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2015-11-20 at 9:06 AM UTC
Sometimes I think about how easy it would be to end everything without a second thought. I feel obligated to keep on, my mother just lost her mother and I couldn't leave her alone like that, but I find her inaccessible and prone to lonely sorrow. My father is wrapped up in his bids on real estate. My girlfriend is stressed about work and sex has diminished to the odd occasion where she's too drunk and I feel like I've taken advantage. My sister has moved away like all my friends and I'm stuck in a toxic work environment to which I've dedicated all my energy, but now I'm watching my colleagues quite and the ones remaining turn on my as we seek promotion through leadership. If I could systematically remove all ties, absolve all those close of memories that I had ever existed, I might be able to quietly remove myself and let the world forget that I had been born, and it saddens me that this fantasy was born out of my own hubris.
It's good to hear it, Zanick. After writing about it for so long, it really does help you feel less isolated and alienated to see someone feeling similarly, grappling with pain of existence. And I've also come to genuinely feel saddened that people feel this way, as opposed to always enjoying, being indifferent to, or feeling above their suffering. -
2015-11-20 at 1:43 PM UTC
Sometimes I think about how easy it would be to end everything without a second thought. I feel obligated to keep on, my mother just lost her mother and I couldn't leave her alone like that, but I find her inaccessible and prone to lonely sorrow. My father is wrapped up in his bids on real estate. My girlfriend is stressed about work and sex has diminished to the odd occasion where she's too drunk and I feel like I've taken advantage. My sister has moved away like all my friends and I'm stuck in a toxic work environment to which I've dedicated all my energy, but now I'm watching my colleagues quite and the ones remaining turn on my as we seek promotion through leadership. If I could systematically remove all ties, absolve all those close of memories that I had ever existed, I might be able to quietly remove myself and let the world forget that I had been born, and it saddens me that this fantasy was born out of my own hubris.
I can't tell you I haven't thought about that before. I was in an abusive marriage for 5 years.. He wouldn't let me go to church. He ripped up my bible.. he locked me in closets. He threatened to kill me if I left and my family. By the 5th time I had him arrested and the order of protection was lifted.... we got back together... (insanity, right).. I had filed for divorce.. behind his back.. and found out I was pregnant.. with what would be my 3rd daughter. I lived for them. The DAY he dislocated my 2 year old's arm.. by yanking her up.. and came at me.. after having given birth to my 3rd daughter... I left.. It was hard..emotionally to find my own identity again.. but Jesus was always there for me. Now, I have a 10 week old son, too.
In the bible, Jeremiah, felt the same way. He said, "Cursed be the day I was conceived in my mother's womb!" God strengthened him. He went on to do great and mighty things for the kingdom of God. Isa. Most of your prophets were depressed people.. but they lived to hear from heaven. They knew the life they were living, they were not living unto themselves, but unto a greater purpose. God's purpose. Kingdom business.
Try to focus on the good things. The things that make you happy. The things that ease your mind. Your mind is where the battle is. Jesus, thought enough of your life.. enough of you.. to suffer on the cross with you in his thoughts.. saying.. YOU'RE WORTH ALL OF THIS PAIN AND SUFFERING.. because I WANT AN ETERNITY with YOU! We all suffer to some degree. Don't let life make you cold.... guard your heart.. for out of the heart flows the issues of life...
>>And if your job isn't making you happy.. find something you enjoy doing. You're not stuck there, but you can be happy that you have a job. Ya know? Take a vacation. or go to a quiet place for the weekend to escape the chaos that resounds in your mind. Put YOURSELF as a priority. That's not being selfish. If you don't take care of yourself, how can you take care of anything else you have? -
2015-11-20 at 7:31 PM UTCMy ex's grandmother stabbed her abusive husband to death. Grow a pair and take care of the problem. Jesus may have said turn the other cheek but he also said to sell your coat and buy a sword.
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2015-11-20 at 10:23 PM UTC
My ex's grandmother stabbed her abusive husband to death. Grow a pair and take care of the problem. Jesus may have said turn the other cheek but he also said to sell your coat and buy a sword.
What bible are you reading? -
2015-11-20 at 11:05 PM UTC[h=1][SIZE=18px]Luke 22:36[/SIZE]King James Version (KJV)[/h] [FONT=Helvetica Neue][SIZE=16px][FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]36 [/SIZE][/FONT]Then said he unto them, But now, he that hath a purse, let him take it, and likewise his scrip: and he that hath no sword, let him sell his garment, and buy one.[/SIZE][/FONT]
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2015-11-21 at 12:09 AM UTCThe sword was used for self defense. It wasn't an offensive weapon.
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2015-11-21 at 5:57 AM UTCSince you have three names. let's take the WORD OF GOD.. or the SWORD OF THE LORD into context..
[FONT=Helvetica Neue][SIZE=16px][FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]Luke 22:35-
35 [/SIZE][/FONT]And He said to them, “When I sent you out without a money belt and[provision] bag and [extra] sandals, did you lack anything?†They answered, “Nothing.â€
JESUS WAS SAYING.. I provided everything you needed why look anywhere else?
[FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]36 [/SIZE][/FONT]Then He said to them, “But now, he who has a money belt is to take it along, (JESUS IS SAYING, YOU'RE LOST FAITH IN ME???)
and also his [provision] bag, and he who has no sword is to sell his coat and buy one.(Jesus is saying.. don't take matters into your own hands.. TRUST GOD.. ) [FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]37 [/SIZE][/FONT]For I tell you that this [Scripture] which is written must be completed and fulfilled in Me: ‘And He was counted with the criminals’; for that which refers to Me has its fulfillment (NO SERVANT IS GREATER THAN HIS MASTER!!!) [and is settled].†[FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]38 [/SIZE][/FONT]They said, “Lord, look, here are two swords.†And He said to them, “It is enough.†(HOW MANY OF THE DISCIPLES BETRAYED JESUS??? ) ***TWO.. PETER AND JUDAS.. ONE WAS RIGHTEOUS.. **** [/SIZE][/FONT]
[h=3]The Garden of Gethsemane[/h] [FONT=Helvetica Neue][SIZE=16px][FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]39 [/SIZE][/FONT]And He came out and went, as was His habit, to the Mount of Olives; and the disciples followed Him. [FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]40 [/SIZE][/FONT]When He arrived at the place [called Gethsemane], He said to them, “Pray continually that you may not fall into temptation.â€[FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]41 [/SIZE][/FONT]And He withdrew from them about a stone’s throw, and knelt down and prayed, [FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]42 [/SIZE][/FONT]saying, “Father, if You are willing, remove this cup [of divine wrath]from Me; yet not My will, but [always] Yours be done.†[FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]43 [/SIZE][/FONT][d]Now an angel appeared to Him from heaven, strengthening Him. [FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]44 [/SIZE][/FONT]And being in agony [deeply distressed and anguished; almost to the point of death], He prayed more intently; and His [e]sweat became like drops of blood, falling down on the ground. [FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]45 [/SIZE][/FONT]When He rose from prayer, He came to the disciples and found them sleeping from sorrow , [FONT=Arial][SIZE=12px]46 [/SIZE][/FONT]and He said to them, “Why are you sleeping? Get up and pray that you may not fall into temptation.â€[/SIZE][/FONT]
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2015-11-21 at 10:50 AM UTC
he locked me in closets. He threatened to kill me if I left and my family.
I left.. It was hard..emotionally to find my own identity again.. but Jesus was always there for me. Now, I have a 10 week old son, too.
So lets get this straight, you now also have a 10 week old son? Through who? Him? How many kids is this? -
2015-11-21 at 2:36 PM UTCAny closet is composed of jiprock, which you can easily kick a hole through with your heel.
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2015-11-22 at 5:19 AM UTC
Any closet is composed of jiprock, which you can easily kick a hole through with your heel.
No, sweetheart. I kicked the whole frame in. I did fight back...when it came to my kids that was it. I left.
My son....is by a different man...my daughters are by my ex husband... -
2015-11-22 at 2:01 PM UTC
No, sweetheart. I kicked the whole frame in. I did fight back…
Since you called me sweetheart, I'll believe you.
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2015-11-23 at 3:55 PM UTCJesus fucking christ this thread got tl;dr fast.
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2015-11-23 at 6:41 PM UTCJesus also physically attacked the moneychangers in the temple. He wasn't no pacifist, he fought evil with both fists.
You should take his example and defend your self and your family. Gut that son of a bitch like a fish. -
2015-11-23 at 8:12 PM UTC
Jesus also physically attacked the moneychangers in the temple. He wasn't no pacifist, he fought evil with both fists.
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Then again, he's the designate King. He's allowed. As for us, we have been instructed to stay out of things, as this battle belongs to God, not men. -
2015-11-23 at 9 PM UTC
mmQ.. I'd say if God wanted to He would. There are some religious groups that actually believe.. (jedis) that Satan works for God.. because Satan can not do anything apart from God's consent.. and that if we were to follow the theology that there is another power in opposition to God.. then, we are monotheistic.. and there is ONE God.. so that would be.. a sin.
Definitely one of Spectard's Barbie Dolls.
However, according to my beliefs.. I believe that Satan did fall because sin was found in him, as the prophets say. The book of Job was actually written before Genesis.. So when Satan asked God's permission, at that time,.. was before his fall from heaven. I believe we are living in the greatest time in history.. both great and terrible.. darkness will get darker.. light will get brighter.. which you can clearly see bible prophecy being fulfilled when you turn on the news.
EITHER, the bible was written over a course of time by an elite group of people who planned this out from the beginning to the end. Or God forged his heart into man and spoke through them .. showing things that must take place.. and GOD Himself planned the beginning from the end.. or the end from the beginning… God is NOT limited by time..
Now, Jesus.. points to ONE specific prophecy during his ministry on this earth.. Daniel.. chapters 11: and 12: Read it for yourself and search the scriptures..
I do not smoke enough herb to think on your level, buddy! -
2015-11-24 at 12:47 AM UTC
Speaking of God/s, is there anything an omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent God couldn't/can't do? Could such a God destroy Him/Her/Itself and the eternal structure of everything that we currently are able to know and understand as existence, time, and space? Could God, essentially, END ETERNITY?
Or, on a lighter thought, could God beat Him/Her/Itself up, or have a fair fight with a conclusive winner for that matter?
My god can beat the shit out of my god.
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2015-11-24 at 1 AM UTC
My god can beat the shit out of my god.
http://niggasin.space/forum/oh-the-humanities/46553-do-you-think-jesues-ever-wacked-off
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