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Why is alcohol the hardest thing to give up?
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2023-08-08 at 4:06 PM UTCand will to live (but that was before running out of weed)
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2023-08-08 at 4:06 PM UTC
Originally posted by β$Pβ³C3πππππ»κ°ββ Οβ κ±ππΏπͺ$H33Pππ /me
runs out of meth and never wants to touch it again and need to clean my act up
oh yeah.. I forgot alcohol was a drug I used to abuse.. I can't afford that either. I wish I could afford to have a booze addiction to be holding me back but instead I get meth which has actually kept expenses down regarding food and kept financees easier to manage and now without life seems like its circling the drain … at the cost of my mental and physical health. and spiritual and otherwise
… yup..
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2023-08-08 at 4:12 PM UTC
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2023-08-08 at 4:15 PM UTCIt's all about willpower and determination. Make a decision, and then stick with it no matter what happens. You'll look back later and be proud of yourself.
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2023-08-08 at 4:22 PM UTCI find opiates and alcohol to be very difficult to get addicted to
always been more of a "random pills from the shelf of the pharmacY" or "meth cooked from pills from the pharmacy" kinda guy
DEAR GOD I'M A PHARMA-KIKE you can brew opiates and booze and here I am SUPPOERTING EVIL ;_;
not really though as meth is made indsutrially withut PRILLS and ive chirped about bundy before
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood But I taKE LEGAL DRUGS to prove apoint. THIS SHIT IS LEGAL YOU FUCKING RETARDS. I BUY IT AT THE GROCERY STORE BECAYSE U CABT BUY FUCKING METH AT THE GOD DAMN GRTOCERY OR SOKMRORK(@IU()2 GFUCKING YYOU IDIOTS!!!!! IF I COULD BUY CODEINE I WOULD BUT THEY FUCKING PUT ME THROUGH THE RINGER. FUCK REGECT HE FUCKING SUCKS PHARMACY ASIAN CUCK DICK AND TAKES IT IN THE ASS FUCK THAT CUCK FAGGOT AND FUCK YOU!. I GET MY DOPE LEGALLY OTC 10 AT A TIME AT THE SELF CHECKOUT!!!!!! FAGGOTS!!!!
bundy psychosis is the best thing thats ever happened to me . I can eat it and go to work and stay up all night tripping out and you hallucinate more than meth. fuck smoking literal pieces of glass ill stick to legal pharmaceutalds thank you very muchcl. god bless america and bundy (kiddie PCP) its sold in glass prisms.
I TKAKE LEGAL DRUGS TO PROVE A POINT YOU FUCKING FAGGOTS. FUCK ALCOGOL AND TOBACCO AND LEGAL WEED I WANT FUCKING LEGAL bundy. I am gonna take it until I die to fucking show you all what you get for making tech and hookers and good drugs illegal fucking faggots fuck society im a japanese yakuza donald trump
why the fuck am I still alive lol
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood
My current supplement/nootropic/medicinal stack. Whether it's more of a hobby, or the benefits are truly significant, I'm not sure. What I do know is that I'm at an age where the brain is still developing into maturity, so now's a better time than ever to try to enhance the process for an optimal final result.
Every day I take:
-Energy drink just for 160mg caffiene, mild stimulant
-Nicoderm 7mg to quit smoking, also a mild stimulant
-Fish oil 10g for heart health, and needed for neuron membranes, has antidepressant and mood-stabilizing effects
-Multivitamin since my diet isn't that great
-Gabapentin 1200mg, mixed into water to make Bone Hurting Juice. Can cause a mild high, but mostly it's an analgesic, mood enhancer, and anxiolytic
-Zoloft 200mg, a serotonin reuptake inhibitor. I'm taking this for OCD. The reuptake inhibition causes the brain to react by producing more serotonin, which leads to enhanced dopamine levels (pleasure), neurogenesis which is neuron birth, as well as reducing both unpleasant as well as pleasant feelings
-Tumeric, 3 tablespoons. Anti-inflammatory analgesic, antibacterial, monoamine oxidase inhibitor which makes serotonin, dopamine, and norephinephrine last in the synapse longer, for enhanced mood, pleasure, and energy. Also causes neurogenesis.
-Black pepper 1 tablespoon. Without the piperine in black pepper, the circumin in tumeric is not sufficiently bioavailable. Piperine increases the effectiveness of tumeric by 2000%
-Ginseng extract 6000mg. enhances nerve growth factors, is a mild stimulant, and neuroprotective adaptogen which makes the body react to stress less.
-Ashwaghanda extract 940mg. Causes neurogenesis, and is anxiolytic by working on GABA receptors, neuroprotective adaptogen.
-Gotu kola 1200mg. Cognition enhancing anxiolytic which increases GABA conversion from glutamate.
-1 coricidin pill, which has 4mg chlorphenamine maleate, an SNRI antihistamine, so increases mood and energy over time, as well as 30mg dextromethorphan, an NMDA antagonist which is neuroprotective, an SNRI, as well as a sigma1 agonist which is also effective for depression/anxiety. The CPM causes neurogenesis and the bundy causes gliogenesis, the growh of glial cells which are like the "glue" of the brain
after shower/brush teeth/supplements/food, i usually lay down for 20 hours straight and play video games while watching tv while listening to music until i fall asleep. repeat every single day. my life is pretty ok sometimes. here's a pic of face after i just took my stack to prove it doesn't make me high as fuck or something like that. mfw
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2023-08-08 at 5:16 PM UTCI think I might have 'executive dysfunction' or ADHD even maybe. Other than just 'depression' I'm trying to find a logical explanation why I do (or don't do) certain things, for example walking past the same piece of crumpled up empty bag on my floor 1000x in a row instead of taking literally 3 seconds to pick it up and throw it away.
And when I'm at work I'm almost literally the opposite and will keep myself busy with tasks and projects and I actually get bothered when I see a random garbage or something that needs obvious cleaning.
So I don't think it's just pure laziness so much as it's some other fucked up mental thing. I definitely FEEL lazy when I leave some dishes sitting there for weeks, but I know in my loins I'm not lazy.
Even if I'm visiting friends who have some dishes or their cat litter needs changing I notice it and am like 'oh here let me help you with that it's all good' and I will have no problem doing chores and I actually in a weird way WANT to, and then I'm sitting there wondering why the fuck can't i do these for myself so easily.
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2023-08-08 at 5:32 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ I think I might have 'executive dysfunction'
sounds more legit than anything I read in the DSM tbh also kinda sexy
your musing on depression have always touched my very soul deeply and it fills my warm with glow that you are still alive and depressed and sharing your experiences. I mean I Wish you FELT better and werent depresed and has motivations. I wish I had the motivation to find and dig up that one post you made similar to this that seemed blessed to me at the time but I can't even remember the structure of it now
i washed a lil bit of dishes today but it was only so the person after me wouldn't have to deal with my breakfast mess
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2023-08-08 at 5:33 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2023-08-08 at 5:34 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ I think I might have 'executive dysfunction' or ADHD even maybe. Other than just 'depression' I'm trying to find a logical explanation why I do (or don't do) certain things, for example walking past the same piece of crumpled up empty bag on my floor 1000x in a row instead of taking literally 3 seconds to pick it up and throw it away.
And when I'm at work I'm almost literally the opposite and will keep myself busy with tasks and projects and I actually get bothered when I see a random garbage or something that needs obvious cleaning.
So I don't think it's just pure laziness so much as it's some other fucked up mental thing. I definitely FEEL lazy when I leave some dishes sitting there for weeks, but I know in my loins I'm not lazy.
Even if I'm visiting friends who have some dishes or their cat litter needs changing I notice it and am like 'oh here let me help you with that it's all good' and I will have no problem doing chores and I actually in a weird way WANT to, and then I'm sitting there wondering why the fuck can't i do these for myself so easily.
It's weird m8s. It's weird.
You should walk like an Egyptian, this is Terrible Crows.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2023-08-08 at 5:38 PM UTC
Originally posted by mashlehash Because you can't afford any more room on runescape.
I didn't know you were a runescaper. All the runescaper here seemed like cool people. I never got into the game or got to know many or any of them well. WHo tthe fuck logged on that one time to give me like a mil gp??? I think it was fona, on an oldje account.
I still have that and still have OSRS installed lawl but they removed staking so that game just feels dead to me now I cant imagine how DEVESTATING that must be for oldje players
I can see why a lot of you become alcoholics I am having a similar experience with a runescape inspired game where I got a #1 leaderboard spot -
2023-08-08 at 5:40 PM UTC
Originally posted by mashlehash You should walk like an Egyptian, this is Terrible Crows.
this nigga is on aroll im telling ya i bet he's not even FUCKED UP
im geetting sobbbbber vibes good christian sober energy he's totally not ripping lines of huffer duster barrels of freon in betweeen these god posts no siree!!
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2023-08-08 at 5:42 PM UTC
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2023-08-08 at 5:44 PM UTCAmerica.. land of the free home of the whooper
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2023-08-08 at 5:57 PM UTCYou should tell on someone. An Gorilla got out of An SUV and hit a man and it's like...well, dad call an ambulance and you hear from him a few years later like i'm with my grandpa...that's a trip. "Blaine, he was living crippled." [{ALBERT]} ow,you gorilla we'll put you in prison like no you don't touch him and matter afact ill build him an house..you mean you think you mean you think you mean you think you've already met someone on the internet where that might be the very same man that poast hang out with to tell You that that man was in the bushes like i'm walking the dog and it's like let's go and you see your dad saying hi to this guy in front of an broken down burger king and it's like okay we're going to get him some help? no. he was passed out on the pavement when I had just met this man named Albert. Mm Uh UhThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2023-08-08 at 6:12 PM UTC
Originally posted by β$Pβ³C3πππππ»κ°ββ Οβ κ±ππΏπͺ$H33Pππ sounds more legit than anything I read in the DSM tbh also kinda sexy
your musing on depression have always touched my very soul deeply and it fills my warm with glow that you are still alive and depressed and sharing your experiences. I mean I Wish you FELT better and werent depresed and has motivations. I wish I had the motivation to find and dig up that one post you made similar to this that seemed blessed to me at the time but I can't even remember the structure of it now
i washed a lil bit of dishes today but it was only so the person after me wouldn't have to deal with my breakfast mess
I empathize with your post very much
Yeah my issues I'm sure stem from all sorts of shit that I've never bothered to address and wouldn't hardly know where to begin.
I just learned that new term today (executive dysfunction) and my small amount of research sees that a lot of definitely aligns with how I am. Its a very strange feeling to feel too lazy to *fill a cup of water and drink it* and so just don't it and stay thirsty for now until I absolutely HAVE TO. Thats obviously not normal or good behavior.
I'm just trying to find REASONS instead of excuses. I know at the end of the day JUST DO IT is probably the best advice I can give myself instead of JUST FIND A WAY NOT TO DO IT so I need to figure out how to make that mental switch and its hard to explain why its so difficult.
I'm sure this is akin to how CERTAIN INDIVIDUALS tend to have crazy abstract and jumbled thoughts that they would like to be able to condense or make sense of but they feel literally unable to do so, and pointing it out to them to STOP IT, is utterly meaningless. -
2023-08-08 at 6:19 PM UTCNecessity is the mother of taking chances.
- the fortune cookie I just opened
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2023-08-08 at 6:28 PM UTCI've got a beer in my hand right now. Jheit
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