2017-05-24 at 8:42 PM UTC
I was in Berkeley today ..
One guy was cool, but some of the women seem like they're gang stalking me.
There was a professional woman in the hills. I drove her to a train station. She was cool too.
There is something strange about Berkeley these days. they only throw peace signs because it's hip and not by the heart it seems.
I was waiting for a lady, halfway edged in a bike lane. Saw a bicyclist roll up on me. I waved and he clinged his bell. I waved again as he was coming up behind me .. then he goes "You're in a fucking bike lane" I go, yes, I'm sorry sir. And he passed me and kept staring at me. I think he wanted a fight which just made me laugh inside. he almost ran into something because he didn't turn imediatly away from me to look where he was going. slipped off his seat and hit his front brakes so hard the bike nearly flipped. "FUCKKKKKK" and then looks at me again. and rides off.
I just held a neutral face. I already allowed emotions to get to me last week because of some douchebag.. but he held me in a lane with his faggoted truck for like 15 minutes.
ruined my day.. I don't like fighting anymore because I go ballystic and then feel bad and then get tired and think about rocketing to mars to leave this fuck hole planet
2017-05-24 at 11:30 PM UTC
Accepted some time ago that I wasn't capable of containing the extreme level of anger I was capable of producing, that it progressively ate away at me and amounted to nothing.
Severe depression really mellowed me out. I was unbelievably angry and filled with angst in the past. Never want to go back to how I was before. My ideal psychological state would be that promoted by secular Buddhism.
2017-06-04 at 10:30 PM UTC
There's always that cute girl that ruins it by cutting her hair short, and/or by changing its color.