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2020-05-12 at 11:48 PM UTC in So I've been reading Mein Kampf
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2020-05-12 at 11:41 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?
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2020-05-12 at 11:41 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?
Originally posted by Wariat hey hiki its not thwt bas. imagine being a sex offender or what hell that would entail in usa. Can anyone think of w simgle worse thing? illness not beimg able to walk?
Imagine having been to a psychiatric hospital and labeled schizophrenic.
Now I can't do anything without them using that against me.
How Will I ever run for president now? -
2020-05-12 at 11:38 PM UTC in HousingSo hopefully (be praying for me, if you're jewish like octavian and tmwpiiha then pray to satan) I'm getting my own house or apartment, if not it'll be a group home.
One likely scenario is I'll be sent to this house my friend works at, where there are people in wheelchairs Who might be legit retarded but apparently there is a high functioning autistic (assburgers) guy who has the same name as me.
I'm not too worried at the moment because I have 90oz of beer on me but I'm still very cautious.
Hopefully I'll have a lock with keys to my door, if not they'll have to install it.
I really don't want to be living with other people, unless it was someone cool like pamperchu but even then ...
They're probably normies too so I'll have to deal with hearing their normie tv and shit music like John mellencamp and 90s house ... Oh well I'll just blast them with Merzbow and Backstreet boys.
I wonder if the autistic guy likes anime and Industrial. -
2020-05-12 at 10:08 PM UTC in nowtalgia nerd visiting olg geocities cities
Originally posted by Wariat me too. hat do you thi k of some of my gay pornr eviving scanlines or the 90s?
Your gay porn certainly has an 80s - 90s aesthetic.
You should make a website with that art style, it could be about dreams or life in Poland.
Idk what my site would be about, probably a general site about myself and my musical projects. -
2020-05-12 at 10:05 PM UTC in nowtalgia nerd visiting olg geocities citiesI want to revive web 1.0
It could be a movement, make new sites for what topic you're interested in but keep the function and design similar to the early/mid 00s or 90s. -
2020-05-12 at 10:01 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?Hey Wariat I might make a gaming channel as well as a slice of life channel.
How do you make money from that though? -
2020-05-12 at 9:58 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?
Originally posted by the man who put it in my hood I sliced myself up a bunch at work with a box cutter. I wasn't planning on it being so bad because I did it a lot but that time I was on mirtazapine and had a bad reaction or something and just kept cutting myself open until the flesh turned white and there was blood everywhere.
I just walked up to the boss and said hey I am injured and need to go to the hospital. He didn't believe me but when he saw what I did he drove me there. I got 27 stitches from a medical intern that was doing it for the first time.
He kept saying these are some really straight and deep cuts and i was like yeah I have the worst luck.
Where do you work? -
2020-05-12 at 9:51 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?What happened to you?
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2020-05-12 at 9:44 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?Sorry to hear that.
Is it just his hand that is injured or did he get severed?
What is the story?
I guess I should use am,exit bag then.
I was thinking a train would be effective judging by what happened to Terry Davis. -
2020-05-12 at 9:39 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?I'm not in pain I am just numb and dissociated.
Like I can't really feel anything and I feel mentally clouded and off.
Also my eyesight is really poor from all the alcohol.
I just feel like a 90 year old in a 29 year old body -
2020-05-12 at 9:36 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?
Originally posted by Wariat you should start a twitch and youtube channel about the ps2 like a nostalgia channel. you may blow up and nake some cash with it. and maybe make a site like a live journal with the experiences of a hiki who knows it may blow up like thwt youtube guy you said you had a dream about the other day.
It would all come crashing down if they found out about my posts here and elsewhere, unless I attracted the type of crowd that goes to sites like oneangrygamer. -
2020-05-12 at 9:35 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?
Originally posted by Wariat Just to
ry to lewrn something new one thing st a time. combine jt with your music skills. and get out more. maybe take some udemy classes.
Not that simple.
I have dealt with a lifetime of depression and isolation, add to that poor health from spine surgery and alcoholism and combine that with something awful that happened to me last year.
There is no point living.
I have no understanding of how to live on my own and thrive in the fishnet, I have no educational background other than grade school which I never even paid attention to.
I'm going to be living in a government subsidized housing with disability soon but this will just lead me deeper into isolation and nihilism.
I have never had any emotional support from anyone.
I feel so alone.
Hopefully they don't put me into a group house because that would just make it worse and more stressful.
I'll probably end up with a one bedroom apartment where I will spend my days in darkness staring at a screen until I either use an Exit bag or my body finally gives in. -
2020-05-12 at 9:24 PM UTC in One of you motherfuckers played a joke on me didnt you?
Originally posted by Wariat but this person was asking me like shit from way back I havent said or revealed ro ppl forever and called me all of a sudden saying she found my name and some notes in her notebook about me. like where I used to live in usa and shit. my former or americanized name etc.
Maybe you have a trojan and the hacker is gaslighting you -
2020-05-12 at 9:22 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?
Originally posted by Wariat dont ro it man. life isnt that bad. just grab a beer and play some gta or ps2 or something.
Oh it's bad.
I haven't said anything about what's going on the past year.
After that I feel ready to die.
No reason to keep going on.
That's not to say I hate existing, just that I want to hit the reset button. -
2020-05-12 at 9:12 PM UTC in One of you motherfuckers played a joke on me didnt you?Back when I had a phone I would get strange calls often.
They would ask for people who weren't me, or would call and not say anything. -
2020-05-12 at 9:11 PM UTC in Death by train or exit bag?I read that even if your lower half gets severed if youre taken to the hospital soon enough they can revive you :(
Exit-bag it is then -
2020-05-12 at 9:10 PM UTC in LaterOP rode the short bus home
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2020-05-12 at 8:57 PM UTC in Music thats great for DPH sessions
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2020-05-12 at 8:39 PM UTC in nowtalgia nerd visiting olg geocities citiesI played a midi of mortal kombat to my Casio keyboard a few days ago