2017-06-09 at 2:49 AM UTC
Kuje Tej
Houston
[disorientate this purple-tinged ornithorhynchidae]
Like an idiot I started smoking spice again weeks ago, and physical pain makes everything fucking worse, collapsed sinus, tooth digging into skull, drug addiction to e point where I. Hate. The feeling of all "recreational" drugs lately, nothing is pleasurable. Even when sober, I'm too weak in the spine to quit and too brain damaged to ever feel. It takes nightly 1mg xanax that i dont even have a prescription for and fucking melatonin and high doses of lamictal to numb me out enough to stop the misery well enough to sleep
Man up/an hero?
2017-06-09 at 2:50 AM UTC
Read prometheus rising and quantum psycology.
2017-06-09 at 2:51 AM UTC
Kuje Tej
Houston
[disorientate this purple-tinged ornithorhynchidae]
Quitting drugs btw goes without saying. Withdrawals suck so does life so its like, I have a less severe feeling of hopelessness to look forward to. For 20-35 years.
2017-06-09 at 2:52 AM UTC
Kuje Tej
Houston
[disorientate this purple-tinged ornithorhynchidae]
Also would you aay melatonin helps with depression better than nothing at all? Yeah its just a pineal glans hormone and a serotonin precursor but.. brain?
2017-06-09 at 5:54 AM UTC
Really thought just go outside.
2017-06-09 at 7:07 AM UTC
The best way is self-improvement.
self-improvement = self-masturbation
And masturbation feels good. So start eating healthy, exercising, quit bad habits, pick up good habits, and fixing things that are wrong with yourself. Don't forget to squirt on the haters.
2017-06-09 at 7:27 AM UTC
Get mad, watch house of cards, feel powerful (even though you're a dumb cuck, like me), learn something unique, and make yourself useful. All it takes is a direction, and the stubbornness to motivate you to keep going in that direction. You're gonna die anyways, stop caring about what people think of you. Do what's right according to you and your own system of morals. Be up front with people, be honest, be an outright fair businessman in all of your interactions. You are capable of growing to spectacular heights if you ignore your fears and do what's effective. I know it's hard, so do it gradually. A little conversation with a stranger here, a fun impulsive decision there, and with a bit of practice at living life, you end up the most interesting guy at the pub. People don't care about your zit face or your retardation or your shortcomings if you've lived and done more than them.