2023-06-24 at 7:19 PM UTC
When I hear words I try to visualise how they spelt.
2023-06-24 at 7:21 PM UTC
Neurotic rn. If only I had Mik but I unfriended him again when I told him I slit my throat and he just said oh. I found a way round his psychopathy though, explaining the logic, that things will be better for us both if he reacts a certain way. But he just wants cybersex now and I dislike pressure.
2023-06-24 at 7:22 PM UTC
Shoulda never sent him a pic of my boobs. They too perfect.
2023-06-24 at 7:23 PM UTC
We would still be just friends, like we were for three years.
2023-06-24 at 7:25 PM UTC
It's tough bcus his psychopathy is what I love about him, he's nice and predictable, but knowing he will always react the same no matter what I'm going through gets to me sometimes, even though I understand him.
2023-06-24 at 7:47 PM UTC
Questioning myself now bcus him being German is what made me like him. Since I got my DNA tested as 99.6% British and Irish I kinda wanna keep that purity but can't deny that I look for Nordic traits even with Irish people. Idk if it's intuitive or learned.
2023-06-24 at 7:48 PM UTC
It's the truffles this brand is meant to cause introspection. I've been thinking of things I wouldn't normally think today.
2023-06-24 at 7:49 PM UTC
I thought I was gonna have a heart attack on the train and have felt like collapsing a few times since I got here. Hope nothing happens bcus I forgot my GHIC card.
2023-06-24 at 7:52 PM UTC
If I was on coke there would be paragraphs of panic attack.
2023-06-24 at 7:54 PM UTC
Actually nah I detest paragraphs. I want my writing to sound like me. My thoughts don't have breaks.
2023-06-24 at 7:54 PM UTC
Flashback to not using a single paragraph in GCSE English exam.
2023-06-24 at 7:56 PM UTC
I never forgave myself for not mentioning onomatopoeia and using Irish words, though they were in quotes. I still got a C.
2023-06-24 at 7:59 PM UTC
I remember my teacher chastising me like "You're the type of girl who could get an A* in English but at this rate you're not even going to get a C.". It was because I never did homework and came in late every day so I missed a lot of English class. Think she only liked my creative writing. I was once on report for coming in late everyday and walking out of class sometimes, so I had to check in w a teacher everyday for a week. I did for two days then went back to my ways and they left me alone. I still wonder why.
2023-06-24 at 8:03 PM UTC
One story was about someone hiring a hitman to kill their mum.
2023-06-24 at 8:07 PM UTC
This is my first time drinking Bacardi. I always avoided it because it's what my dad drank.
2023-06-24 at 8:09 PM UTC
Feel like I have some mental block bcus normally the word dad would make me go down a mental train, happened with other things today, no mental trains.
2023-06-24 at 8:11 PM UTC
You know at the end of Midsommer when the guy's in shock about what's happening to him. That's what I'm like now but it isn't bad.
2023-06-24 at 8:12 PM UTC
Or I think I just have the same expressions on my face.
2023-06-24 at 8:12 PM UTC
Alls ik for sure is I'm too overwhelmed rn, maybe something bad is happening.
