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2017-08-10 at 9:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by Piles of Crack You guys should mind your own fucking business and let us destroy our relationship on our own. We don't need help with that, believe me.
well maybe if you guys didn't post a blow by blow account on a public bulletin board people wouldn't be minding to your business. i mean did you really expect to post all that and for no one to read or respond to it?
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2017-08-10 at 9:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by aldra I'm not creating a tumblr account so I can look at bizarro porn
Tumblr has some of the most violent and 'omg what the fuck' type of porn that I've ever seen. And I frequent efukt. I can't watch the intense sadist tumblr porn, not my taste, wayyy too far. Speaking of tumblr, I actually have a funny little anecdote.
So, when I first got out of prison, I had heard about this online trend, tumblr. It had reminded me of some sort of modern xanga (remember xanga?). I had four months of parole, four months of staying sober out in the real world & I needed a distraction. I got a tumblr and I LOVED it, astrology stuff, comedy stuff, all kinds of gifs and jokes.
Unbeknownst to me, there was an idiotic and large SJW community on tumblr & that is all anyone associated tumblr with. Nobody bothered to mention this and I never cam across anything too preachy, you choose who you follow so...
So, here's me, just getting out of prison, I had been a tad shut out from the outside world for a short bit.
I would ACTUALLY tell new people that I met in class or online how much I loved tumblr. *cringe and facepalm* Looking back at the reactions I would get, it all makes so much sense now... At the time, I had no idea of the SJW reputation that tumblr had. When I told them how much I liked tumblr and when I'd exlaim, "Do you have one too?!" They either would ignore what I had just said entirely and start talking about something else or they would *heavy sigh with eye roll proceeded with awkward silence*The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-10 at 9:08 AM UTC
Originally posted by 霍比特人说中文不好 Second of all, I think you'll be very disappointed if you go into college expecting it to be full of "substantially more intelligent people." I recently finished up a philosophy class and there was just this massive lack of logic and understanding. I started the class pretty much driving the discussion but very quickly stopped due to almost everybody in there being a total fucking idiot, even the teacher.
§m£ÂgØL, you probably go to a shitty college. The one I go to has the highest percentage of Transfers to UC Berkeley, which is a few blocks away, ranked #6 worldwide, above Princeton and Yale. There are a ton of highly motivated students specifically set on transferring there, devoting their entire two years to it. We also get to take 1 class at UC Berkeley per semester, and those that don't have fees waived only have to pay the same cost per unit as the community college, which is really fucking sweet.
You don't know what the culture of Berkeley is like, the people.
Originally posted by RisiR † Been there, done that.
Malice, how are you going to deal with this?
I suppose I'll just have to increase my mental discipline and avoid going into a rage/having an aneurysm, as well as strictly be aware of and control my behavior (Avoid behaving like I do online.)
Originally posted by LegalizeSpiritualDiscovery or they're some savant that will never fit in in society (looking at you, Malice).
Oh, gee, thanks, what a nice thing to hear. Well, savant is kind of flattering, but actual cases of savants are exceedingly rare, with under 100 confirmed. They do tend to have autism, though. The thing is, they're also all horribly disabled, including mentally (Intelligence.), and are pretty much only good at one specific thing.
You know, I was actually nice to you toward the end of Zoklet. Do you remember when you were staying at your aunt's house in Texas and law enforcement was engaged in an operation right by you, with helicopters, and it being shown on TV that a person was on foot, going through a part right behind her house?
You gave enough details to find your exact address easily, which I verified you could do by looking for the news story. Instead of doxing you I quickly PM'd you about it and you thanked me and edited your post.
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2017-08-10 at 9:11 AM UTCIf I was god I would create a universe exactly like our own except whenever someone said "medicated" when talking about being high they'd immediately get kicked in the balls super hard by a member of the heavenly host or just whoever was close by or something. That, precisely, is the distance between us and the best of all possible worlds.
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2017-08-10 at 9:25 AM UTCLanny, you're just jealous we're medicated on better drugs than you, stop being such a dick.
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2017-08-10 at 9:26 AM UTClol but I agree it's fucking stupid when people smoking weed say they're "medicated/medicating"... that's just dumb.
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2017-08-10 at 9:27 AM UTC"medicating" should only be used for seriously getting high... like IVing heroin or hydromorphone.
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2017-08-10 at 9:28 AM UTCquadruple post
YAY
lost my mind...
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2017-08-10 at 9:39 AM UTC
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2017-08-10 at 9:50 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice I don't want to! Why would I? Should physical appearance be given such importance? I don't know anything about her. What are odds that she'll be likeable, when I dislike all people?
you never know til you try, but you're iright, too many shit people in the world, it' not worth that risk. I envy PoC from being as realistic and avoiding risk like he did, where me... I always do that, and ALWAYS end up "having the world fuck me in the ass" as he would say. -
2017-08-10 at 10:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Aww yeah, OG Kush is always good if you live in a great medical state, consistently get the real thing. The dispensaries here in SF are so well run! Those of you who have never been there and live in a really conservative state or rural area would probably be shocked.
Adventures in autism. Includes women!:
1.)Up to 75mg of Nardil; score! Psychiatrist said he'd be willing to go up the 'maximum', 90mg, which is great. I was going to aim for it regardless so I could stockpile the pills, if only to send them to other people, and to have a replacement in case of accident (Extremely unlikely.).
Damn I'm fucking stoned after that long break. (After note: I really shouldn't smoke too much, I end up getting couch locked and not doing anything, shunning responsibility.)
It's amazing how well I can manipulate, read, and predict people, despite being an autistic recluse. I know the reason why this is. Drat, I really should have been recording the audio with a phone app, but forgot from the start. It could have been really useful to some people, to hear exactly what was said and analyze why it worked so well. I know just what to say, how to respond, deal with any situation, even maintain my demeanor to suit my purposes.
2.) There was a girl on the train, seemed past her mid 20s, who I noticed seemed to change seats for no apparent reason on a train car that only had a few people. I noticed certain movement patterns of how she was looking around, and she sat on the seat next to me. Fun fact: I highly prefer to have at least one seat between me and other people on all sides, if possible. This greatly irritated me, as I was reading with my earmuffs on and ear plugs in, attempting to concentrate as much as possible, which is greatly disturbed by others.
I immediately developed a natural strong aggravated countenance (A fair percentage of the time (Used to be far higher in the past), when around people, particularly in areas dense with people, enclosed spaces greatly augmenting this effect, I likely possess the angriest demeanor you will ever see.) and began rapidly putting all my things in my cloth reusable bag, then moved to another seat. During this entire segment, putting my things away until moving when she was out of my line of sight, I noticed with my superior peripheral vision that she was looking at me, and her expression/demeanor seemed to convey some non-typical reaction, as in it affected her considerably more than just some random person doing this.
A few moments after I moved to another seat, which wasn't that far away, just one of my preferred sections, she walked past me and sat 2 seats in front of me.
She was actually attractive. White, at a healthy weight etc., you know, generally attractive body type, shoulder length hair (preferred), feminine, although not overly and impacted by her fashion style, etc. She also had somewhat large tattoo(s) on her arm(s) at least. Not the typical kind females choose, they may have been tasteful, or in line with her style/subculture/personality/social group/whatever she identifies with. IIRC she was wearing black clothing and boots, like the kind some punk girls or girls into metal wear. That was essentially her look, except not excessive, filthy looking like many punks are, and generally tasteful and attractive. Lanny probably would have liked her.
Through later analysis I pondered whether something about me had drawn her. The shirt I was wearing is rather eye catching, and definitely something that would particularly appeal to a woman like her. Levi's 541 jeans have an athletic fit for larger quads and butts. I specifically chose them after extensively researching the optimal jeans for those who seriously lift weights. I have a great ass.
*Goes to full length sliding closet door mirrors. Starts checking out ass. Side profile, lift shirt hem above it, arch back/engage in lordosis (Actually an ubiquitous seually receptive position among females in the animal kingdom). Grope a bit, grab big handfuls and give a good squeeze. Lower pants and boxers, bend knees and arch back more* That ass just doesn't quit. I swear it's far shapelier and more aesthetic than the average woman's, the majority of women, which isn't a very high threshold, to be honest.
Uh, anyway, I also have a surprisingly good build. I know why I retain an abnormally large amount of muscle mass and strength. My arms still look strong and toned, chest big, abs, shoulders, pretty much everything. My skin also looked great that day after the new technique I adopted.
I also have a theory, that actually had strong compelling evidence in support, about personality and biological profiles in the Bay Area, those of both women and men. The women being particularly feminized, in a cognitive sense, which is different from the far greater traditional femininity that conservative women display. This also applies to the males, along with biological correlates, personality traits, fashion/aesthetics etc. Essentially I'm competing with relatively feminized men with meeker personalities, as well as women who still possess powerful biological predispositions and, whether they are consciously aware of it or not, accept it, are still naturally attracted to men who appear highly masculine.
In fact, women like her, who can be described as considerably more 'masculine' in certain ways, personality and cognitive profile, will demand even more masculine men in order to fulfill their natural desire, which is pushed to a greater extreme due to the need for dominance.
I indeed have this demeanor, appearance (No, I don't normally wear a wig. And when not posing for the rare picture, alone, I look very different, extremely stern.), and have repeatedly noticed a distinct pattern.
Oh, and she may have also mistaken my ear muffs for headphones. Definitely seems like the kind of girl who's strongly into music. Another thing is that after she moved in front of me, after I had moved away from her to be alone, I had the impression she may have been teasing me and was concerned about social interaction occurring more than nearly anything, possibly teasing me, messing with me. She never said anything. Later, as I was waiting for the train to stop and get off, I ended up right next to her seats, although, fortunately, she had taken the window seat. It was right where the group of people near the door ended. I needed to tie the handles of my bag closed, and was having a hard time doing it for some reason, so I put it on the armrest of the seat next to hers, right by the aisle. I was having a hard time with this because of how narrow it is, but refused to put it on her seat and get closer.
She never said anything. In retrospect, I probably hurt her feelings and she was feeling somewhat depressed, which is a natural reaction.
Good god I'm a jerk. Then again, I was in a depressive bipolar phase, and due to all the problems I have it would have been a terrible choice anyway. Definitely could have been done better, though, making it seem like I was moving away for another reason.
3.) When I turned the corner to the house gate, (Bar fence goes around 2 sides.) I saw this particularly attractive, highly feminine girl with a very nice body, and what seemed to be a distinct look (Not due to clothing, her face, potentially in a positive manner. I was curious about what race she was, because it didn't seem clear and may have been a minority in the neighborhood (I don't mean 'minority' and in non-white.), and also what she looked like up close, because many, if not most, girls are ruined by their face.
I'll admit I strayed from the path in devoting even a small amount of attention to something so insubstantial as the simple aesthetic pleasantness of a woman, as well as behavior in line with mild biological desire, the natural behavior displayed when two people show some non-platonic potential interest in each other.
I'll admit I delayed a bit and kept my eyes on her using my peripheral vision, but delaying would have required too much time, so I went in, expecting I could see her through the spaced bar fence. Unfortunately I was wrong and it completely blocked her face from view and I couldn't develop an accurate image of her body.
Here's the good part, though: I noticed her dip her head down past the thick top horizontal bar to try to catch a glance at me.
If I ever see her again I'm crossing to the other side of the street.
Reason I wouldn't get involved? I'm pretty still unknown to others due to being a super-recluse. If she noticed how fucking weird I was, began speculating, gossiping, it could end up with rumors being spread of me, people knowing where I live, looking at me if they ever notice me, based on her description etc.
It's essentially akin to the phrase, "Don't shit where you eat."
Post last edited by Malice at 2017-08-10T09:27:34.485282+00:00
you know its pretty amazing how you've managed to figure out and know exactly how women think? truly extraordinary.
hahaha, lol, looks like somebody got a hell of a lesson to learn about figuring out how women think.
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2017-08-10 at 11:15 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-10 at 11:15 AM UTCWhat did I get wrong, then?
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2017-08-10 at 11:26 AM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-08-10 at 11:31 AM UTCI understand them just fine. Whaddya wanna know? They're emotionally unstable, unpredictable, and to blame for nearly 90% of divorces and break-ups.
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2017-08-10 at 11:32 AM UTCErr, wait, I was thinking of myself there.
Women? Fuck if I know.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-10 at 11:33 AM UTCFuck, if I am bipolar, overcoming the prolonged period of severe depression may have made the independent bipolar worse, allowed it to fully manifest.
A common effect of severe depression is profound emotional numbing, a limited range and intensity of emotions, along severe anergia, avolition (inability to utilize willpower.), loss of interest in the world, in any goals etc.
This would perfectly mask the manic phase. There were powerful dips at intervals as well, increasing the severity and losing the ability to function.
Unfortunately when you're so unemotional and see life as profoundly devoid of meaning and purpose, along with the complete lack of external feedback or intervention, it can make simply become the new 'normal'. After literal years, relentless, with no real change or meaningful occurrences in life, you may not even recall or understand what it's like to feel happy and well functioning.
Jesus, it's only been 3 months since I started Nardil and it's already made a drastic difference. An array of clear signs.
I hadn't really thought about that 3 year period since I've been getting better and focused on other things, never having placed aby value or meaning in the past or my own memories.
But that was an unimaginably fucket up period. I've genuinely felt amazed I was even alive at multiple points. It was a living hell that never ended.
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2017-08-10 at 11:37 AM UTCOn the other hand, I definitely show signs of hypomania during the manic cycle. The up periods are definitely seeming past the normal range for humans in general. Fortunately it seems to last longer than the depressive cycle. Getting rid of the depressive could practically make it a gift.
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2017-08-10 at 11:42 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice On the other hand, I definitely show signs of hypomania during the manic cycle. The up periods are definitely seeming past the normal range for humans in general. Fortunately it seems to last longer than the depressive cycle. Getting rid of the depressive could practically make it a gift.
All I know is having a genuine manic experience, or manic-esque, and then declining, and then never being able to experience that again, after a series of different tries, over many years, just feeling more and more defeated, well it uh, it sucks. I'd probably be doing better if I never took anti depressant in the first place, it's like I'm chasing the goddamn hypomania dragon all the while fighting endless bouts of depression. It's not even a sad depression anymore when it happens, it's just defeat but I am too stubborn to go away.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-08-10 at 11:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice What did I get wrong, then?
i hate to say it but cap'n flaccid is right on the money.
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Believing that women can be understood.
whatever you think she was thinking, the only thing you can be sure of is that she was thinking something else entirely.
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Post last edited by NARCassist at 2017-08-10T11:47:27.957107+00:00
