ur dying how sensitive can a pussy get
2018-06-30 at 5:40 AM UTC
I'm pretty lost too, Ah shit...right? All I got is "get some weed & booze "
But stay away from mdma. that shit might be messing with your emotions too much and shit, so I say get some weed / alcohol / benzos (and nitrous)... that might help keep your head above water for a while.
2018-06-30 at 5:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by Item 9
I'm pretty lost too, Ah shit…right? All I got is "get some weed & booze "
But stay away from mdma. that shit might be messing with your emotions too much and shit, so I say get some weed / alcohol / benzos (and nitrous)… that might help keep your head above water for a while.
I smoked weed in seattle and it was really good. Specifically, "super glue", bought it legally. Btw, whenever that land down under song plays on the radio I laugh so hard every time.
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2018-06-30 at 5:47 AM UTC
alcohol's so fucking shit. whenever one of my friends was drunk he'd get so fucking brutally mean, literally punching me and insulting me. fucking fucked, fucking asshole.
2018-06-30 at 5:56 AM UTC
Seriously tho
Where did zanicks maniacs ass go
