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2017-09-10 at 1:02 AM UTC
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2017-09-10 at 1:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist also its way too early for the L word, lol.
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I did the same thing, but she is still talking to me, i gave up on caring about whether it was too soon or not, she didn't say anything when I told her that, but she still comes to me, don't think of it as a big deal, she probably just chalked it up to you being an idiot/ (or whatever) I said it while drunk and i say a lot of things while drunk.
I kinda felt that way, but I honestly don't care because I know she thinks about me when I'm not around. It'll all be good.
I'v personally never been through treatment before because i hate being incarcerated, so I've drug it out all sweaty and sick in my bed, but she should be fine a lot sooner than you think and will want to talk to you.
A couple times I almost told my gf I didn't want to hang after we made plans because I felt not like myself but that quickly passes.
But luckily with my gf she's on vacation with her family for another week so I can be all cringey and sick as fuck, until she gets back.
But not trying to be negative or anything but will she know you're still doing your thing while she's sober?
my gf knows im an alchy so thats not a problem with me because shes not.
Post last edited by Bill Krozby at 2017-09-10T01:06:03.571925+00:00 -
2017-09-10 at 7:21 AM UTCI dont want to rain on this shit parade but 1) LSD is right....people fuck like rabbis in rehab. 2) You really think youre going to have a successful, meaningful relationship with a girl you j ust met, who's going to be coming out of rehab, and YOU are still using? If youre not taking concrete steps to get clean, the entire time she's in there, the main thing theyre going to be telling her is "YOU NEED PEOPLE LIKE HIM OUT OF YOUR LIFE. AS LONG AS HES USING, YOU HAVE NO CHANCE AT SOBRIETY. IF HE HAD REAL LOVE FOR YOU, DO YOU HONESTLY THINK HED BE LETTING YOU SELL YOUR BODY TO STRANGE MEN?"
Idk. Seems like a losing proposition if youre not trying to get clean too. Either she'll get clean and leave you, or she'll stay with you and start using again, keep fucking weird sad cocks. Seems like a lose-lose to me. But what do I know, sheeit? -
2017-09-10 at 8:04 AM UTCBut I suppose I should be constructive, so heres something from the heart, tailored to what I know about you as a person, as a human being, as a man, a lover, a friend, and a street philosopher......
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Come back home quick
So I can piss on you
Or you piss on me
Or me, you and your friend
Or the guy you fucked Monday
With the dodgy bell-end
But even should you choose
To not piss on my face
I guess ill still like you
If you do other degenerate shit in its place
But no srsly what I mean
Is this'll turn out in the end
If we lie to get welfare
And slang your gash for £10
I guess Im just saying
Youre smart and youre brave
And amazing for doing
What youre doing today
At some point youll be angry
And might want to quit-
Tired of sitting, listening
To their faggotty 12 Step shit
*But its not about them
Or their expectations
Just your own sense of balance, joy,
Gratitude, patience.
And when your work is done
You can leave there with pride, knowing
Theres a life worth living waiting for you
On the other side.
p.s- And even if you relapse
Or fuck around in there and cheat
It'd still be nice if you'd come around
Once a week or so
So I can piss on ur feet.
kthxbye <3 ur pahtna,
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2017-09-10 at 8:05 AM UTC
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2017-09-10 at 8:08 AM UTC
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2017-09-10 at 8:10 AM UTCYour poem is good tho. Kudos.
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2017-09-10 at 8:12 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo Your poem is good tho. Kudos.
Why thank you. I always fancied myself a man of words, before i lobotomized myself with three quarters of a million dollars worth of street drugs.
It seemed like something perfect for him, straight from his disgusting, diseased, race-mixing heart. -
2017-09-10 at 8:14 AM UTCIndeed. It's as if he wrote it himself.
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2017-09-10 at 9:02 AM UTCWhere the fuck are u NARC? I need feedback. We've got to get this thing nailed down. This is a pivotal moment.
Was also toying with:
Give me your worst
Ill give you my best
Dreams become real when
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2017-09-10 at 9:45 AM UTC
Originally posted by CASPER I dont want to rain on this shit parade but 1) LSD is right….people fuck like rabbis in rehab. 2) You really think youre going to have a successful, meaningful relationship with a girl you j ust met, who's going to be coming out of rehab, and YOU are still using? If youre not taking concrete steps to get clean, the entire time she's in there, the main thing theyre going to be telling her is "YOU NEED PEOPLE LIKE HIM OUT OF YOUR LIFE. AS LONG AS HES USING, YOU HAVE NO CHANCE AT SOBRIETY. IF HE HAD REAL LOVE FOR YOU, DO YOU HONESTLY THINK HED BE LETTING YOU SELL YOUR BODY TO STRANGE MEN?"
Idk. Seems like a losing proposition if youre not trying to get clean too. Either she'll get clean and leave you, or she'll stay with you and start using again, keep fucking weird sad cocks. Seems like a lose-lose to me. But what do I know, sheeit?
here's the thing, she wants to break before she goes in so she can concentrate on getting clean and shit, and then take things from there when its over. i mean i know she may well have a completely different idea when she gets out. i think its a good idea as her getting clean is important. i know she is ditching her old number coz she don't want punters and shit calling her when she gets out, which is fair enough. she wants me to write my number down and she'll call when she gets out. for all i know she may well have a change of mind once she's out and will never call, i hope she does but i won't find out for 6 weeks. i know full well she could fuck somebody in there, that's life, your chick could be fucking somebody else while your at work so that's neither here or there. plus i have to deal with her doing that for a living right now. to be honest, i've been using for 21 years, i've seen many people go to detox, get clean and fuck up again. i hate to say it but in my experience she is no where near ready to quit and i can't see it lasting 5 minutes when she's out, but i hope it does. i don't use full time now myself. i have little binges then i won't touch it for a period, at least a week or so. i don't have a habit, sometimes if i have a two/three day binge i feel slight withdrawls but i've dealt with that so many times now i can do it standing on my head, it doesn't bother me. if i hookup with her when she's out and she is clean then i will only ever use away from her, i wouldn't even tell her.
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2017-09-10 at 9:48 AM UTCalso i'm yet to ask her for a golden shower, i will wait until she is out.
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2017-09-10 at 9:52 AM UTCthat would be really nice tho, she got the sweetest pussy, its very unique. i don't think i have ever seen such a tiny clit on a girl, i'm not even exaggerating, this is like a grain of rice, its tiny. and i'm talking a grain of rice before its cooked.
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2017-09-10 at 10:06 AM UTCalso: tfw a prostitute tells you 'you have got a pretty big dick tho, most guys are a lot smaller'. i didn't consider myself to be any more than average tbph. chicks have said that in the past but i figure chicks say stuff like that to make you feel good.
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2017-09-10 at 10:36 AM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist here's the thing, she wants to break before she goes in so she can concentrate on getting clean and shit, and then take things from there when its over. i mean i know she may well have a completely different idea when she gets out. i think its a good idea as her getting clean is important. i know she is ditching her old number coz she don't want punters and shit calling her when she gets out, which is fair enough. she wants me to write my number down and she'll call when she gets out. for all i know she may well have a change of mind once she's out and will never call, i hope she does but i won't find out for 6 weeks. i know full well she could fuck somebody in there, that's life, your chick could be fucking somebody else while your at work so that's neither here or there. plus i have to deal with her doing that for a living right now. to be honest, i've been using for 21 years, i've seen many people go to detox, get clean and fuck up again. i hate to say it but in my experience she is no where near ready to quit and i can't see it lasting 5 minutes when she's out, but i hope it does. i don't use full time now myself. i have little binges then i won't touch it for a period, at least a week or so. i don't have a habit, sometimes if i have a two/three day binge i feel slight withdrawls but i've dealt with that so many times now i can do it standing on my head, it doesn't bother me. if i hookup with her when she's out and she is clean then i will only ever use away from her, i wouldn't even tell her.
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no offense but you'll fuck that up and she'll know you're high addicts are notorious narcissist that think they can hide their narcissistic supply -
2017-09-10 at 10:39 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must have been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
I keep looking for something I can't get
Broken hearts lie all around me
And I don't see an easy way to get out of this
Her diary it sits on the bedside table
The curtains are closed, the cats in the cradle
Who would've thought that a boy like me could come to this?
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been some kind of kiss
I should have walked away, I should have walked away
Is there any just cause for feeling like this?
On the surface I'm a name on a list
I try to be discreet but then blow it again
I've lost and found, it's my final mistake
She's loving by proxy, no give and all take
'Cos I've been thrilled to fantasy one too many times
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must've been something you said
I just died in your arms tonight
Oh I, I just died in your arms tonight
It must been some kind of kiss
I should have walked away, I should have walked away
It was a long hot night
She made it easy, she made it feel right
But now it's over the moment has gone
I followed my hands not my head, I knew I was wrong
Oh I, I just died in your arms
Oh I, I just died in your arms
even though you don't say it every day, i can tell you're a very passionate, passionate man, more power to you bud.
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2017-09-10 at 10:56 AM UTC
Originally posted by Bill Krozby no offense but you'll fuck that up and she'll know you're high addicts are notorious narcissist that think they can hide their narcissistic supply
i am going to cut my use down a lot once she goes. i'm not an addict, i can take it or leave it these days. i have other stuff to concentrate on anyway.
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2017-09-10 at 1:16 PM UTCFaggots trying to tear my boy narcie down
You go, boy. You fucking go get her. Sex her negro ass, boy -
2017-09-10 at 1:33 PM UTC
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2017-09-10 at 1:39 PM UTCshes just saying this morning that she has no work on today and she thinks she's not gonna bother now and just stick to her methadone till she goes. she was panicking yesterday coz a client cancelled on her and she was going to have to go and find one. but this involves the really shitty clients that she hates doing. i gave her 100 quid so she didn't have to bother. it left me pretty broke but least i got to have her to myself all day.
omg wait, did i just hire her as a prostitute? WTF
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