so, i've been living alone in my own flat since more than a year. i pay my rent and bills with the profits i made off cryptocurrencies - i told you to buy it back then in 2016, kys- the only RL social interactions i've had in the last 8 months are when i go out to make groceries, and actually i've barely indulged in any online interaction whatsoever in the last 4-5 months too. i have a list of online shitposters i'd have liked to know better and have some degree of meaningful communication but depression got the best out of me. the funny thing is that i had big projects for this year, and all this time slipped through my fingers yesterday i was literally in a state of delirium -i've not been eating and drinking since a couple of days because i cannot find the energy to get out of my bed and do groceries, and i've been barely sleeping-
i'll likely neck myself this new year's eve, what should i do with my cryptobags? >inb4 some poorfag posts his address no i'm not gonna donate you piece of shit
also, ITT we talk about how long you can live in complete isolation before going insane
Hey Anti, long time no see. I'm sorry to hear your depression has been that bad. On the off chance i'm one of the shitposters on your list of people you would have liked to know better, it can still happen. I switched XMPPs a bunch because some of the servers i use are sometimes shitty, but i can send you one of my addys that i am currently using. I am not sure whether that's the one you have as well. Also, i'm not saying you have to do anything. I just want you to know the option is there for you should you like to make use of it. I did always enjoy our conversations. On here and the one or two times in IM.
On the subject of delirium, try to get up and drink some water at least. Delirium can be a sign of severe dehydration, i am sure you will feel better after you rehydrate if you haven't already.
What's more, it's never too late to start working on those projects you had planned. I know it sounds a bit cliché but once you start and decide for yourself that you will consistently work on it for a certain number of hours per week you will find that it will come more easily, and, you will perhaps even enjoy the fact that whatever it is you are doing is progressing and slowly coming to what you envision it to be.
Also, i'm not going to tell you not to kill yourself. That is ultimately a decision that is yours alone to make. From what i know though you're a smart person and as far as i am aware you're not a bad person either. I'd say the world would be a little worse off without you in it. Suicide or not the way you feel right now will pass, one way or another.
On a slightly more cheerful note, if you do end up going through with it. Use your bitcoin to rent a botnet to DDoS the NSA and hire assorted black hats to generally cause some chaos. Go out with a bang, as it were.
Personally i have never been isolated to the extent that you describe so i would not know how long i could live like that. But since people are social creatures it's not hard to imagine it would take a serious toll on my mental health as i am sure it would for others.
Anyway hang in there fampai.
Love Always, Sophie.
Post last edited by Sophie at 2017-12-21T12:32:50.014417+00:00
Originally posted by infinityshock
I wish I could. I hate people but unfortunately need to interact with them.
that sounds like a something a complete beta would say.
you only have to interact with peole becos you've gotta to work. and you only gotta to work becos you havent got enough savings this far to lead a hermits life up there, in the mountains.
don't kill yourself plz, it all goes away eventually, 4 years ago I thought I would never recover, 2 years ago I was completely recovered, now I'm recoving again but from XTREME opiate addiction which is differant from what I was recovering from initially it will go away if you give it time.
