2022-01-02 at 1:43 AM UTC
I think we should gamble on who the most likely person is to pass away from natural or unnatural causes. Like everyone puts in 5$ and whoever's person dies first gets the pot.
I pick quick mix ready of course.
2022-01-02 at 1:44 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
i'll probably die from congestive heart-failure this year
2022-01-02 at 1:46 AM UTC
why do you think that Steros? I'll pray for you if you want. How old are you?
2022-01-02 at 1:55 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
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diagnosed 3 years ago with it.
i can feel it worsening.
2022-01-02 at 1:59 AM UTC
did u do a lot of speed/cocaine before this happened and are you FUCKING FAT
i'm really sorry if you're dying and i'm pestering u with questions, i think it's kinda interesting
do you believe in a religion
2022-01-02 at 2:08 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
im not really sure how to explain it but theres this weird and uncomfortable 'congestion' sensation followed by my heart thumping to where i can feel it radiating thru my hands thats been coming and going more frequently as of late.
also ive been hacking up thin phlegm a lot more lately which my cardiologist said would happen as DHF advances.
2022-01-02 at 2:08 AM UTC
i think i have that too bro
2022-01-02 at 2:09 AM UTC
did u do a lot of speed/cocaine before this happened and are you FUCKING FAT
i'm really sorry if you're dying and i'm pestering u with questions, i think it's kinda interesting
do you believe in a religion
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2022-01-02 at 2:17 AM UTC
Wow. You got some children you leaving behind or a family? Do you practice any religion?
Are you scared?
2022-01-02 at 2:20 AM UTC
i get chest tightness over my heart sometimes when i doa lot of crack but they said it's inflammation from my Rheumatoid arthritis but for about a year i suspected i was gonna die from it and even went to get EKG'ed nd really cut down on using crystal meth because i didn't want my mom to outlive me (I'm her only son and this is a fear) so now i sometimes get like organ kidney tightness in my back by my ribs when i go on huge drinking benders which my mom says are the kidneys struggling because of the excessive beer drinking
I'm probably gonna die in the next 25 years because of the disease modifying anti rheumatic drugs but i'm hoping to have a lot of happpy memories in my stalling body between now and then. THe idea of death kinda took on new meaning int he last two years as friends both IRL & online like Bill Krozby started dropping dead around me
i kinda just figured if it happens it's gonna happen but i might as well live int he mean time, but i only drank 5 beers today and hope tomorrowt o do 0 for the first time in like a month
2022-01-02 at 2:21 AM UTC
but yeah i might probably die soon too i gave up ont he chest tightness nd figured if it's not my RA then i'm dead but i can't live my life in fear of some pretend cardio problem that probably is related to my inflammtion
2022-01-02 at 2:22 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
just a bit nervous.
i dont practice religion.
2022-01-02 at 2:24 AM UTC
Is there anything you can do to combat the worsening of it or have you given up on treating it?
2022-01-02 at 2:26 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
i hope you can cut down your drinking habit and knock off the crack use so you dont complicate your rheumatoid arthritis. hopefully nothing is wrong with your heart.
hang in there
2022-01-02 at 2:27 AM UTC
i haven't smoked crack since i left my girlfriend cuz she was my inner city plug
my mom didn't drink today but feels really sick from how hard we've been going for the last month in the drinking
2022-01-02 at 2:28 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
just continue taking xanax for it helps with my heart.
im rx'd 2mg 4x daily but i just break it in half and pop 1 mg through-out the day so its always in my system
2022-01-02 at 2:31 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
oh and also watch what i eat stay and stay active.
2022-01-02 at 2:32 AM UTC
STER0S
Space Nigga
[the disappointingly unanticipated slab]
i also need to stop my blowing load so often but thats an addiction all of its own