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2017-08-13 at 4:46 AM UTCI don't think he knows how to joke.
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2017-08-13 at 5:25 AM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone I do worry about my son. I rarely post anything about my son because I would prefer to keep that shit off of here. I deal with him everyday. I love him, for sure, but I'd rather forget about that shit when I come here to post since I pretty much revolve around him. Everything I am working on is for him, else I'd just check out now, I really, really want to, you know. He won't be in foster care when I am gone. He'll be with people I know and trust to bring him up and raise him right.
the problem with plans is that things rarely go according to plan, and often will go way off what was planned for. there is literally an infinite of possibilities of how your plan for your son will work out. now normally its ok because you can adapt your plans as and when they veer off course. but if you don't exist then you do not have that option any more. what happens if the people you arranged to look after your son all died in a car accident, or in a million other ways? what if they all fell out and the situation changed dramatically? what about new people who you presently have no knowledge of come into the mix?
normally if the situation changed in such a way that was negative for your son, then you would adapt your plans accordingly. however, if you don't exist then that option is no longer available to you.
what's more, bad and negative experiences will be a part of your sons life no matter what the situation is for him. that's just a part of everyone’s life. some negative aspects experienced by some people will be more negative than for others, but they will still be negative experiences. but with you checking out of your sons life like that, he will always see the fact that you chose not to be there for him to help him through those negatives, to mean that you are directly responsible for the negative things that happened to him. he will twist these thoughts in his head over the years to the point he will fucking hate you for it. most likely this will lead him to drink, drugs or other forms of damaging self-destructive behaivior. and he will continue this self-destruction because in his head it won't be him that is responsible for it, he will assign himself to the fact that he is a fuck up because his bitch of a mom has made him a fuck up. and that will make it virtually impossible for him to reverse the cycle of damaging self-destructive behaivior. and chances are it will be the end of him eventually, after living a petty tormented existence for however long he can manage to maintain that.
you could see to it that the chance of that happening are greatly reduced however. but you need to be around to stand guard at all times. being a mom to your son isn't a job you can outsource.
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2017-08-13 at 5:33 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice No one's going to fucking tell him that. They may not even know what happened to her due to confidentially, or they may just be told she passed away, which probably happens to a fair amount of adopted children.
Christ you guys are fucking presumptuous condescending cunts.
you must have missed the part where she said
Originally posted by Hydromorphone He won't be in foster care when I am gone. He'll be with people I know and trust to bring him up and raise him right.
now who's a fucking presumptuous condescending cunt?
also, for the record, i am an adopted child, so don't try telling me about that shit. i'm not presuming nothing here, everything i have said to hydro in this fred is from personal experience or from the experiences of people close to me.
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2017-08-13 at 5:41 AM UTC
Originally posted by Discount Whore 2.0 malice, do you know any adopted children? Most of the ones I met know what happened to their parents and if not they found out as they god older. its the foster home kids who dont get told anything and its not like he couldnt find out anyway.
as usual malice thinks in his head that he has everything worked out, when in reality he doesn't know shit because he has a serious lack of life experience to draw from.
he probably thinks real life is like it is on television and in the movies, haha.
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2017-08-13 at 5:48 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Heh, I just had a funny thought about past experiences with women.
I’m very bashful and have noticed that on some occasions I’ve accidentally glanced at a woman walking contrary to me on the sidewalk or a path and my normally stern unbroken demeanor, which makes me appear intimidating and unapproachable, has softened into a coy type of smile, almost as if I’m somewhat amused.
Every time they’ve smiled in return, shown a positive reception, and usually spoken to me/or said something softly.
The same thing has happened just from looking around. When scanning an area I have a very intense unbroken glance. My gaze simply crossing a receptive girl has been enough for them to attempt to speak to me, or even change seats on the train, even if they were speaking to someone, and sit next to me.
It’s funny because if I wanted to attract an attractive girl I wouldn’t even have to try. So many men would kill for this ability, have such trouble with women and feel desperation, and I’ve rejected every single one by simply ignoring them. 27 years and I’ve never so much as held hands due to the philosophical system I continually developed in my mind, countless unconventional thoughts on existence, life, the human condition, and how to live; then actually putting them into action, continually recreating, redefining, aspects of myself.
Oh, autism.
I am going to get a vasectomy ASAP though and give dating multiple girls a try some time after school begins. Due to this being my first experience, I’m strongly against the conventional manner of being exclusive to one girl while dating. If I can convince them, explain that I want to try multiple women without partaking in sex in order to discover and identify what I like, it would be amazing if I actually managed to set a group of girls competing for me, possibly even leading to the ultimate dream of actually for forming a harem scenario!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
OH MY FUCKING GOD I'M IN FUCKING BITS HERE. THIS IS THE MOST HILARIOUS THING I'VE READ ON TOTSE, ZOKLET, RDFRN AND NIGGAS COMBINED. JESUS FUCKING CHRIST MALICE, THANK YOU FOR THE LULZ.
LITERALLY TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY FACE HERE HAHAHALOL
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2017-08-13 at 5:50 AM UTCmalice, the problem you gonna have with girls is the moment you open your mouth.
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2017-08-13 at 6:32 AM UTC
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery Lol. There are quite a few people in my area I know who are polyamorous. You might be able to get something like that going on, but I doubt you can date multiple girls while having them remain exclusive to you, let alone compete over you. Much more likely that they'll either be against it or expect polyamory on both ends of the relationship.
Dude, totally! I've considered the same thing.
I'm in the San Francisco fucking Bay Area! This place probably has one of the highest, if not the highest, concentration of polyamorous girls in the nation.
But, no, that isn't exactly what I want.
You know, in the past it was actually the standard for people to date someone new every week. It was because their parents didn't want to take the risk of things getting too serious (sex) before marriage and to become exposed to a wide variety of people in order to learn what they like, what they want in a partner. I completely agree with the latter. It's absurd how people remain in relationships for years and pass by countless people they could have explored. -
2017-08-13 at 6:37 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny lol, yeah, that's definitely a plan that's going to work.
Of course it wouldn't work for you.
I've changed immensely over the past month!
For example: My sink is finally empty! I literally thing in there, holy shit, I don't know how long. It was long as fuck, like, I wouldn't be surprised if it was over a year. I remember having to put my hand in there recently and I was actually afraid that an unknown creepy creature may have spawned in there, flinching and yelping mildly when I my hand brushed against something.
Lanny, why are you so fucking presumptuous. You have limited information about other people, you need to improve your theory of mind and understand the complexity others can have, in their minds and external lives. You're just being incredibly small minded. -
2017-08-13 at 7:19 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Of course it wouldn't work for you.
I've changed immensely over the past month!
For example: My sink is finally empty! I literally thing in there, holy shit, I don't know how long. It was long as fuck, like, I wouldn't be surprised if it was over a year. I remember having to put my hand in there recently and I was actually afraid that an unknown creepy creature may have spawned in there, flinching and yelping mildly when I my hand brushed against something.
Lanny, why are you so fucking presumptuous. You have limited information about other people, you need to improve your theory of mind and understand the complexity others can have, in their minds and external lives. You're just being incredibly small minded.
has it ever occurred to you that you're incredibly naive?
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2017-08-13 at 10:32 AM UTCYou're a low quality person, your opinions don't matter.
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2017-08-13 at 10:46 AM UTC
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2017-08-13 at 10:48 AM UTC
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2017-08-13 at 10:50 AM UTCafter all, it is very pretentious to consider yourself a 'high quality' person. especially when you are such a fucking freakfest like yourself malice.
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2017-08-13 at 3:55 PM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist the problem with plans is that things rarely go according to plan, and often will go way off what was planned for. there is literally an infinite of possibilities of how your plan for your son will work out. now normally its ok because you can adapt your plans as and when they veer off course. but if you don't exist then you do not have that option any more. what happens if the people you arranged to look after your son all died in a car accident, or in a million other ways? what if they all fell out and the situation changed dramatically? what about new people who you presently have no knowledge of come into the mix?
normally if the situation changed in such a way that was negative for your son, then you would adapt your plans accordingly. however, if you don't exist then that option is no longer available to you.
what's more, bad and negative experiences will be a part of your sons life no matter what the situation is for him. that's just a part of everyone’s life. some negative aspects experienced by some people will be more negative than for others, but they will still be negative experiences. but with you checking out of your sons life like that, he will always see the fact that you chose not to be there for him to help him through those negatives, to mean that you are directly responsible for the negative things that happened to him. he will twist these thoughts in his head over the years to the point he will fucking hate you for it. most likely this will lead him to drink, drugs or other forms of damaging self-destructive behaivior. and he will continue this self-destruction because in his head it won't be him that is responsible for it, he will assign himself to the fact that he is a fuck up because his bitch of a mom has made him a fuck up. and that will make it virtually impossible for him to reverse the cycle of damaging self-destructive behaivior. and chances are it will be the end of him eventually, after living a petty tormented existence for however long he can manage to maintain that.
you could see to it that the chance of that happening are greatly reduced however. but you need to be around to stand guard at all times. being a mom to your son isn't a job you can outsource.
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He will hate me in life, as much a he will come to hate me with my death. I really don't care about that. He likely, dude to genetic, personality, and other traits will turn to drugs, with or without me in his life. Honestly, he's got a better shot of having a drug free life without me in it that he does with my influence, being I'm physically dependent now, and will be for the rest of my life.
If we were talking about the average person, then I'd be more inclined to believe you, but we aren't. I am in no way average, and have a fuckload of negative traits, with very few positive ones, and even this positive traits often manifest and act in a negative way. He really will be better off without me in his life. He doesn't deserve to be apart of my negative that is the entirety of who I am, and what makes me, me.
With the logic you used here, then what if I were killed in a car accident, or my thoracic aortic aneurysm finally ruptures? The latter is actually pretty likely to happen at some point in the near future if I keep on existing. I'm losing all my independence day by day, and it's likely he will be forced out of my life anyway, with that if I keep existing, with my health taking a nose-dive, before too much longer. I seizure fairly regularly, pretty frequently. I have been in status epilepticus, twice (or so I thought more than that actually. I was only counting the times I was fucked for an hour or so with back to back seizures happening more than 3 back to back, and not returning to normal, but apparently having two or more seizures 5minutes apart without returning to normal constitutes status epilepticus, which under those definitions, I've been in that state dozens of times, and it's fairly common. I just realized this when I was looking up how to spell "epilepticus" and seen the mention for it being of that duration/experience, where I was just going on what I've seen and known from other epileptic people I've known long before I was epileptic myself.) which was really, really fucked. Both times I was yelled and screamed at, right before the one incident began, I was physically shaken awake despite them knowing stress, yelling, screaming, and my anxiety, and fear being elevated is a huge trigger for me to seizure. It took me a while to realize the correlation, along with sleep deprivation which is a bitch since I have insomnia. I have low energy, motivation, so when I have taken stims, they usually contribute to me seizuring too, but... shit has to get done, so it's a trade off I often will make. Anti-epileptic drugs really, really fucking steal who I am as a person, and take my already low energy status to a whole new low. I've tried a couple different ones. They all make me want to shrivel up and die inside, the way they make me feel, very similar to anti-psychotic drugs, such as seroquel, do to me, and I have taken benzos/used alcohol that does help, and seizured despite using. Phenibut helped som what, but I don't want another monkey on my back, especially a GABA/benzo monkey on my back. I've seizured taking gabapentin too, at really high, insane doses, albeit, it wasn't as common as it would have been had I had nothing to take through the WDs from T-PAIN I was in. I'm losing my memory. I swear, I feel like I have Alzheimers. It's scary as fuck not remembering things I know damned well I should have recalled, but can't. It's getting worse and worse for me. I'm scared as fuck for how this is progressing. I'm sure my steroid use for the crippling inflammation that cropped up is contributing here, and making me far more erratic and emotionally fucked, and insane. I knew it'd do this to me, and why I haven't bothered to use it unless shit was really, really fucking bad. I went a year where I needed it pretty regularly, and seen how that affected me after the fact and it was horrible so for me to use it again, it was pretty dire circumstances. My cardiac problems are worsening, with severe angina, rapid heart rate... I've had a couple times in the past few months (last time just maybe a week ago while talking with PoC, which kinda got sparked off with an anxiety attack) where it sure as hell felt just like the time I went to the ER for a heart attack. I don't doubt I've suffered more than the one I was diagnosed with back in March 2016.
If I don't kill myself, I likely will die in the near future anyway, just with a lot more suffering and won't have shit sorted out for my son properly if I go forward attempting to live. Not just that, but things have already been set into motion and if I back out now, it's going to get really, really bad for me.
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2017-08-13 at 5:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by hydromorphone He will hate me in life, as much a he will come to hate me with my death. I really don't care about that. He likely, dude to genetic, personality, and other traits will turn to drugs, with or without me in his life. Honestly, he's got a better shot of having a drug free life without me in it that he does with my influence, being I'm physically dependent now, and will be for the rest of my life.
If we were talking about the average person, then I'd be more inclined to believe you, but we aren't. I am in no way average, and have a fuckload of negative traits, with very few positive ones, and even this positive traits often manifest and act in a negative way. He really will be better off without me in his life. He doesn't deserve to be apart of my negative that is the entirety of who I am, and what makes me, me.
With the logic you used here, then what if I were killed in a car accident, or my thoracic aortic aneurysm finally ruptures? The latter is actually pretty likely to happen at some point in the near future if I keep on existing. I'm losing all my independence day by day, and it's likely he will be forced out of my life anyway, with that if I keep existing, with my health taking a nose-dive, before too much longer. I seizure fairly regularly, pretty frequently. I have been in status epilepticus, twice (or so I thought more than that actually. I was only counting the times I was fucked for an hour or so with back to back seizures happening more than 3 back to back, and not returning to normal, but apparently having two or more seizures 5minutes apart without returning to normal constitutes status epilepticus, which under those definitions, I've been in that state dozens of times, and it's fairly common. I just realized this when I was looking up how to spell "epilepticus" and seen the mention for it being of that duration/experience, where I was just going on what I've seen and known from other epileptic people I've known long before I was epileptic myself.) which was really, really fucked. Both times I was yelled and screamed at, right before the one incident began, I was physically shaken awake despite them knowing stress, yelling, screaming, and my anxiety, and fear being elevated is a huge trigger for me to seizure. It took me a while to realize the correlation, along with sleep deprivation which is a bitch since I have insomnia. I have low energy, motivation, so when I have taken stims, they usually contribute to me seizuring too, but… shit has to get done, so it's a trade off I often will make. Anti-epileptic drugs really, really fucking steal who I am as a person, and take my already low energy status to a whole new low. I've tried a couple different ones. They all make me want to shrivel up and die inside, the way they make me feel, very similar to anti-psychotic drugs, such as seroquel, do to me, and I have taken benzos/used alcohol that does help, and seizured despite using. Phenibut helped som what, but I don't want another monkey on my back, especially a GABA/benzo monkey on my back. I've seizured taking gabapentin too, at really high, insane doses, albeit, it wasn't as common as it would have been had I had nothing to take through the WDs from T-PAIN I was in. I'm losing my memory. I swear, I feel like I have Alzheimers. It's scary as fuck not remembering things I know damned well I should have recalled, but can't. It's getting worse and worse for me. I'm scared as fuck for how this is progressing. I'm sure my steroid use for the crippling inflammation that cropped up is contributing here, and making me far more erratic and emotionally fucked, and insane. I knew it'd do this to me, and why I haven't bothered to use it unless shit was really, really fucking bad. I went a year where I needed it pretty regularly, and seen how that affected me after the fact and it was horrible so for me to use it again, it was pretty dire circumstances. My cardiac problems are worsening, with severe angina, rapid heart rate… I've had a couple times in the past few months (last time just maybe a week ago while talking with PoC, which kinda got sparked off with an anxiety attack) where it sure as hell felt just like the time I went to the ER for a heart attack. I don't doubt I've suffered more than the one I was diagnosed with back in March 2016.
If I don't kill myself, I likely will die in the near future anyway, just with a lot more suffering and won't have shit sorted out for my son properly if I go forward attempting to live. Not just that, but things have already been set into motion and if I back out now, it's going to get really, really bad for me.
I'm in so much pain day to day, and I'm tired of gritting my teeth to just deal with it and hide it from everyone around me.
oh fucking hell, mememememe, that's all i'm fucking hearing here. YOUR SON NEEDS YOU FOR FUCK SAKE. stop being a fucking pussy and step up, he needs you to do that. do you think you're the only parent suffering with illness? do you think your son is the only kid with a parent who is ill, or drug dependant? he'll forgive you for any of that because he'll know its out of your control and as a son will love you unconditionally. what he won't forgive you for, and will fucking hate and resent you for is abandoning him.
have a look at your son, is he not worth going to hell and back for?
right now you are sounding like the worst parent ever.
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2017-08-13 at 7:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Of course it wouldn't work for you.
I've changed immensely over the past month!
For example: My sink is finally empty! I literally thing in there, holy shit, I don't know how long. It was long as fuck, like, I wouldn't be surprised if it was over a year. I remember having to put my hand in there recently and I was actually afraid that an unknown creepy creature may have spawned in there, flinching and yelping mildly when I my hand brushed against something.
"Hey baby, did you know I finally managed to do my dishes for the first time in a year?"
"Oh malice! That's so fucking sexy! Allow me to join your harem"
Maybe you should retell the epic of that time a girl sat next to you on the train to demonstrate your high value as a mate.
Originally posted by hydromorphone If I don't kill myself, I likely will die in the near future anyway, just with a lot more suffering and won't have shit sorted out for my son properly if I go forward attempting to live. Not just that, but things have already been set into motion and if I back out now, it's going to get really, really bad for me.
Not to be a jerk but it seems to me like every time you get into a spat with a romantic partner suddenly your demise becomes imminent. You've been suicidal and on death's doorstep by your own account for at least four years that I can count.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-13 at 7:52 PM UTCneeded the malice joke. my MIL got drunk last night at our house so we had to drive her home. She told me she left her keys there (so we could move it) and I saw her leave the keys on the table, but I guess she took them again. We were even goin to bring her car back to her. I want to tow her shit. she didnt do it on purpose though shes a sweet lady, just stupid. My wife just drove the car through our front lawn so she could get out to my MIL's to get the keys lol
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2017-08-13 at 8:22 PM UTCWill everyone just make a little vocaroo? If you don't want to show your faces, can i at least hear what you sound like? Thank you!
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2017-08-13 at 8:58 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ Will everyone just make a little vocaroo? If you don't want to show your faces, can i at least hear what you sound like? Thank you!
http://vocaroo.com/i/s0TwEwSc4Tsf
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2017-08-13 at 9:51 PM UTC
Originally posted by NARCassist oh fucking hell, mememememe, that's all i'm fucking hearing here. YOUR SON NEEDS YOU FOR FUCK SAKE. stop being a fucking pussy and step up, he needs you to do that. do you think you're the only parent suffering with illness? do you think your son is the only kid with a parent who is ill, or drug dependant? he'll forgive you for any of that because he'll know its out of your control and as a son will love you unconditionally. what he won't forgive you for, and will fucking hate and resent you for is abandoning him.
have a look at your son, is he not worth going to hell and back for?
right now you are sounding like the worst parent ever.
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I probably am the worst parent ever, besides his father. I'm trying to do right by him. There is a lot wrong with me that prevents me from giving him the life he deserves and will suffer for if I'm left in his life. I cannot provide for him properly, and I realize that now. A lot to do with my health issues. My dependency is solely revolving around my chronic pain and physical ailments. I never stopped being suicidal, this is something I've dealt with for a looooong time. I have been going steadily down hill for the last 4 years or so, probably longer, just more rapidly in the last couple years.
I am just trying to do the best I can for him before I go and set him up right. Once I'm gone, it doesn't matter. I am a selfish person. I think he should grow up resenting me while I'm dead, than me resenting him while I'm alive.
