2020-03-04 at 4:50 AM UTC
Originally posted by Solstice
Valium is like the best muscle relaxant other than Soma.
Soma. Bad.
I didn't know anything about muscle relaxers and then my buddy stole some soma from the med cabinet and gave them to me.
I left my facility and got blackout drunk at a bar and got a dui and revoked my parole. Thanks SOMA.
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2020-03-04 at 4:50 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
Originally posted by CASPER
Yeah i spend part of my days depressed, part of the day angry as fuck gritting my teeth so hard my jaw hurts, and the restof the time imagining my normal life with a bunch of different women, and what our kids would probably look like, and what normie career field id end up in.
Its fucked and i dont like it lol
Dude. Write. You're in the right place of your existential crisis. You're talented and have a likable voice, do something about it.
In Sudo related news I'm trying to build legal businesses and hemorrhaging money like crazy. Fighting with and cheating on my gf less, was off da pills for a few weeks but I'm back on them as of yesterday, or possible the day before I don't remember. I need to get fucking help. I hate most people as they are snakes. I need to listen to WU TANG more and meditate.
I'm learning a lot of white people stuff rn and it's kind of intimidating. I feel pretty healthy but I crave cocaine every minute of the day.
I feel EMPTY in one way or another which is the crux of my addiction so I feel I need to roll in the mud a bit to get it out of my system or maybe just pray the gay away. I'm at a crossroads right now it's clear for anyone to see. I want to focus a lot of energy in one direction and some things are going to be left behind. I need to not be addicted to fucking pills though, I feel like an idiot for getting off them just to get back on them. It's the worst fucking cycle in the world. Beyond how expensive they are they're really bad for you and your mental health
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2020-03-04 at 5:03 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
Oh yeah I watched someone convulse from cotton fever yesterday or the day before and it was pretty sad. Basically talked my gay friend out of suicide too. He keeps having flashbacks about being sexually abused and thinks he needs rohypnol. I keep having flashbacks of being physically abused and I want to punch someone but I rarely find the opportunity these days without putting myself in legal jeopardy. I want to drink because it's an excuse to fight but boy would my face be red were I to wake up in a holding cell.
My stomach hurts most of the time but it couldn't possibly be the pills, spicy food, irritable gut syndrome and demons pulling me in different directions
2020-03-04 at 5:07 AM UTC
Also my mailbox still doesn't have 5he cool new Canadian coupons yet. I bet it happens this week.
2020-03-04 at 5:19 AM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
also these are the ingredients in my new natural ADHD formula caps I got from a witch doctor who I have immeasurable faith in (who believes the chinese government created the colonvirus and I'm pretty sure is an anti vaxxer) labeled "ADD formula 2"
125mg magnesium (glycinate)
80mg American Ginseng 5%
75mg lemon balm 4:1
50mg chamomile 1%
37.5mg Passion Flower 4:1
30mg Theanine
30mg Ginko Biloba 24/6
25mg N-Acetyl-L Tyrosine
5mg Pyridoxal-5-Phosphate
5mg Zinc (citrate)
2.5mg Niacin
=I will buy placebo snake oil
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2020-03-04 at 5:22 AM UTC
Fuxk.
My daily regimen is a banana.
2020-03-04 at 6:09 AM UTC
I cant eat pananas anymore bc apparently my blood pressure meds increase levels of potassium in the blood and ill die.
So bananas are now my kryptonite. Oh how the mighty have fallen. Survived MRSA and heroin addiction and got took out by a plantain.
2020-03-06 at 7:56 PM UTC
Casper I will pour a banana out for you homie
2020-03-07 at 11:10 AM UTC
I think im bipolar. or its just the drugs.
had to take my juice early last night to get to sleep, so i wentwithout all day. The sciatica pain sucks the energy out of me, and its just fucking depressing.
But i just dosed again and the leg pain is a lot better so maybe my body is just being janky bc of the withdrawals.
All things considered ikinda have a lot going for me, but its easy to cancel all that out.
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2020-03-07 at 5:19 PM UTC
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Maybe you got a disease Casper! Look up some rare ones that have your symptoms...especially ones that have emotional and physical like symptoms and shit. Watch the show HOUSE! from beginning to end...you may have one of them!!
Do surgery on yourself as well!!! you might find the problem ALL ON YOUR OWN.
AS FOR ME I'VE Been alcohol free for 4 days 12hrs! this is the longest I've gone without in almost a year..if I make it to tomorrow night about 8-9 p.m. I will
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2020-03-07 at 6:05 PM UTC
Sudo
Black Hole
[my hereto riemannian peach]
I'm on some weird cycle where I need drugs to get me through the week then on the weekend I eat healthy and try to mitigate opiate and marijuana use while everyone invites me to do degenerate things. I'm trying to move and get a business moving and man I feel so much better not doing drugs but fuck when I need opiates I needs em. I'm trying to write a paper too. Fuck I really need a competent assistant for all things sudo related not just compartmentalized aspects of my business plans. My gf is too busy being a yung formerly teen mom but she tries a bit but not nearly enough. The people I have for this on the payroll are well meaning fuck ups who send me voice to text messages I can barely understand all day.
2020-03-08 at 12:02 AM UTC
I felt surprisingly okay today. My leg feels a bit better, i went tohome depot to get some strawberries n cantaloupe to plant, got some more chicken make jerky, and then got some frozen yogurt for my mom. Havent eaten yet today but not hungry. Down another 1.2 lb. If coinbase will stop being fucking jedis im going to get some btc and buy some test cream tonight.
