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2017-06-27 at 4:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Noticed some interesting effects from Nardil yesterday and today. I was getting constant hypotension, along with some postural hypotension on top of that. Mentioned before that this is a strong sign of reaching efficacy.
Noticed that I didn't experience the same feeling of agoraphobia, strong apprehension and resistance, to going outside to the grocery store. I was much calmer outside, and what was particularly noticeable is that I felt considerably more at ease around others. In general I hate being in stores around others most of all. The more crowded and noisier, the more sensory information, the more I dislike a place.
I'm such an aspie that I generally turn my head 90 degrees away from/at right angles to anyone who's passing me on the sidewalk walking contrary to my direction. I don't even like looking at cars that are passing in the same manner, if the street is closest to the side I'm walking on. Very uncomfortable. I'm so unsocialized that it feels like the standard reaction among animals, threatening.
This diminishing to the point where I'm able to keep facing ahead is a massive difference, a sign of social behavior modulation, because it's normally completely consistent.
Experienced the same thing today, minus the hypotension, although possibly to a lower extent. I did hit my time limit 30 minutes into a walk, but I only had 1 Nardil tablet in my system and probably needed more. That and I need to consistently practice getting used to being outside and around others, see if or how much my time limit increases.
i know you like to give the copout that youre a turbo aut*ist or whatever and i dont like people as much as the next guy but you shouldnt act like youre trying to condition yourself to harsh weather or something, theyre people just like you are and alot of them are probably socially anxious tooThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-27 at 4:29 AM UTC
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2017-06-27 at 4:31 AM UTC
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2017-06-27 at 4:32 AM UTCwhy does meth make me crave talking to people
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2017-06-27 at 4:33 AM UTC
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2017-06-27 at 4:37 AM UTC
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2017-06-27 at 4:41 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote but why
i have to full stop in a few weeks for employment drug testing and i dont know if/when i will get another opportunity for a very long time
i want to make the most of my degeneracy window
Look at some of the other users on this site to see where meth gets you.
It's also very unhealthy, and goes against your supposed religion.
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2017-06-27 at 4:43 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo Look at some of the other users on this site to see where meth gets you.
It's also very unhealthy, and goes against your supposed religion.
Cut it out.
well in my defense im not smoking or snorting actual shard;ive been buying "tabs" which are basically just pressed pills with a various drug base in them. some have coke in them, some meth, and some heroin. ive only been buying the meth ones since coke is meh, i like amphetamines, and im not a huge fan of opiates -
2017-06-27 at 4:47 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote well in my defense im not smoking or snorting actual shard;ive been buying "tabs" which are basically just pressed pills with a various drug base in them. some have coke in them, some meth, and some heroin. ive only been buying the meth ones since coke is meh, i like amphetamines, and im not a huge fan of opiates
It doesn't really matter what form you're taking it, what matters is that you are. You're better than that and need to stop rationalizing and put away the drugs. -
2017-06-27 at 4:47 AM UTCstay the fuck away from opiates if you dont want to ruin your life. you're better off huffing paint.
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2017-06-27 at 5 AM UTCThis song makes me want to lay in my bed staring at the ceiling with my dick out/naked and ponder what type of flat screen monitor I should mount above me.....Enjoy :)
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2017-06-27 at 5:03 AM UTCI hope yall niggas are prepared for
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2017-06-27 at 5:04 AM UTC
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2017-06-27 at 5:04 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo It doesn't really matter what form you're taking it, what matters is that you are. You're better than that and need to stop rationalizing and put away the drugs.
well amphetamine is my favorite drug but the people who used to sell me adderall dont anymore so this is kind of the next best thing. im not rationalizing it either; i know drugs arent exactly a healthy choice unless i could hypothetically get them 100% purity and ingest them in a way thats without detriment.
and as for being "better" than that, im not using them as a form of escapism or a as a coping mechanism or something, a stimulant like meth doesnt do anything besides augment my everyday schedule. i work 2-4 days a week at my current shitter job and when im not working im at home playing videogames. since i have all that downtime, i normally would be inclined to eat more than i should because im not doing shit but playing games or watching videos for hours at a time. meth makes me not eat as a recreational activity, keeps me going in the games im playing, and helps me with keeping up to speed with chores around the house or otherwise tackling menial tasks that i put off.
i mean, i wouldnt ever want to do things like organize my bookshelf, clean my shower, tidy up the house, do laundry, etc.
tldr crank makes me not eat in excess and want to do shitty bitch work around the apartment that needs to be done but i otherwise wouldnt bother doing -
2017-06-27 at 5:06 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote well in my defense im not smoking or snorting actual shard;
Well there's your fucking problem right there nigger!!
Just joking. Dargo is right on this one. When I do meth I turn into a sexual deviant and can go into "revenge" mode where I'm hell bent on hurting particular people but that's just my lifestyle anyways. And again it's the choices I've made that makes these things rather normal but meth seems to intensify them to a degree that is unbearable unless these fantasies are turned into a reality pretty quickly.
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2017-06-27 at 5:18 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Well there's your fucking problem right there nigger!!
Just joking. Dargo is right on this one. When I do meth I turn into a sexual deviant and can go into "revenge" mode where I'm hell bent on hurting particular people but that's just my lifestyle anyways. And again it's the choices I've made that makes these things rather normal but meth seems to intensify them to a degree that is unbearable unless these fantasies are turned into a reality pretty quickly.
Post last edited by RestStop at 2017-06-27T05:08:55.711214+00:00
yeah that doesnt happen to me
i still beat my meat on the daily like i did before to the same shit on /gif/ and i dont really have any social effects besides wanting to talk to people and maybe a little paranoia but thats only if im trying to buy some in a fucky areaThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-06-27 at 5:22 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote yeah that doesnt happen to me
i still beat my meat on the daily like i did before to the same shit on /gif/ and i dont really have any social effects besides wanting to talk to people and maybe a little paranoia but thats only if im trying to buy some in a fucky area
That's good then. The increased sociability leads me to believe that your dosage is rather low(again, good) you're not getting "stuck" yet where you literally can't leave a certain place/situation because you're so fixated on it. Trust me you'll know when you're stuck. -
2017-06-27 at 5:29 AM UTC
Originally posted by Lanny I hope yall niggas are prepared for
Originally posted by cerakote and as for being "better" than that, im not using them as a form of escapism or a as a coping mechanism or something, a stimulant like meth doesnt do anything besides augment my everyday schedule. i work 2-4 days a week at my current shitter job and when im not working im at home playing videogames. since i have all that downtime, i normally would be inclined to eat more than i should because im not doing shit but playing games or watching videos for hours at a time. meth makes me not eat as a recreational activity, keeps me going in the games im playing, and helps me with keeping up to speed with chores around the house or otherwise tackling menial tasks that i put off.
i mean, i wouldnt ever want to do things like organize my bookshelf, clean my shower, tidy up the house, do laundry, etc.
tldr crank makes me not eat in excess and want to do shitty bitch work around the apartment that needs to be done but i otherwise wouldnt bother doing
2-FMA at therapeutic doses, generally no higher than 10mg once a day, also had the same effect on me, along with augmenting my ability to sustain concentration, mental endurance, some other aspects of cognitive ability. Meth made me a better human being. -
2017-06-27 at 5:35 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice 2-FMA at therapeutic doses, generally no higher than 10mg once a day, also had the same effect on me, along with augmenting my ability to sustain concentration, mental endurance, some other aspects of cognitive ability. Meth made me a better human being.
yeah the effects mentioned are what i feel and enjoy when im on it. it makes me go from feeling lazy and unmotivated to feeling sharp as a hot knife
i can work for hours with ease, actually focus on things, never need to eat, and act and speak with confidence (or at least more confidence than before)
also ive wanted to try the fluorinated amphetamines since i discovered theyre a thing but i cbf to order some and have to try and get to it before my dad does or otherwise worry about him discovering i was buying drugs on the internet -
2017-06-27 at 5:38 AM UTC
Originally posted by cerakote yeah the effects mentioned are what i feel and enjoy when im on it. it makes me go from feeling lazy and unmotivated to feeling sharp as a hot knife
i can work for hours with ease, actually focus on things, never need to eat, and act and speak with confidence (or at least more confidence than before)
also ive wanted to try the fluorinated amphetamines since i discovered theyre a thing but i cbf to order some and have to try and get to it before my dad does or otherwise worry about him discovering i was buying drugs on the internet
Post office box Brah. All you need generally is a form of photo ID and $30.
