2022-11-07 at 5:56 PM UTC
until I can leave with enough funds, I'm shoving guns up in the mouths of ur loved ones, drown em face down in the bath while the tub runs
2022-11-07 at 6:01 PM UTC
the final problem is solved by throwing sulfuric acid till ur spinal column dissolves
2022-11-07 at 7:34 PM UTC
I wish the day was over, it's only half seven and I have too much to get through so I can't do anything fun and it makes me wanna die.
2022-11-07 at 7:44 PM UTC
I did an aptitude test to see the state of my brain fog and am alarmed because the analysis score was low, I was lost there. I scored high for spacial reasoning which was expected but I feel like I should have scored higher. Anyway it's interesting to me that the brain fog has affected some things and not others. Why can I remember my dreams but not topics I should know inside-out? I might take a different aptitude test next week.
All I know is I wasn't in this state this time last year, I know I got covid in December and the jab in January, so I'm not sure which one caused the brain fog, I think it was covid. It has crossed my mind though that maybe I don't have brain fog and these are just symptoms of depression. They are symptoms of depression but I don't see why that would be the cause when it's never affected me before and I feel the same emotionally.
2022-11-07 at 7:51 PM UTC
glad i don't bother with reading Kafka's replies. She is extremely unstimulating.
2022-11-07 at 11:40 PM UTC
I feel happier lately, I think it’s all the treatments I’ve booked this month, cutting off toxic people, having too much work to do, upcoming events and surrounding myself with kawaii things. Tomorrow I’m going shroom hunting.
2022-11-08 at 1:18 AM UTC
I’m listening to a Murakami audiobook rn and he’s talking about raping someone in their sleep -_-
2022-11-08 at 1:23 AM UTC
“Murakami has struggled to write three-dimensional women for years, and his worst tendencies come to a head in Killing Commendatore, in which the 36-year-old protagonist both rapes his wife in a dream and repeatedly sexualizes his 13-year-old neighbor, Mariye.”
This is my last Murakami book I’ve listened to enough of them.
2022-11-08 at 12:29 PM UTC
my girlfriend is touchig herseklf in bed right now i could go jam my dick in her but I can't stop toasting breawd and eating it
2022-11-08 at 12:31 PM UTC
i'm sure i'll be full after another slice just one more slice... one more can't hurt
