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2017-05-12 at 6:43 PM UTClol what have I done.
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2017-05-12 at 7 PM UTC
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2017-05-12 at 7:02 PM UTCWell, pretty sure I'm becoming increasingly psychopathic as my depression remits. I've noticed this pattern before.
Maybe I'll go into the financial industry Lanny is in. Take an accelerated program. Certainly good at memorization, systemizing, finding and working with data, strategizing, and manipulation.
If I do go full blown psychopathy on Nardil at least I can put my abilities to good use because I'd feel no remorse or hesitation about fucking others over as much as I can get away with just for money and as a game, to compete against others and see how far I could get.
I doubt Lanny would tell me what the best degrees to major in and best way to get your foot in the door at this point would be. That kid is too morally self-righteous and I don't think he understands his true nature or what he really wants in life. Just embrace who you are. I could find it on my own anyway. -
2017-05-12 at 7:04 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Well, pretty sure I'm becoming increasingly psychopathic as my depression remits. I've noticed this pattern before.
Maybe I'll go into the financial industry Lanny is in. Take an accelerated program. Certainly good at memorization, systemizing, finding and working with data, strategizing, and manipulation.
If I do go full blown psychopathy on Nardil at least I can put my abilities to good use because I'd feel no remorse or hesitation about fucking others over as much as I can get away with just for money and as a game, to compete against others and see how far I could get.
I doubt Lanny would tell me what the best degrees to major in and best way to get your foot in the door at this point would be. That kid is too morally self-righteous and I don't think he understands his true nature or what he really wants in life. Just embrace who you are. I could find it on my own anyway.
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2017-05-12 at 7:05 PM UTCIf you can get phenylethanol it wouldn't be difficult.
Thionyl chloride or HI/P to make phenethyl halide(stop at halide.)
React with hydrazine to yield the phenylhydrazine HCl(phenelzine)
All the pharmaceutical formulations of it seem to be the sulfate salt. Not sure why, I assume there is some issue with HCl's stability or hygroscopicity. Basifying the HCl, extracting with a non-polar, and titrating with H2SO4 will give the sulfate
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2017-05-12 at 7:05 PM UTC
Originally posted by mmQ This is almost as bad as losing my dad.
Did you ever find him?
Originally posted by newfag I may be new here, but i've been around &t since ~2006. I went on internet hiatus a few years after that, went to reddit to see what gen-pop is ingesting, and now i'm going back to my roots. How's the state of things, my negroes? What do you all do around here?
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2017-05-12 at 7:14 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice It has not been a decade and almost no one here likes you. I have literally seen you contribute nothing of value. At least I'm still relatively young and have a chance of breaking out of being a loser, but how fucking old are you and why are you still clinging to this community? Almost no one sticks around here unless they aren't that happy in life, have a serious lack of social relations, people they can't relate to, autism spectrum disorders, severe anxiety issues, depression, etc.
So, it's a serious question. I've accepted why I'm here. Why the fuck are you here when I can't think of a single person that particularly likes you, and if they do they're probably part of the group of members that are the worst posters around, persistently annoying as hell like you, with nothing of intelligence to contribute.
Tell us the truth. You're a bitter old man whose life didn't turn out the way you wanted it to and you've tried to cling to that dying community for this long because you have no real meaningful relationships in your life.
At some point you have to decide whether it's really worth continuing to decline into old age when it's never going to get better, you're just going to continually feel physically and emotionally worse, there will be less and less things to do, time will keep seeming to go by faster, novelty will be impossible to find, you obviously won't be able to attract a dream woman, or anything close to a good woman at all, really, and eventually your body is going to begin to fail, you'll be in horrific pain, humiliated and having to be taken care of by strangers, even shitting yourself and needing your ass to be wiped, no one is going to particularly care enough to ever visit you, and even if they rarely, a very few amount of people, do, in the state you're in you won't be able to enjoy it, you won't be the same person and won't want to be seen in that state, have this be your final memory of yourself, and at some point you'll even develop symptoms similar to dementia and alzheimer's, begin to lose every memory of your life, everything important to you, anything you've ever done, the people you've loved and cared for, everyone you've met, everything you've felt and thought, learned and come to believe in the world.
So when you're facing the inescapability of death that's going to erase every part of you, as if you may as well have never existed, when you finally realize that the life you lived was the real thing, there was never any awakening of the ideal person you thought was inside you, that you could one day become, and that it was all meaningless and for naught, the pure vanity of life.
You're going to ask yourself: Why the hell did I cling on for so long when it amounted to nothing, my life only became increasingly worse, and I suffered so much, all for what?
At the end, this very moment, for the rest of your life, you need to ask yourself: Why don't I commit suicide right now?
Go ahead and brush this off, give a TL;DR or cheesy low brow joke that no one ever finds funny, but on some level you know it's true. And you know what? Regardless of what's going on in my life, my past, the reality is that I'm still in good health, will likely overcome my problems now that I'm making a serious effort and know what I need to do, and I'm going to live. At the end of the day I likely have at least 50 more years on this earth, and that's simply with a modest estimate of a lifespan of 77 years. No health problems, don't drink, smoke, do hard drugs, exercise, won't do anything stupid to get me killed, extremely strict diet I adhere to. Keep in mind that life expectancy is only an average, and all these factors indicate that I should reasonably expect considerably more.
There are incredible advancements occurring right now, some amazing developments, there will likely be breakthroughs in the future extending lifespan even more and preventing or curing serious diseases, and I get to be at the forefront of it. It's an exciting time to be alive.
Sorry you're going to miss all of that. I forget, once again, would you mind telling me how much longer you're expected to live? Have you ever been to a doctor and had a discussion about this?
It doesn't matter what you can type, nothing changes that you're going to die and it's going to feel like it came far sooner than you ever expected, and I won't. Is there anything that can really beat that, or are you going to make me laugh by telling me you'll kill me if we ever meet or are going to put a hit on me?- tl;dr
- What made you think I gave a fuck enough about what you think to type all that shit I'm never going to read?
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2017-05-12 at 7:28 PM UTCFork me harder baby.
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2017-05-12 at 7:29 PM UTC
Originally posted by Coathangers Suck -WS Why is the UK so fucking weird?
Genetically Capitalist? The Malthusian Era, Institutions and the Formation of Modern Preferences.
Lanny, you'd probably find this fascinating. It's a shame work takes so much time away from when you could be learning.
Also, WS, Americans did descend from the British (There's some very interesting work on the effects on self-selection/Assortativity and the effects it may have had on heritability. I mean, I'm not necessarily arguing about American "exceptionalism", but it is a pretty fucking weird and unique country. The UK was too, just look at how many countries they invaded and how dominant they were for a long period. -
2017-05-12 at 7:38 PM UTCCucked
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2017-05-12 at 7:48 PM UTC
Originally posted by Coathangers Suck -WS why have you not tried to do anything for so long? man, dawg. that's too long.
It would take too long to explain. I'm just at the extreme of certain traits, had the right combination, the wrong environment, wrong events in my life, neurologically abnormal, developed all these unorthodox/uncommon views on life and the world that I'm confident in, but can be profoundly disillusioning, fucked up thoughts, ideas, and desires I've had throughout life etc.
Basically, perfect storm for a trainwreck.
Some people just have an inability to find any meaning and fulfillment in life, feel unable to experience happiness, bring themselves to love someone, find a single person they can relate to, words feel like they never amount to anything and you can never convey, explain, have others understand the things that truly matter to you, to be able to pull the wool over their eyes and convince themselves this means or amounts to anything, forget for even a moment, and just realize the absolute absurdity and vanity of life, even come to the conclusion that life should have a negative value and there are sound arguments in the field of philosophy//existentialism for why we would have been immeasurably better off never coming into existence.
I recall you described yourself as passively suicidal on Zoklet, and had felt that way for years. You can probably understand.
Oh, and my life, Asperger's, and relentless extremely severe depression with strong suicidal ideation along with severe anxiety tend to really fuck you up. -
2017-05-12 at 7:58 PM UTCBTW, Weed Smoker, would you mind sharing how you managed to get your life together and achieve some happiness (I think?)? TBH, a lot, if not most, people on Zoklet seemed to be lost causes. You're life seemed pretty fucked up.
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2017-05-12 at 7:59 PM UTC
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2017-05-12 at 8:25 PM UTCThis Brah is on some esoteric next level shit....
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2017-05-12 at 8:26 PM UTCI'm willing to wear a wire and set Jesus up
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2017-05-12 at 8:28 PM UTC
Originally posted by Malice reject, have you ever seen the show Masterminds? It's about the best true crime cases they've found, absolutely brilliant plans with really remarkable people that chose a life of crime.
Naw, I might check it out tho if I can find it. I love reading about that type of shit.
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2017-05-12 at 8:30 PM UTCThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-12 at 8:33 PM UTC"We just wanted to leave earth and go to space and do drugs". A dream we all shareThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-12 at 9:21 PM UTCI feel like uhh
