Way down till the fire finally dies out You've got 'em wrapped around your finger, watch 'em fall down There’s something beautiful & tragic in the fallout
But I think I'm just retarded. I never really liked music except rap music when I'm fucked up and then when I'm sober now. I don't enjoy any of it. I don't like the military style ballads I like when I'm really tweaking hard when I'm sober. I don't like gangster rap when I'm not drinking. All this ooo ahh shit doesn't sound good unless I'm stoned.
I literally prefer listening to some monotone ass nigga talk about nothing on a documentary or truecrime podcast than music.
Every now and then I like a song and I'll listen to it like 3-4 times like "I am the god of hellfire." song that I heard some guy playing in his care while he was filming himself committing a rampage shooting, so I listen to it a couple times but then I just kinda get burned out of it.
Even my favorite songs I don't really like anymore. It's been like this for about six months, but when I drank in January I immediately loved listening to all the black rappers I like but when the alcohol wore off so did my joy from listening to it.
IDK maybe I fucked my brain up or something but I just can't get down with any of it and I've tried all my favorites (Natioanlist, Rap, Pop, Gangster Rap, Classic Rock) & even tried other shit like when Kinkou and Paul Wozny post videos in our telegram chat. It all just sounds like shit and noise to me now.
