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2017-05-04 at 5:39 AM UTCLanny, thinking about how many people are afflicted by autism, the enormous lifelong costs, how so many wealthy parents (terrible to say, but hey), which a large over representation in Silicon Valley due to cultural and economic, various social changes, that may have led to an increase in assortative mating where you get two people who are very high systemizers (The autism quotient, computer scientists, unsurprisingly, score among the highest, and there's a large amount of writing and research on this connection) and produce children where certain neurological factors are to such an extreme of human variation that they end up completely disabled.
I swear to god if you try to steal any of my ideas I will literally hunt you down and brutally torture you, and you know I'll go through with it with how completely off the rails I can go when I blow up. But I don't think you'll do that, now will you? ;)
Let's take the world by storm and rake the money. But I need some time to recover, and this could take years, you'd need connections and funding for some additional research that may be needed, people that have those and can convince the people in academia needed by this.
And at the end of it all, IMAGINE HOW MUCH FUCKING MONEY, FAME, GLORY, AND FORTUNE WE WOULD ATTAIN!!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Mother of god, I'm literally close to rock bottom right now, and yet I've still got it. Severe depression naturally dulls your mind and causes other issues. Or it could have been the prolonged cycle of NSI-189 and other substances reducing the damage caused, even reversing some (My symptoms of autism were FAR more pronounced when younger, particularly during high school. Even in my early 20s before I began this insane extensive regimen where I just read such an unbelieveable amount and strictly adhered to it. When I'm in a (quasi-)hypomanic state I'm an enormous ball of physical and mental energy. Can you imagine if we supercharge this with a high dose of Nardil?
Oh, and we'll also be helping to greatly alleviate the suffering of our fellow sentient beings, in line with both our professed beliefs.
No, nevermind, I may just say fuck you and eventually handle it on my own. More for me, it's mine, all mine, you didn't build this, this is my birthright, I'm in the EMPIRE BUSINESS!!! Fuck you for all the times you rejected me. Do you think I don't know how you perceive me? Well now I don't need you and I'm kicking you to the side where you can sit in a gutter and drink your alcohol, miserable in the financial district of all things (FiiiiiiDiiiiiii), unfulfilled, ending up completely alone, with nothing but your money to comfort you.
Later, bitch! -
2017-05-04 at 5:40 AM UTC
Originally posted by Sophie It's on now.
Take a step back crack head before you get fucked.
And cucked, flow like an earthquake; atlas tugged.
I'm Randian i'll challenge any men, weak nigga your ass is candy, man
Socially retarded, the prize for useless nigga you'd be awarded
Lauded as the dumbest sucker, not hating, coming clean, shampoo motherfucker
I could go on for days but i'm mostly dazed by this dank weed, silver haze
You couldn't afford it, fuck your misses in the ass calling her shawty
And if there's shit on my dick that bitch better swallow
I ain't no cleaner guy, my name ain't Hernando, my words, the law
you better follow cuz i got a mag full of nines, points? Hollow.
I'm that thief in the night that you can't handle
I steal a mic and go Rambo when I'm in the center channel
I came to take you woman and make her go commando
Cuz she's got a giant gob, so watch her sob by my little candle
It's a scandal, I'm exposed as a straight slob
I'm sicker than an AIDS ward and I sport a day job
So I guess I'm holdin' onto what you ain't got
I'm here to climb the ladder while you're frozen in the same spot
Stay hot as I keep stoking the back flame
Turn the knob, spit fire on command just like a gas range
So sit back and watch me pass you in the fast lane
No gettin' away from this sick cat without a rap name
You musta swallowed your own dad to get that fat frame
or you got gangbanged by me, Pac, and Pat Mayne
I hear you spit a rap and it brings me mad pain
You're actin' like a tiger but I know that pussy cat's tameThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-04 at 5:44 AM UTC
Originally posted by Dargo Hey, Mal, I don't know if this is possible for you, but try just going to bed right now. You seem manic, and staying up researching and thinking about things at lightening speed won't do you any good.
Go to bed and start fresh tomorrow.
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Malice is actually, truly mildly insane.
To be honest, I'm just kidding around with a lot of the things I posted. You can probably tell what they are, although I still meant them on some level.
No, look, it has to be Lanny or Sophie, someone with the right background who can grasp what I wrote and see if it makes sense. If you think this is crazy, read The Intense World Theory paper, What I believe should be the principal founding work for the understanding of autism, written by two Swiss neuroscientists who have an autistic child of their own. It's incomplete, and I want to complete their work, but I think they've got the general idea, part of it, and it's absolutely brilliant:
The Intense World Theory – a unifying theory of the neurobiology of autism
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2017-05-04 at 5:46 AM UTCSophie, have you listened to Backwordz? They're an actual ancap/libertarian/agorist band and they're actually pretty good. Lanny's ears would probably start bleeding if he heard them live.
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2017-05-04 at 5:51 AM UTCMalice...out of all the nootropics which were the most effective? Which ones would be in your top 3?
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2017-05-04 at 5:59 AM UTC
Originally posted by Captain Falcon Malice is actually, truly mildly insane.
Hypomania actually does often manifest in multiple ways that really can make a person seem mildly crazy. I'm sure Lanny has seen some of these types in the startup world, where it's most prevalent.
We all have our specialties, you can't know everything in the world (yet-NeuralLink), so it's completely understandable if it goes over your head if you don't have a background in these subjects. I read and thought, locked myself away to the exclusion of everything else for years on end, only selecting the best of the best, and I am extremely good at finding and dealing with information, to the point where I was literally descending into madness and almost committed suicide, but I made it past the brink.
Just so you know, despite poor circumstances, I did test as gifted in first grade in the 130+ IQ range, theoretical physics PhDs/professors score around a median of 130. Incredibly high reading speed, I could maintain it all day and just absorb tons of information, top of the class, perfect grades and test scores with zero studying. I was also scoring in the 99 percentiles on multiple subjects, including math, so I don't know just how high my ability was right until middle school, which was hell for me, and when everything began going to hell. Apparently it's part of my school record and up until I graduated they would occasionally make remarks about it.
I may still have it in me if I can get back to my peak performance.
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2017-05-04 at 6:10 AM UTCThis reminds me of Akira, which may actually have been heavily influenced by autism, at least some aspects of it, where the Espers and Tetsuo have such immensely powerful supercharged brains that they have to take these pills, Tetsuo ends up shooting an inhuman amount of dope at one point in the manga, just to be able to contain it and live, function; pills so powerful that just one could kill multiple grown men.
Truly a classic of literature imo, btw, or at least among manga/anime.
Really hope my brain doesn't end up, well, there are a lot of things that can go wrong. Hey, maybe if they're unable to find a cure/proper treatment I'll fall or be put into a coma, or cryogenically preserved like Akira was. -
2017-05-04 at 6:10 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Fuuuck, my depression seems to be rapidly alleviating after the breakthrough, but these incredibly OCD rapid thought patterns are coming back where I'm just going through all the major subjects I've read over the years, the things I thought mattered most in life, and processing it to come up with new things, develop my understand. Just a constant rapid fire barrage, and as some of you may remember my thoughts were really really out there at times.
Right now I'm thinking about my understanding of autism and pharmacology, neuroscience, any relevant fields.
I'm afraid that if I actually do recover with Nardil, which commonly causes hypomania (not necessarily a bad thing) I won't be able to contain it. I had severe insomnia and other sleep problems when younger. I could end up like some people who just sleep 5 hours a day and the rest they're just obsessively pursuing their passion at a manic speed, then they collapse exhausted and start the cycle over again. I could need a massive dose of sedatives just to be able to sleep if I want to prevent myself from going insane.
Lanny, if this happens make me your muse and hire me for a startup. You can have control of it and most of the pay, but no sexual favors as a benefit package because of the immense trouble mixing work and personal life can cause, particularly in startups.
I've gotta crack this thing. The information and understanding is still there. The neuroscience, neurological differences that have been confirmed, countless papers, understanding of so many drugs, the neurotransmitter and their implications, insufficient synaptic pruning, a deficit in the GABAergic pathway which leads to an effective imbalance between it and the brains primary excitatory and the most common neurotransmitter glutamate, excessive levels of which are implicated in a variety of modern theories of old disorders, abnormally low levels of serotonin, which I posit do not generally effect mood, but largely modulate various aspects of social behavior, has a strong effect on OCD behavior and thought patterns, and of course there are various subreceptors that each do something different, and most of it is in the gut, which could very likely play a large role in the extreme food sensitivities and other gut issues autistics have. Amygdala hypertrophy, mainly asymmetrical in the region dealing with negative emotions. This causes an amplified response, which along with the deficit in the GABAergic pathway lead to emotional responses that are far overly intense and outside the range of human behavior. If you think about it, the asymmetrical amygdala hypertrophy will cause a response that's mediated by norepinephrine, which makes perfect sense thinking about its principle role in the stress response. It's all based in our evolutionary history, the primitive fight for survival, fear of death in order to live to spread selfish genes, one of the strongest drives and emotional-behavioral responses there is. Norepinephrine abbreviated as NE, the vasoconstriction, contraction of the blood vessels, can be thought of as tightening a hose, the water, blood, goes out with more force. This forces it throughout your body and into your lower extremities, and the extremities are the main tools for survival in those situations, your legs and feet to run and kick, maneuver, climb, your arms to punch and grasp. Going back, of course this drives up your heart rate in order to be able to maintain the elevated flow of blood rate, it's fairly simple mechanics, so your heart beats faster, you breath more rapidly to maintain a level of oxygenation. The hypertensive response also helps keep you from passing out in these incredibly stressful situations because it also forces blood to your brain. Acetylcholine is confirmed to be on average 75% lower, which along with GABA causes the differences in muscle tone, a standard symptom. For example, one of the GABA subreceptors has been specifically implicated in muscle relaxation, this is why a standard effect of benzodiazepines is considerable muscle relaxation. The other effect of anxiety from insufficient effective GABA levels, fear response from the amygdala, and sensory sensitivity, causing extreme discomfort and greatly contributing to the other effects as well. Are you starting to see? It's all synergystic, like an endogenous-exogenously mediated self-perpetuating traumatic cycle. Back to Acetylcholine, it also has a primary function in triggering rem sleep, a clear implication for why the amount of REM is so much lower, and of course you can start to see how all these other factors will contribute to the enormous sleep problems that are common. I've noted before that I either don't dream or barely remember my dreams, and if I do they seem shallow and insignificant, not particularly intense or lucid, and my experimentation with galantamine before bed, which I posted some research/writing about it's use by some in lucid dreaming, commonly considered the most effect supplement there is for it, confirmed that with surprisingly intense and lucid dreams. Back to synapses, you have this insufficient pruning which leads to vastly increased electrical activity and is a principle cause of the extreme sensory issues, to the point where they have to wear earmuffs, sunglasses, and special clothing. You can become uncomfortable in your own skin from it, stimming behaviors are an attempt at self soothing and distraction from this, and an attempt to drown it out. It's also been confirmed that at rest neurological activity is about 40% higher median, once again stemming from synapses, an effective imbalance between glutamate and GABA from the deficit in the GABAergic pathway (something along the line of the process is broken, which masked the importance of this because simply measuring levels of GABA in the brain showed normal levels), this is again related to all these other factors working in conjunction, why autistics retreat into their own inner world, because the world is so overly intense, bombarded by sensory information, that it's completely overwhelming, to the point where other people are drowned out and they don't even respond to their own parents much of the time. This locked in state also amplifies the traumatic cycle I described above, lost in their thoughts replaying trauma over and over. The hypermemory aspect also contributes to this, GABA levels have been shown to have a clear inverse correlation with certain forms of memory. The OCD thought patterns from serotonin and glutamate. The amygdala and it's response is clear, in our evolutionary past you had to navigate enormous landscapes, requiring vast amounts of information. As described above the importance of this fear response makes it clear that, and it is undoubted, that, for example, if you come across a bears den and masturbate you'd better damn well remember to stay away from there in the future. It's like a piece of computer hardware encoding information far more rapidly and effectively than normal, but this can backfire.
Put it together and you have an autistic individual. Even if we haven't found the big bang, one big trigger that causes it all, some vast chain, or it could be very polygenetic, which would make it very difficult to treat, you can still very effectively address these symptoms. I know the clear cocktail of drugs we have available, some experimental or used in animal testing, to alleviate them. The therapy, modifications in environment and interactions with other people, primarily the parents, is also relatively simple and crystal clear.
By god, I wrote that all in one go, a stream of consciousness rant, and there are bound to be some things that I missed, but the main parts are there. There are so many studies I'm able to find because I can recall unique or uncommon strings of words, particularly memorable segments, and then use a simple google boolean search or search on a specific site (The NCBI/PubMed). There's so much data I could pour into this to fully flesh it out the full paper would be immense.
It's the beauty of neuroscience, the attempt to understand ourselves, the primary medium responsible for our perception and interaction (Will and Representation!) with the world, what perceive as consciousness. It's all a chain of causality and if you have the neurological abnormalities, the extreme end of human behavior/traits, that can help you grasp this, despite all the drawbacks, a mediated form of autism (Asperger's) you may be able to contain the enormous complexity and develop a higher level of understanding, a hyper-systemized order of information in your mind.
Originally posted by Malice Lanny, thinking about how many people are afflicted by autism, the enormous lifelong costs, how so many wealthy parents (terrible to say, but hey), which a large over representation in Silicon Valley due to cultural and economic, various social changes, that may have led to an increase in assortative mating where you get two people who are very high systemizers (The autism quotient, computer scientists, unsurprisingly, score among the highest, and there's a large amount of writing and research on this connection) and produce children where certain neurological factors are to such an extreme of human variation that they end up completely disabled.
I swear to god if you try to steal any of my ideas I will literally hunt you down and brutally torture you, and you know I'll go through with it with how completely off the rails I can go when I blow up. But I don't think you'll do that, now will you? ;)
Let's take the world by storm and rake the money. But I need some time to recover, and this could take years, you'd need connections and funding for some additional research that may be needed, people that have those and can convince the people in academia needed by this.
And at the end of it all, IMAGINE HOW MUCH FUCKING MONEY, FAME, GLORY, AND FORTUNE WE WOULD ATTAIN!!!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Mother of god, I'm literally close to rock bottom right now, and yet I've still got it. Severe depression naturally dulls your mind and causes other issues. Or it could have been the prolonged cycle of NSI-189 and other substances reducing the damage caused, even reversing some (My symptoms of autism were FAR more pronounced when younger, particularly during high school. Even in my early 20s before I began this insane extensive regimen where I just read such an unbelieveable amount and strictly adhered to it. When I'm in a (quasi-)hypomanic state I'm an enormous ball of physical and mental energy. Can you imagine if we supercharge this with a high dose of Nardil?
Oh, and we'll also be helping to greatly alleviate the suffering of our fellow sentient beings, in line with both our professed beliefs.
No, nevermind, I may just say fuck you and eventually handle it on my own. More for me, it's mine, all mine, you didn't build this, this is my birthright, I'm in the EMPIRE BUSINESS!!! Fuck you for all the times you rejected me. Do you think I don't know how you perceive me? Well now I don't need you and I'm kicking you to the side where you can sit in a gutter and drink your alcohol, miserable in the financial district of all things (FiiiiiiDiiiiiii), unfulfilled, ending up completely alone, with nothing but your money to comfort you.
Later, bitch!
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2017-05-04 at 6:15 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice Just so you know, despite poor circumstances, I did test as gifted in first grade in the 130+ IQ range, theoretical physics PhDs/professors score around a median of 130.
IQ is based on age (inversely proportional). It's a lot more impressive for 30-40 year olds to have a high IQ than it is for a 7 year old. -
2017-05-04 at 6:17 AM UTC
Originally posted by RestStop Malice…out of all the nootropics which were the most effective? Which ones would be in your top 3?
This one: https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/59w1zg/longterm_treatment_with_low_doses_of/?st=j2a0lvas&sh=92741f55
https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/search?q=methamphetamine&sort=new&restrict_sr=on
I also managed to achieve this effect from PRL-8-53 through experimentation, the strongest nootropic effect I've seen to date. Hopefully PRL-8-147, which is even more promising, and it may be produced one day, the papers by the creator may have been found.
https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/32070y/prl853_rectal_and_intranasal_report_massive_gains/?st=j2a0p0xl&sh=4fbc5dc9
The effects were so far beyond the range of human ability, which you can tell by analyzing the picture I posted, that there's bound to be something special that should be researched.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2017-05-04 at 6:26 AM UTC
Originally posted by Malice This one: https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/comments/59w1zg/longterm_treatment_with_low_doses_of/?st=j2a0lvas&sh=92741f55
https://www.reddit.com/r/DrugNerds/search?q=methamphetamine&sort=new&restrict_sr=on
I also managed to achieve this effect from PRL-8-53 through experimentation, the strongest nootropic effect I've seen to date. Hopefully PRL-8-147, which is even more promising, and it may be produced one day, the papers by the creator may have been found.
https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/32070y/prl853_rectal_and_intranasal_report_massive_gains/?st=j2a0p0xl&sh=4fbc5dc9
The effects were so far beyond the range of human ability, which you can tell by analyzing the picture I posted, that there's bound to be something special that should be researched.
Thanks for that bro. I have a very limited experience with nootropics I've probably tried a dozen or so nameless ones the only two I recall doing anything at all was piracetam(profound clarity, I MEAN PROFOUND clarity and color intensity) and Modafinil(a gun to the head would have been a weak motivator compared to this stuff)...I'll try it out I do have an insane tolerance to stims and basically anything recreationally fun in general but I'll try to keep my dosage within a sane range.
Edit: Lol just now noticed the meth reddit search yeah I've been doing meth for about a year now but definitely beyond what would be functional doses I actually have access to 93% pure stuff but tbh I get way too fucked up on it and can't handle it. I wouldn't feel comfortable selling more than a half gram to ANYONE at a time it's literally on a supernatural tier level compared to even most dark net stuff. I did plan on using small doses of probably I don't know maybe 75-80% stuff and under or around 50mg and only redosing once if I'm honestly and seriously working on something productive or trying to reach a goal I otherwise wouldn't have the motivation to do or keep at for several hours at a time.
I planned on at least combo'ing 800-1200mg piracetam with 50~mg of meth mostly for the clarity and meth for the motivation idk but I appreciate the research you've done and thanks for sharing it with me.
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2017-05-04 at 7:39 AM UTCI just had a thought: I've played around with my body like some people play around with machines trying to build the perfect rig. Hell, due to the complexity of biological systems, I may have surpassed them. I made a post once about the incredible stack I was on and people were amazed, it was like the Ship of Theseus, I was more drug than man by that point.
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2017-05-04 at 8:07 AM UTC
Originally posted by 1337 I'm that thief in the night that you can't handle
I steal a mic and go Rambo when I'm in the center channel
I came to take you woman and make her go commando
Cuz she's got a giant gob, so watch her sob by my little candle
It's a scandal, I'm exposed as a straight slob
I'm sicker than an AIDS ward and I sport a day job
So I guess I'm holdin' onto what you ain't got
I'm here to climb the ladder while you're frozen in the same spot
Stay hot as I keep stoking the back flame
Turn the knob, spit fire on command just like a gas range
So sit back and watch me pass you in the fast lane
No gettin' away from this sick cat without a rap name
You musta swallowed your own dad to get that fat frame
or you got gangbanged by me, Pac, and Pat Mayne
I hear you spit a rap and it brings me mad pain
You're actin' like a tiger but I know that pussy cat's tame
Dope. I'll post my entry for round two in a bit.
Originally posted by Malice Sophie, have you listened to Backwordz? They're an actual ancap/libertarian/agorist band and they're actually pretty good. Lanny's ears would probably start bleeding if he heard them live.
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2017-05-04 at 8:39 AM UTC
In September, two different African American female students reported racially based incidents involving bananas.
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2017-05-04 at 8:44 AM UTCI'm gonna order some phenidate analogs I wonder if those will be any good.
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2017-05-04 at 8:48 AM UTC
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2017-05-04 at 11:14 AM UTCI hate this new fucking law banning cheap packs of backy, now I have to choose between tobacco or weed. Both are useless without the other.
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2017-05-04 at 11:42 AM UTCstay awake all night it causes maniaThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2017-05-04 at 11:43 AM UTC
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2017-05-04 at 11:52 AM UTCSo tired need stims
