"Better than I felt in years..." I always heard this by countless people 50% or better were proven to be liars but those who told the truth I am beginning to get it...understand. Over 10 days without a single shot/drink...I don't know the exact date but its been YEARS now that I ever been this sober. I really feel like things and I am changing for the better...the rage, all the bullshit in the past I clung to or anger me is all but gone. The shit that I blamed myself over or I allowed others to take the blame. I am sorry but really not I chose to and had to learn the hard way. No regrets...well maybe not DWELL on that shit as much. I think there are a few things I could and should have done or said better to one or some. Its been a very revealing personal journey...the last lil while NOT just the last 10 plus days. I really wish this continues. The next step is my dependence in every way...its gonna be long and hard since I was always an entitled piece of shit with several chips on my shoulder but if I can be sober through this..anything is really possible..right? I hope so. I know hope isn't the best word but that some shit I have to work through to. Thing is I am actually getting there and somewhere and not in a rut anymore. I just gotta keep that focus. Not lose it...as I have countless times over the years.
Ok probably rambling now but fuck people if I can get to this glimmer of hope and contentment after nearly 30 years of being an pill popper(anything that I could find) Dabbled in every conceivable drug, and more importantly drunk...anything is possible I really am finding to be true. Real shit and Talk over. I'll be back as Arnie would say....the less though means real life is and will always be more important. If I slip...well I will have 10k posts by 2021. Simple as that. Love ya peeps.
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"Better than I felt in years…" I always heard this by countless people 50% or better were proven to be liars but those who told the truth I am beginning to get it…understand. Over 10 days without a single shot/drink…I don't know the exact date but its been YEARS now that I ever been this sober. I really feel like things and I am changing for the better…the rage, all the bullshit in the past I clung to or anger me is all but gone. The shit that I blamed myself over or I allowed others to take the blame. I am sorry but really not I chose to and had to learn the hard way. No regrets…well maybe not DWELL on that shit as much. I think there are a few things I could and should have done or said better to one or some. Its been a very revealing personal journey…the last lil while NOT just the last 10 plus days. I really wish this continues. The next step is my dependence in every way…its gonna be long and hard since I was always an entitled piece of shit with several chips on my shoulder but if I can be sober through this..anything is really possible..right? I hope so. I know hope isn't the best word but that some shit I have to work through to. Thing is I am actually getting there and somewhere and not in a rut anymore. I just gotta keep that focus. Not lose it…as I have countless times over the years.
Ok probably rambling now but fuck people if I can get to this glimmer of hope and contentment after nearly 30 years of being an pill popper(anything that I could find) Dabbled in every conceivable drug, and more importantly drunk…anything is possible I really am finding to be true. Real shit and Talk over. I'll be back as Arnie would say….the less though means real life is and will always be more important. If I slip…well I will have 10k posts by 2021. Simple as that. Love ya peeps.
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