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Crippling depression support thread
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2023-10-02 at 1:33 PM UTCHas anyone said "MAN THE FUCK UP" yet?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2023-10-02 at 1:41 PM UTCMAN THE FUCK UP
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2023-10-02 at 1:44 PM UTCImagine living in 2023 with all its conveniences and getting depression...smfh.
Some of you folks need to go back to feudal Britain circa 1145 and see how fucking depressed you'd be then as you had your hands chopped off for stealing an apple.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2023-10-02 at 2:01 PM UTC
Originally posted by Kawkasian Imagine living in 2023 with all its conveniences and getting depression…smfh.
Some of you folks need to go back to feudal Britain circa 1145 and see how fucking depressed you'd be then as you had your hands chopped off for stealing an apple.
lol 1st world problems. Of all peoples you would think Americans would see how easy they have it. Probably half their ancestors sent to the colonies for stealing a rag maybe an egg from muh Lord.
Then you get the some Americans starving, even in my small town at least 3-4 places hand out food and every kid here gets free breakfast and lunch at school. You'd have to be a special retard to starve in the US. -
2023-10-02 at 2:12 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2023-10-02 at 2:53 PM UTC
Originally posted by jerryb lol 1st world problems. Of all peoples you would think Americans would see how easy they have it. Probably half their ancestors sent to the colonies for stealing a rag maybe an egg from muh Lord.
Then you get the some Americans starving, even in my small town at least 3-4 places hand out food and every kid here gets free breakfast and lunch at school. You'd have to be a special retard to starve in the US.
I think modern depression stems from a lack of meaning in anything. Some people call it a “spiritual malady”. I probably would have been less depressed back in those times, everyone believed in god and the world was much simpler. Now we have everything figured out, there’s nothing left to explore in the world or in our minds, and all that leaves is a great big void.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2023-10-02 at 3 PM UTC
Originally posted by Chios Honey So what happened to you? last time I saw you was in tiny and you were being edgy and angry at everyone and then people said you boarded the Bus. so now I have to ask how many others never boarded the bus. the number has just been reduced by one.
Who the fuck are you. I only vaguely keep in contact with BLTC crew, and someone who communicates from there must just say people are dead for the lulz. I don't remember stopping posting honestly, I already posted in another thread how the last thing I remember debating making a post on was "Will Horse Ivermectin cure Covid" because Covid caused me to gain 100lbs and bed ridden chronic pain from my old prostate issue I used to complain about regularly. I remember I hadn't posted in while, but I wasn't really sure if I was going to die (Or worse, remain fat and bedridden) but I was going to document it all for science and post sake, but if it ended up killing me or I remained a fat fuck in bed, I would feel rather stupid. So I guess that was about 3 years ago now, and I hadn't posted much since I had gotten back from Spokane Valley, WA, where I moved for a short time. So I guess it has been like 4-5 years since any consistent posting. Time sure is weird, like after taking benzos for so many years, I kind of feel like I time-warped to now. Another reason for not posting though, the more sober, the more you notice annoyances in grammar, or perhaps repeating ones self. That is the number one thing I think about when posting, because I hate repeating myself to anyone, and I treat NiS like I'm talking to somebody, and I'm sure, due to the nature of posting, I have repeated myself several times about several things. But some things are a common theme that has effected my life greatly and must be brought up consistently, like prostatitis.
It miraculously worked, but once the inflammation and pain subsided, I was almost 300lbs (of fatass), so I get testosterone checked and Covid or the Ivermectin must have affected my balls, as I qualified for TRT with 2 scores less than 250ng. I am scared of needles as I've stated in posts before, so I asked for another options, which was Clomid. Clomid did raise my scores to 650ng, and but caused massive bloating and couldn't lose weight no matter how much diet and exercise. So I stop, my levels go to ~300, and then THEY TAKE AWAY THE OPTION OF TESTOSTERONE! They like "yeah you fine now it isn't a problem with testosterone" I'm like what the fuck, 15ng less and I'd be considered low, how the hell do you people think that's okay to now not let me try testosterone at those levels, with my symptoms? Of course I don't let this stop me, I'd always thought about supplement testosterone, but now I medically had a reason. I also didn't supplement earlier because if you read, enlarged prostate is a possible side effect, but I honestly feel like it has IMPROVED all symptoms of prostatitis, since it increases the amount of blood and bloodflow, now the area heals and recovers like normal. Its been in remission like over 2 years now.
So I obtain the testosterone myself and start blasting (accidentally taking large doses, because I assume the shit I'm getting is underdosed, but turns out was quite powerful, which is why when my first test returned like 1480ng and men suddenly became strangely attractive). And sure enough, there is a reason doctors don't want males to have regular/high testosterone. They like dormancy, complacency, and no pushback. (Just like the government). So the testosterone takes call of all of my gripes, no depression or anxiety (As I tried to explain, being a fat fuck and feeling like shit will cause the depression and anxiety, once I start losing weight and working out again, it will subside, and it did, she's tried to prescribe me anti-depressants for every gripe I've ever had, including restless sleep)
So now I keep my levels around 800-1200ng, mental clarity, libido, motivation, muscle mass, all systems are go once again. I would say from the whole ordeal, getting sick late March early April 2020, bed ridden til 2021, lost weight 2022, since 2023 I have been "recovered" and preparing for my next move (tbd). I am very pleased, as I honestly thought that was going to be the end of me, and now without constant discomfort and chronic pain, I feel as though I have a second chance at life, and am grateful for every day. So I felt it obligatory to share to those depressed, if your nuts don't endlessly hurt, there is hope.
And as I've stated, I would check on NiS every 6 months and it looked like nothing was going on much. But I still love posting and writing. I still think in everyday life in terms of "How would I write this in text to post for zoklet fam" but I tend not to post unless I am healthy. Like, when I was almost 300lbs I didn't even want to go outside, I have high standards for myself, and same goes for posting. Not like life is perfect, financially still fucked, my personal relationships suck and I have sworn off women. But luckily you guys have always been there for me (Because you have no choice, I mean I'm posting on a message board read it or don't bitch). So I feel as though everyday is a blessing, and I can communicate this things to you, and our fingers work, and we are on future technology, get your mind and body and spirit right, then worry about the things out of your control.
I assure you if I was worried about bitches, I would be mentally torn apart, worried about being a loser, etc. The last woman I got into cahoots with (Married woman with family, crush from high school) made me swear off women until further notice. For me to ever involve a woman in my life again, I would have to be so mentally strong and on my own shit, that it would be a "they can tag along" situation. But I can never put my trust or love in a woman again thats for sure. So thats another main point if you are depressed. Stay away from Women, they will guarantee make your depression worse. And if they are showing interest, and you think the light you need in your life, just simulate you've known them a few months and they are looking for new prospects.
I remember my he-man woman haters club post. Great post, still holds true to this day. Damn I just looked up and wrote a whole bunch of shit I hardly remember umma just hit "submit" -
2023-10-02 at 3:07 PM UTC
Originally posted by Fox I think modern depression stems from a lack of meaning in anything. Some people call it a “spiritual malady”. I probably would have been less depressed back in those times, everyone believed in god and the world was much simpler. Now we have everything figured out, there’s nothing left to explore in the world or in our minds, and all that leaves is a great big void.
U cudn't be more wrong. -
2023-10-02 at 3:10 PM UTC
Originally posted by Fox I think modern depression stems from a lack of meaning in anything. Some people call it a “spiritual malady”. I probably would have been less depressed back in those times, everyone believed in god and the world was much simpler. Now we have everything figured out, there’s nothing left to explore in the world or in our minds, and all that leaves is a great big void.
Everyone was too busy back in the day to think up spiritual bullshit....too busy workin for that 1/2 loaf of bread and in fear of a good beating if they didn't produce.
That's what the modern world is lacking...a good sense of fear and direction.
Your average pleb has too much time on their hands because they are too dumb to fill that time with enriching tasks...instead they sit in front of their phones and TVs and saying "I'm bored".
Get the fuck up off your ass and go build a house or shear the coat of a grizzly bear...or better yet build a big fire and throw your family and yourselves on it.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2023-10-02 at 3:43 PM UTC
Originally posted by Kawkasian Everyone was too busy back in the day to think up spiritual bullshit….too busy workin for that 1/2 loaf of bread and in fear of a good beating if they didn't produce.
That's what the modern world is lacking…a good sense of fear and direction.
Your average pleb has too much time on their hands because they are too dumb to fill that time with enriching tasks…instead they sit in front of their phones and TVs and saying "I'm bored".
Get the fuck up off your ass and go build a house or shear the coat of a grizzly bear…or better yet build a big fire and throw your family and yourselves on it.
Yeah I can shut my brain off and just focus on tasks that I find “enriching”, that’s what I already do about my depression. But it’s always there. Whenever I do the thing I wanted to do and accomplish it at the end I just go back to “this is all meaningless anyway”. Then just on to the next thing, til I die.
But whatever, you solved depression I guess. You should write a book about it -
2023-10-02 at 5:22 PM UTC
Originally posted by Fox Yeah I can shut my brain off and just focus on tasks that I find “enriching”, that’s what I already do about my depression. But it’s always there. Whenever I do the thing I wanted to do and accomplish it at the end I just go back to “this is all meaningless anyway”. Then just on to the next thing, til I die.
But whatever, you solved depression I guess. You should write a book about it
How to Man UP, a guide to not being a faggot in the 21st Century.
Authored by renowned know all Dr. Jiggaboo Nonesense. -
2023-10-02 at 5:51 PM UTCLol people are so ignorant as to what they don't understand, and so they try to come up with their own interpretation, instead of abiding by the scientific definitions/explanation. People's arrogance and ego compels them to interpret things they do not understand inaccurately... rather than admit they do not understand it, or familiarize themselves with the scientific explanation. Its a shame.
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2023-10-02 at 5:55 PM UTCImagine living with all of today's modern conveniences and complaining/not enjoyint about being at work. Like... you got a computer and a coffee maker, dude... suck it up. man up and love ur situation. Do it without complaining... or even discussing it. Man up, folks.
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2023-10-02 at 5:55 PM UTC
Originally posted by Fox Yeah I can shut my brain off and just focus on tasks that I find “enriching”, that’s what I already do about my depression. But it’s always there. Whenever I do the thing I wanted to do and accomplish it at the end I just go back to “this is all meaningless anyway”. Then just on to the next thing, til I die.
But whatever, you solved depression I guess. You should write a book about it
Lol... or read a book about it, at the very least.. -
2023-10-02 at 5:56 PM UTC
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2023-10-02 at 5:57 PM UTCJust stay busy folks! and all your problems will be solved! That's why jigaboo Johnson is so overwhelmingly happy with his life!!!
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2023-10-02 at 5:58 PM UTCThat's why he's not a miserable, alone, sorry son of a bitch! BECAUSE HE STAYS BUSY AND PRODUCTIVE!!! ITS AS SIMPLE AS THAT!
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2023-10-02 at 5:58 PM UTCHow do I lock a threadThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2023-10-02 at 5:58 PM UTC"I'm satisfied with inane materialism so everyone else should be too"
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2023-10-02 at 6 PM UTCI'm tired of hearing about other people having serotonin and being happy
