2022-04-12 at 9:27 PM UTC
I am tired of the people in my life everybody from my friends to my enemies they're all blending together and I stare at the wall all day long until I start to see shapes and sizes and colors trip out basically I've recently quit drugs which has in turn actually made my life worse as I now suffer from crippling depression I live with a roommate a family member I feel as though it will be better not to show emotion around anyone I have cut all of my medication from depression to bipolar to anxiety I have stopped going to my therapist counselor and psychiatrist I try to shove all bit of emotion down i have no job and can't get one I am stuck with what feels like a war inside my head one part of me feels like hating everything and everyone and the other part feels like going in a corner and crying it is also not helping as each day I feel disconnected and dissociated from everyone even myself
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2022-04-12 at 9:36 PM UTC
Wariat
Marine/Preteen Biologist
i feel similar man in many ways.
2022-04-12 at 9:38 PM UTC
i feel similar man in many ways.
2022-04-12 at 9:55 PM UTC
I similar ways in many feel man.
2022-04-13 at 12:01 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
I empathize and relate to you OP but Keeping your emotions in and stopping medication and seeing psychiatrists with nothing To replace it with is self Sabatoge and setting yourself up for failure. You quit drugs and instead of trying to replace the hole in your soul with something you just removed everything and haven't built any new coping skills or thought patterns.
Why wouldn't you feel dissociated from everyone, especially yourself? You're confronting life with a very different apparatus and actively making it more difficult for yourself. Figure out what has worked for you before and do those things until you're stable enough to figure out what works for you and what doesn't.
2022-04-13 at 12:07 AM UTC
Arm yourself and make them pay for doing this to you.
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2022-04-13 at 1:22 AM UTC
I don't think being present is necessary so wouldn't see it as a bad thing. I'd cut off the friends if they're becoming like enemies, especially if they're making you angry. In the past I'd talk with my favourite author or read peoples diaries when there wasn't anyone.
When things are really bad a planner is necessary to stay organised and focus on what's next. I'd think about what's really bothering you because usually a lot of things are just a few of the same things. I think you always know what the right thing to do is and if you forget your human emotions and just make the right choices then you'll be fine. You don't really have to be this way and things can always get better somehow.
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2022-04-13 at 1:31 AM UTC
I heard shrooms are good for rebalancing the brain chemistry, especially when suffering depression. I might buy some spores and grow some.
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2022-04-13 at 1:40 AM UTC
I would dress happy as well, pink. If you look like death you'll feel like it too.
2022-04-13 at 3:09 AM UTC
How I cope
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2022-04-13 at 5:31 AM UTC
aldra
JIDF Controlled Opposition
everything is going to be just awful
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2022-04-13 at 12:47 PM UTC
Originally posted by Kafka
How I cope
I like youe style. It comes across as innocence covered debauchery.
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