2017-04-25 at 9:21 PM UTC
I've been through the craziest shit.
I actually DID get really fucked up on methamphetamine. I have tens of thousands of pages (probably) of stuff I wrote.
I never really was a meth-head back on zoklet or totse. I was a highschool stoner on totse. and an opiate addict on zoklet. The last 3 years of zoklet I was on prescription klonopin and I had no idea how badly it was fucking me up. 3, nearly 4 years of my life are the type of hazy blur that drinking too much... until you black out kind of are... when reminiscing the following day. and periodically having flash-backs of new, mortifying memories. That all started coming to an end the last year or so of zoklet.
So I decided to become a full-fledged , insane, "delusional" methamphetamine addict to help with the benzo withdrawals. instead of sitting on benzo-buddies in hypochondria heaven.
The point of this thread... I've had no one to listen to me. While the most mind-blowing epiphanes' , realizations, possibly delusional discoveries about the mortal coil in which we all reside. have built up. all to the point now. that i've found this site. and a potential outlet. emotional and intellectual. where people , at least some of you will probably read what i have to say.
and i don't know where to begin.
Vizier, you were always a good guy and I'm seriously sorry, man. I thought it was all in good fun at the time. and i actually mean that. I never would have wished you harm. in any form. I just thought what I was doing was funny. or rather. I thought it was funny WHILE not being morally wrong. maybe that's the case. maybe it's not. who knows. either way. I feel bad about it and I'm sorry.
everyone else: i made up that shit about talking vizier out of suicide on zoklet. to piss him off. and i took it a bit too far. it was a cowardly move... really.
the truth is i was sick of whore to a chainsaw and mayweather making fun of me. at such a down point in my life. and i wanted to , cowardly, like i said, deflect that type of attention onto someone else. and for that i deserve to be forced to suck dicks at gun-point until i die of dick poisoning.
i love you all.
especially -SpectraL.
mike
The following users say it would be alright if the author of this
post didn't die in a fire!
2017-04-25 at 9:30 PM UTC
tl. dr. dgaf.
get naked...post pics.
2017-04-25 at 9:31 PM UTC
-SpectraL
coward
[the spuriously bluish-lilac bushman]
Yeah. We certainly don't want Vizier to die.
tl dr iwd is still a meth and methadone addict
2017-04-25 at 11:41 PM UTC
SpectraL thanking that post is so painfully obvious
2017-04-25 at 11:56 PM UTC
Vizier
Tuskegee Airman
[spic of the devil]
Suicide, wut? If anything I got upset at the bunch of faggots sharing my family's PI for whatever reason, but that's it. Other than that, why the hell would I attempt suicide because some people on the internet mention it?
Did anyone actually fucking change in the last 4 years?
Clean your shit up, IWD. Fucking meth, not even once.
2017-04-25 at 11:58 PM UTC
That wall of text... my god you really are IWD aren't you
2017-04-26 at 12:03 AM UTC
And to think all I had to do was stop posting on zoklet
2017-04-26 at 12:03 AM UTC
God dammit Lanny these new smilies fucking suck
2017-04-26 at 12:04 AM UTC
lol thats the "coffee" zoklet smiley
