2023-03-31 at 5:09 PM UTC
i get tonsil stones a lot
i have copd and my lungs are full of phlegm all the time
I have zero sense of style (but tbf its i possible to find clothes/shoes in my size)
2023-03-31 at 5:11 PM UTC
Im pessimistic and cynical
I look for conflict to interject myself in so i can hurt people and feel like im doing so justly
i steal groceries from the self checkout
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2023-03-31 at 5:12 PM UTC
I have generally pedestrian taste in movies and music and discover very little new or interesting on my own
My short term memory is scrapped and i have to keep notes in my phone of people, places, events, names, personal characteristics and identifiers
2023-03-31 at 5:17 PM UTC
I often romanticize the past to divorce myself from the reality that although i have one life, and was granted physicality and strength and some intellect, empathy - a winning hand- i squandered it all because i was afraid.
2023-03-31 at 5:24 PM UTC
All of us get afraid... please don't get on yourself too hard for that. Afraid of what? You were young...
2023-03-31 at 9:41 PM UTC
I have no positive outlook for the future, I just seem to not care about what might happen in my future
I've been neglecting my health for many years
I've neglected my teeth horribly, to the point I want to get them all pulled
I smoke too much, I think I got COPD and sleep apnea and I still smoke too much
I feel like nothing really matters, I've lost my ambition for life
I don't really have any friends
I'm sure there's hella more that I'm forgetting
2023-03-31 at 9:51 PM UTC
oh ya my skitzo friend stopped talking to me cuz he's skitzo and he tried talking to me again I think but I don't wanna talk to a skitzo LOL fuck skitzos HURR DURR retard shit like totse2k1
I don't need that in my life I'd rather talk to the AI or my girlfriend. I can make new friends taht aren't retards
2023-03-31 at 9:55 PM UTC
The writing patterns with proper grammar I get into because people are watching. I have a lot of interests but am not passionate about anything enough to dedicate my life to it and that has stalled me. Pushing everyone I care about away. My reclusive nature. That I can never have a happy relationship with a girl because I'm a robot inside and offend them by doing nothing. How introspective I am. My perfectionism, it's good for interior design and outfits but I'll never be happy because of it. That sometimes I'm demonic because of my lack of empathy and have hurt people like my parents. I'm not really self-centered, I like psychologically profiling people, I'm just too nice to tell people what I really think of them and often don't ask personal questions because it seems rude. I care but don't show it. That I can't be vulnerable, though this has probably saved me since so many people try to hurt me. That it isn't in my nature to be friendly, though I would go out of my way for a friend and it's the only thing that matters to me. I always feel like I'm not the same person I was, I keep evolving and dislike it.
