2019-02-22 at 1:16 AM UTC
[rumor the placative aphakia]
How was your life when you first joined whatever site led you to here? How did you think your life would be in however many years ago that was? Are you satisfied with how it turned out? What have you done to get to where you are now? What do you wish you would have done differently?
2019-02-22 at 1:18 AM UTC
i first read totse when i was like 13 or 14 i think so it's pretty much been totally integrated into my life. it fed my obsession with drugs and fueled a 16 year and counting drug habit, so pretty much i have no idea.
2019-02-22 at 1:41 AM UTC
I used to think success in life was just a matter of connecting with smart people like myself.
When I found out they (largely) don't exist I instead became depressed.
2019-02-22 at 1:53 AM UTC
How was your life when you first joined whatever site led you to here?
Alright, I don't think my mother was an alcoholic at that point or was managing to suppress it.
How did you think your life would be in however many years ago that was?
I don't think that far ahead.
Are you satisfied with how it turned out?
Not really but I haven't exactly put much effort into it. NO goals or motivations beside fending off negative consequences of non-participation and too much pride to try and get some kind of handout.
What have you done to get to where you are now?
More of the same. path of least resistance.
What do you wish you would have done differently?
Suicide about 3 years ago.
2019-02-22 at 2:34 AM UTC
[that staidly controlling tamarillo]
My older brother committed suicide 3 years ago. I didn't know nil then and I don't know (he - she) today. Suicide is never the answer.
2019-02-22 at 2:37 AM UTC
Suicide is never the answer because you never kill yourself young enough.
2019-02-22 at 6:15 AM UTC
I was 13 when I signed up on totse and I think my life was pretty much just school, friends, and video games at that point. I don't think I had ever thought about what life as an adult was going to be like at that point so uhhh, I guess very different that the lack of concept I had at the time?
2019-02-22 at 7:12 PM UTC
It wasn't great. It is now. Never thought about it much. But I know that I didn't have any clearly defined idea of what I wanted to do with my life until just a couple years ago. I wouldn't change anything if I could go back and change it. Because that might alter me as a person. Butterfly effect. change one tiny thing and who knows what happens. I've got fucking magic powers and leet ninja skills. But that's only because of some tiny coincidence, where I just happened to google something my tranny friend with an upside down cross on his forehead told me. Had I never googled that, who knows what may have happened. That and a few other seemingly insignificant coincidences has made me a better person. Forced responsibility I guess.
Matter of fact, I think I love everyone, secretly. This world is awesome. There's always something annoying, something I disagree with but the good outweighs the bad. Change one tiny thing in the past though and that could all be different.
2019-02-25 at 9:37 AM UTC
Sired bastards and fucked many women.
I don't regret nor love either of them.
On a serious note I would have rather Chose life in my early 20's.
2020-09-21 at 12:35 PM UTC
I found this site last fall after searching for grylls and zoklet to see if there was any archived posts of him and me going after eachother (no homo)
But i would change alot if i could. Shit seems to be falling apart around me and its the type of things that you cant do anything about. I still havent found a passion for any career yet. Just seems to be that i work to pay bills and put money away each month. I think im putting money away for when ive had enough of my job and decide to quit so then i can fuck off for months/years until i figure out what i really want to do.
Every job seems to get boring after 6 months to a year so im probably going to go the sole proprietorship route when i get back into the workforce after my extended vacation.
2020-10-09 at 6:52 PM UTC
Life’s pretty good
Being a poor white boy from a black neighborhood