that you suffer from chronic depression like crosby did? no matter what you do where you go what fun you have the enxt moment or day youre again ready to kill urself?
yeah i'm depressed and have been for a long time probably just because of factors of my life, but even when I pulled myself out of poverty, had a job, a pregnant girlfriend, money in the bank and a normal life I was eating boxes of pills every day, smoking an ounce of weed every week, drinking so much that I would wake up in the hospital.
It's like no matter what point I am in life I will always feel like shit, hate the world and my life. I wanted to do crime and rob drug dealers or a bank, idk why, I had a good job but I wanted more than I could get from getting an education and following a career path.
I thought everyone around me was retarded and I would see happy people in their old age bragging about their retirement and shitty boat or stupid fence and if thats all life is thats the ultimate goal after giving away your life and selling your soul to the company store then I wanted no part of it and just played along and kept the facade going because I wanted money for my own reasons. I wanted to make drugs and blow shit up.
I still feel the same way where no matter what I do or where I go in life I will always find a reason to hate everything around me. I'm trying to just slow down and enjoy the simple things in life but that has turned into me losing all motivation to participate in society, i'm trying to find a good balance but fall into the same patterns of depressive thinking a lot
Originally posted by Ghost
yeah i'm depressed and have been for a long time probably just because of factors of my life, but even when I pulled myself out of poverty, had a job, a pregnant girlfriend, money in the bank and a normal life I was eating boxes of pills every day, smoking an ounce of weed every week, drinking so much that I would wake up in the hospital.
It's like no matter what point I am in life I will always feel like shit, hate the world and my life. I wanted to do crime and rob drug dealers or a bank, idk why, I had a good job but I wanted more than I could get from getting an education and following a career path.
I thought everyone around me was retarded and I would see happy people in their old age bragging about their retirement and shitty boat or stupid fence and if thats all life is thats the ultimate goal after giving away your life and selling your soul to the company store then I wanted no part of it and just played along and kept the facade going because I wanted money for my own reasons. I wanted to make drugs and blow shit up.
I still feel the same way where no matter what I do or where I go in life I will always find a reason to hate everything around me. I'm trying to just slow down and enjoy the simple things in life but that has turned into me losing all motivation to participate in society, i'm trying to find a good balance but fall into the same patterns of depressive thinking a lot
You just need to snap out of it, problem solved (thank me later).
snorting drugs is like doing the dishes it's like a ritual to make yourself less depressed and make your life better but sometimes there are no dishes to do sometimes everything is done and what do you do then?
I'm pretty sure Bill Krozby off'd himself because the poo poo discovered cp on his pc, not because he was depressed. Unless of course said event lead to the depression in the first place.
Originally posted by Xlite
I'm pretty sure Bill Krozby off'd himself because the poo poo discovered cp on his pc, not because he was depressed. Unless of course said event lead to the depression in the first place.
read the actual thread, there were no cops, he was just hallucinating like crazy
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I didn't say anything about credible - just that there was never any CP or CP police, he just seemed to have locked himself in his room in some kind of psychotic state
