2022-04-17 at 11:20 PM UTC
Been better my depression is starting to kick in
2022-04-17 at 11:23 PM UTC
aldra
JIDF Controlled Opposition
new boss same as the old boss
2022-04-17 at 11:43 PM UTC
Fonaplats
victim of incest
[daylong jump-start that nome]
Getting sober for me was one thing but adjusting to that reality was a lot more work.
Jumping off that bridge only took a few seconds.
Drug cravings dissipated within a couple hours thanks to pain killers and valium.
Nursing home lasted 2 months and change but I dont think my mental state got any better during that time as I was just roaming around the halls and had nothing to focus on.
Rehab lasted 99 days and Im not sure it helped all that much.
It was more of a really crappy vacation during which I still didn't have anything to do except spend time thinking and reading books.
When all that was said and done I found myself aggravated that I was back at square one with nothing so I got a crappy job and spent a lot of time very drunk sitting at my computer.
It wasn't until probably a year later that things actually started to get better better.
Chell showed up and my priorities changed. Without that happening Id probably be way farther behind than where I am now.
Even quitting marijuana changed a lot for me. I find myself uninterested in wasting large portions of my day being unproductive.
All that gets me high now is progress and positive change.
At this point even doing chores releases endorphins.
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2022-04-17 at 11:56 PM UTC
Same old reality but twice
2022-04-17 at 11:58 PM UTC
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Tuskegee Airman
[my unrivalled skillful mastoid]
Boredom kicks in and crushed my will to stay sober
2022-04-18 at 12:02 AM UTC
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2022-04-18 at 12:03 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
I live in the reality where Bob Marley got his toe amputated so he didn't die from cancer and is still alive today as an elder Jamaican statesman albeit with a slight limp.
2022-04-18 at 12:29 AM UTC
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Tuskegee Airman
[my unrivalled skillful mastoid]
Isolation
In Trepidation
Trapped in a Hell of my own creation
I don't want to care
I don't want to try
I don't want to live
But I don't want to die