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weed ruined my life
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2017-05-08 at 6:10 PM UTCI'm 20, I've been sober for a year now, no drugs/alcohol, not even coffee or paracetamol.
from age 16 -18 i smoked weed regularly, then 18-19 i would smoke everyday, i would also dabble with other shit (acid/mdma) maybe once a month.
start of last year, i started feeling phased out during sober days, having trouble connecting thoughts, bad enough to scare me into abstinence.
within a month i had no ability to think, constant anxiety, memory was shot to shit, total bring fog, social skills of someone dangerously autistic, brain felt as if it was running on 2% power,
and utterly lost sight of what my personality was like prior to the symptoms. i figure i smoked too much weed during a crucial point in brain development and that I've done irreparable
damage.I don't socialise anymore because its embarrassing trying to spit words out at people, only to get a confused response.
to put things in perspective, trying to concentrate long enough to type this post is making my brain ache. though lately I've been having momentary glimpses of clarity, for about an hour every month or so, showing the contrast of how my brain should be functioning is fucking staggering.
has anyone experienced anything similar? or know of anything that could help? -
2017-05-08 at 6:45 PM UTCYour life must have been pretty fucking insignificant and meaningless for a plants thats been around thousands of years to ruin it.
Its called darwanism you fucking cuck I smoke meth, weed, I do bundy and heroin and I work every day.
What the fuck is your excuse?. -
2017-05-08 at 9:11 PM UTC
Originally posted by bron I'm 20, I've been sober for a year now, no drugs/alcohol, not even coffee or paracetamol.
from age 16 -18 i smoked weed regularly, then 18-19 i would smoke everyday, i would also dabble with other shit (acid/mdma) maybe once a month.
start of last year, i started feeling phased out during sober days, having trouble connecting thoughts, bad enough to scare me into abstinence.
within a month i had no ability to think, constant anxiety, memory was shot to shit, total bring fog, social skills of someone dangerously autistic, brain felt as if it was running on 2% power,
and utterly lost sight of what my personality was like prior to the symptoms. i figure i smoked too much weed during a crucial point in brain development and that I've done irreparable
damage.I don't socialise anymore because its embarrassing trying to spit words out at people, only to get a confused response.
to put things in perspective, trying to concentrate long enough to type this post is making my brain ache. though lately I've been having momentary glimpses of clarity, for about an hour every month or so, showing the contrast of how my brain should be functioning is fucking staggering.
has anyone experienced anything similar? or know of anything that could help?
Drink a lot of water. You say you've lost sight of who you used to be, but I'll tell you what, you never really were the person you thought you were in the first place. You are what you do though, so start doing the things the person you want to be would do.
Your brain low on power? You gotta recharge it. Eat better food, and work your mind as of it were a muscle. Put it to work. Figure things out. Solve problems. Create something new.
You are experiencing social issues? Talk to people. Get into conversations. Learn how to better express yourself.
Also don't worry about it, don't worry about out how things are, but know that if you want things to be better you have to make them better yourself, there is no secret, there is no gimmick or trick, you just have to put in the effort to improve yourself and be better.
Good luck, I hope you make your life better.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-08 at 9:13 PM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Your life must have been pretty fucking insignificant and meaningless for a plants thats been around thousands of years to ruin it.
Its called darwanism you fucking cuck I smoke meth, weed, I do bundy and heroin and I work every day.
What the fuck is your excuse?.
All our lives are insignificant. You just have a greater drive than he does. The world might be a better place if we encouraged each other to do better.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-08 at 9:58 PM UTCBeen smoking since 11, am 27 now. 16 straight while my brain developed. Also started psychedelics at the age of 15 and hard drugs with 17. Then came the RCs.
I'm addicted to Benzos and that kinda sucks but to me it's on the same level as Cannabis. I do not give A FUCK if anyone says that stuff is not addictive. It is pretty terrible.
I haven't smoked THC rich Cannabis for about a month now. Even the high CBD strains like Harlequin and Sour Tsunami have too much THC for me at the moment. I smoke the strains Finola and CBD#8. They both have under 1% THC and Finola has about 10%cbd and #8 19%. There are also over 100 Cannabinoids in the plant nobody seems to care about. It is terribly hard to get some true landrace seeds nowadays. Even niggas in Swaziland are growing Cookies and Kush. Anyway...
I'd highly recommend the use of CBD both pure and with those strains. I seriously feel like I still got so much THC in me that the CBD fucks me up. It really does. Good stuff.
Arome therapy with Terpenes is also a must. You could eat a little nutmeg here and there or take some Paracetamol. Just mix it up and don't sweat it. -
2017-05-08 at 10:01 PM UTCOhh yea,I forgot to mention that I experienced all your symptoms, as well. I had a heavy psychosis from all the drugs but it went away and now I'm just suicidal depressed and kind of a piece of shit. Eh.
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2017-05-08 at 10:18 PM UTCGotta go with SCronaldo here. If something as relatively benign and light hearted as Marijuana use literally ruined your life...well there's just no words to say other then that life is going to continue and make a habit of kicking your ass through even the most mundane and trivial things.
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2017-05-08 at 10:57 PM UTCIt's probably something genetic and not pot. You're not a doctor and neither are any of these other people so nobody really knows what is going on and maybe a doctor could tell you. Sometimes it takes years to recover from brain problems and sometimes you never do, but any sign of progress means that you will probably get better, and most people do get better anyways.
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2017-05-09 at 1:57 AM UTC
Originally posted by Open Your Mind Drink a lot of water. You say you've lost sight of who you used to be, but I'll tell you what, you never really were the person you thought you were in the first place. You are what you do though, so start doing the things the person you want to be would do.
Your brain low on power? You gotta recharge it. Eat better food, and work your mind as of it were a muscle. Put it to work. Figure things out. Solve problems. Create something new.
You are experiencing social issues? Talk to people. Get into conversations. Learn how to better express yourself.
Also don't worry about it, don't worry about out how things are, but know that if you want things to be better you have to make them better yourself, there is no secret, there is no gimmick or trick, you just have to put in the effort to improve yourself and be better.
Good luck, I hope you make your life better.
i appreciate your response, i should have emphasised the positives in my life, i do assistant manage a restaurant, and i spend all of my free time reading or learning music theory. the problem that i'm having is not an emotional or spiritual one, in fact, i can barely feel emotions at all. its a physical chemical fuck up in my brain. I can only compare the feeling of it to being in a dream, where you really have no mental control, no ability to think cognitively, things just occur, and whatever minimal conscience you have reacts.
its like trying to sprint with broken legs, i try my best to not be retarded but there are mental blocks that i can't see through. fortunately the work i do is second nature now, but reading and playing music will takes months for such minimal progress.. which i can settle for, but its far from ideal. -
2017-05-09 at 2:03 AM UTC
Originally posted by RisiR † Ohh yea,I forgot to mention that I experienced all your symptoms, as well. I had a heavy psychosis from all the drugs but it went away and now I'm just suicidal depressed and kind of a piece of shit. Eh.
what was your recovery time? did anything aid it? did you have occasional feelings of clarity as you were recovering?
is this depression caused by drug use too? -
2017-05-09 at 2:08 AM UTCSounds like a pretty standard onset of schizophrenia, most likely not weed-related. I'm not saying this to fuck with you or anything, I'm 100% serious. It usually happens around your age and will only get worse over time. You probably wanna get professional help.
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2017-05-09 at 2:08 AM UTCAnd smoke MORE weed.
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2017-05-09 at 2:11 AM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Your life must have been pretty fucking insignificant and meaningless for a plants thats been around thousands of years to ruin it.
Its called darwanism you fucking cuck I smoke meth, weed, I do bundy and heroin and I work every day.
What the fuck is your excuse?.
the excuse would be that whole "fucking cuck" thing i have going. i don't know dude, its a mental problem. i'm not trying to bitch, i'm tying to find hope that i'll revert out of this dumb cunt phase.
is meth as tight as people say? it was always on the to-do list. -
2017-05-09 at 2:30 AM UTCur all dgs fags
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2017-05-09 at 5:06 PM UTC
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Your life must have been pretty fucking insignificant and meaningless for a plants thats been around thousands of years to ruin it.
Its called darwanism you fucking cuck I smoke meth, weed, I do bundy and heroin and I work every day.
What the fuck is your excuse?.
there's the pot calling the kettle black, you fucking drug addled retard -
2017-05-09 at 5:06 PM UTC
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2017-05-09 at 5:09 PM UTC
Originally posted by bron the excuse would be that whole "fucking cuck" thing i have going. i don't know dude, its a mental problem. i'm not trying to bitch, i'm tying to find hope that i'll revert out of this dumb cunt phase.
is meth as tight as people say? it was always on the to-do list.
do meth you'll fry your brains into...well...that retard. you don't want that.
try a high dose of caffeine and see if that does anything to boost your brain functionality -
2017-05-09 at 11:24 PM UTC
