2022-08-13 at 11:46 PM UTC
I thought id be dead and i am dead
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2022-08-14 at 12:17 AM UTC
i pretty much realized I was born to lose by age 10 or so and it's been a steady decline ever since
2022-08-14 at 1:03 AM UTC
I can't say what I regret because it's hard to know the real cause of things, and I don't believe in free will. I really wish I had walked away from my phoney friends in highschool though, to have had confidence to sit alone at lunchtime instead of hiding in the toilets chainsmoking. The bad people in my life may have caused positive changes. I only wish to go back to tell myself to stop worrying, I was real neurotic and paranoid.
About two years ago I realised I'm never getting married, since I've never caught feelings for a guy, so that sucks. I think I always knew I'd be a life-long learner as I never saw anything worth dedicating my life to. I did expect to be an author by now, published on Amazon but that doesn't count. It's odd I had more belief in myself than I do now. All I can really see now is life-long learning, travelling and probably falling in with another cult or bad crowd since I'm suggestible. It will be colourful.
2022-08-14 at 1:21 AM UTC
Right now I'm regretting not doing more fun stuff this summer, dunno if it's laziness or I'm boring. Right now I could go light a fire at the beach...
2022-08-14 at 1:36 AM UTC
I was depressed, suicidal doing meth, lonely, didn't care about anythinh
when I joined I had my own place but that didn't last long and I have moved cities probably 6-7 times since 2015 all around the country coast to coast
im happier these these and appreciate life more but i feel dead inside also and know why i'm alive anymore
2022-08-14 at 2:32 AM UTC
Yeah you chose dogshit wet beach sticks. Have you never watched Bear Grylls? you need kindling dawg.
2022-08-14 at 2:36 AM UTC
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2022-08-14 at 2:49 AM UTC
I watched it and I want to kill myself even more now
haha jk im not suicidal anymore I think meth cured my depression
2022-08-14 at 3:41 PM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
When I joined totse I was yung and lost and now I'm old and lost
2022-08-21 at 11:25 PM UTC
Well when I joined zoklet I kind of expected to be a homicide victim sooner or later, 12 years later I've accepted I may likely may not die from homicide for awhile.
Pretty happy about it but I understand things change and tomorrow is not guaranteed
