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2019-10-16 at 5:59 AM UTC in I had to deal with this piece of shit animal abusercome back tomorrow in a full dog furry suit and rape him
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2019-10-16 at 5:16 AM UTC in I had to deal with this piece of shit animal abuserShould've taken the fucking dog
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2019-10-16 at 4:22 AM UTC in I had to deal with this piece of shit animal abuserI'm fucking pissed off still over it, It shouldn't of ever happened to begin with. I was having lunch and a few brews naked about to get in the shower before work and someone knocks at my door and I go to the door and its my neighbor/friend and I open the door to see what he wants, crack it just open enough since I was naked and I was like sup man, and he was obviously wasted and he was like "hey man let me come in and play guitar I have some wine" And I was like "dude I'm naked I'm about to get in the shower I'm going to work in a bit" and he was like "Common man" and just shoved his way in, And I'm like whatever and he hands me his thermos of wine and I take a swig and walk into the bathroom to shower. I get out and get dressed and he's telling me how he just refilled his suboxone script and so obviously I ask for some and we go to his place and gives me one and I eat it. And he's going on about how some girl he started seeing recently some junkie bitch broke his heart, but you can tell its a false outrage since he's kind of a fag and just attention whoring because he rarely gets laid anymore.
So I walk to the sunshine station to get catch my bus buzzing pretty hard and this girl I know Odile is there. I've spoke to her there several times, she's 19 a virgin and really shy and sweet, very petite and pretty. She's not like those other girls, theres something different in her eyes, she's got more than curls. I know she's like that so I approach her differently because I know I can be kind of intimidating to certain girls because I mostly hang out with punk rock girls. So we've gotten to know each other a little bit talking to her at down around the UT where she goes to school near the sunshine station. Just talking about the classes she's taking and her asking me about my job being working at an oyster bar. I do most of the talking because she's so soft spoken, but thats fine, she apologized once for being so shy but she likes talking to me. Today she was wearing a poodle skirt with a nice blouse and jet black hair pulled into a pony tail. Beautiful pale complexion. And I ask her "Hey how have you been doing, doll?" giving her a sweet smile. And she smiles back and tells me she's doing really well and school is going great and I tell her thats good to hear, and its good see you again.
And we can enjoy each others company just sitting together, not always feeling forced to engage in conversation just enjoying each others presence. Theres some older dude across the street with a table set up with pamphlets, probably some leftist political agenda I dont know or care really. And he has what I assume is his dog sitting in a chair on the other side of the table that I guess is meant for people to sit down and talk to him, hear his whole shpeal, but obviously no one is interested. And he slams his fist on the table six times and he slaps his dog in the face, an old dog. And he hits him so hard the dogs head goes to the side and just stays there for a few seconds in that position, he probably spine/neck problems and then he slowly moves his head back. Then the guy does the same thing slams his fist against the table and slaps him again and then the dogs head is to the side for a few seconds then slowly moves back. And I'm thinkin what the fuck, I can't believe I'm seeing this, who does this asshole think he is.
Odile is seeing this too, and she looks really flustered almost like she's about to cry and she's looking around just to not have to look at it like she can't believe this dog is being treated like this but what can she do? She's a skinny little girl, and she looks down to the ground looking like she wishes she could do something but she can't like she's too timid to do something just because she doesn't know what to do, she looks defeated. I'm not like that at all and I tell Odile to watch my stuff and leave my back pack with her and she says "wait what are you doing Doug?" and I don't say anything I just cross the street really quickly and walk up to the side of the and he's so oblivious and in his own little world he doesn't even see it coming, I say "hey fuck head" and bitch slap him right on his ear and he starts yelling and holding his ear. And I just run back across the street and grab my backpack and say to Odile "I gotta go.." And she says "Wait Doug where are you going?!" And I say "I can't be here now" As I don't want to have the cops called on me.. And she says "Wait I'll come with you" And we walk off together really fast to go catch the bus further down the street several blocks away.
I end up getting off the bus at my work and tell her I'll talk to her later and she says for me to be careful and I told her I'll try.
It's bullshit that I even had to do that but the guy had it coming, I can't stand people who abuse animals. And also whenever I take opiods I get really pissed off if anything doesn't go my way and messes with my high. -
2019-10-16 at 3:46 AM UTC in I have renounced my degenerate, western, tranny ways.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-15 at 11:55 PM UTC in I have renounced my degenerate, western, tranny ways.Also goddamn, looking at that picture I am riddled with fetal alcohol syndrome. My birth mom should have aborted me if she was just gonna pull that shit.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-15 at 6:21 PM UTC in Octavian 15/10/19Hi Guize
Life is good, got sacked for snorting too much Cocaine Thursday and txting in my sickness cause I had bad anxiety for the 4th time. The job sucked anyway. I have a sponsor now.
Anyways.
Back in the gym 5 days a week, no drinking/ snorting. Start my new job Monday which pays 30k plus bonuses, maybe getting sacked was a good idea? Got my own office overlooking Liverpool docks. Can't mess this up. Hope all you fucking androids are good.
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2019-10-15 at 2:46 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)CASPER gont, I needed that, thank you
I've been doing meth everyday now for I don't even know, what a week straight by now? Maybe more? And before that it's been off and on basically since I started college, so like 2 months or more even though it's sent me to the ER, made me feel like I can't visualize things in my head much, and feeling like it is definitely pushing me over that extremely thin and incredibly close line I walk with schizophrenia that I haven't been giving the respect it deserves.
I sit here on the end of a week long bender, not getting any of my school work done ever since I started this crap with the intention of it HELPING me study harder and longer, and I hear cops with drug dogs outside my windows, people talking about me on the street all week (some of them probably actually were because I'm high on meth :crazyfaceemoji:), and right now this piercingly high pitched ringing coming through my earbuds as intermittent radio chatter from the authorities. I pray to God the voices go away when I'm sober, because they were sticking around to some effect the last time I quit using it until they started to reside with lots of effort and time until I picked up the glass dick again for no good fucking reason.
Uncomfortably waiting to see how many more crazy people pills I need to take so I can go to bed and try again tomorrow. I've only gone through give or take half a gram this week and I already feel shot, and somehow lost muscle and seemed to have gained fat, which is impossible but it happened.
I've come to accept finally that I have straight up brain damage, which is sexy, and pain that gets better and worse but never goes away, which is hawt, and I have to learn how to deal with those things because I have no other choice besides killing myself, and those are the only two options I have forever, so I better master the art of being with my pain in the moment and doing the best I can in spite of it.
I'm feeling a little better now; my head's killing me like none other, but at least the new neighbors seem to be winding the party down somewhat. Might even get a little reading done after a couple more serries. I'm grateful to live in a country where I get to work in the field of thought that interests me, where I'm not forced to be an accountant or something equally boring that I don't care about and neither does anyone else. I wish I didn't ruin my life, but I did, and in a way I saved it because if I didn't go down the path I did, I never would have had that breakthrough, nor self actualization, nor recovery and met the people I met and made the decision to go get what I want out of life, which is the ultimate work in progress.
My chest hurts like fucking hell now, that always happens on meth. My counselor (who's rich and famous and wears gucci) said they told her if she didn't quit doing meth and barfing she was a gonna get a hole in her esophagus and die. I haven't gone to hardly any meetings since I got out of IOP, and I obviously need to go again based on how bad I relapsed. Things I can start doing tomorrow are mindfulness, meditations, and meth.
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2019-10-14 at 5:51 AM UTC in Hey does anybody have a picture of Juicebox and Malice?ITT: we discuss people who are supposed to be dead, but ain't.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-11 at 4:14 AM UTC in NIS starter kit
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2019-10-11 at 2:16 AM UTC in i cant believe what just happened im so totally fuckedStop making it weird and draw a picture or write a silly story for us.
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2019-10-08 at 11:07 PM UTC in Can you believe it, we're living in the future.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-08 at 9:21 AM UTC in After 26 , time 2 move on26 years ago I found Totes dial-up from a dot-matrix monthly news print. I wish I could find a pdf file which someone copied all the magazine. I found it like 4 years ago. Saved it but can't find it anywhere. Shows the original full page of 7 more totse ..raw nerve slogan
Spectral has trolled me into believing he had harbored the real manifesto. Loves the attention I guess.
This morning I was sick, little strength, coughing specks of watery blood.pinkish. And then some group triggered me this evening. Dude making demands at me and almost rammed his car at me. After like he was going to hit me, called me a faggot..which became a hate crime. Made me angry as fuck.
I don't need this game. It had a feel of being staged.
Anyways, I'm not rich, can't laugh and claim to know most cops and personal friends as he did.
I was thinking of my brother.
Cops showed up. Was late finishing up..needed help for the first time to finish after this senseless drama.
My mom is going to a special hospital. Her body is alive but not her mind.
Personal shit dragging on.
The better half gets to commit the most blatten purgery and win.I
If the system sees I'm not worthy of equal possessions or any amount; then I havent lost a thing.
I'm in my mid 50s and next year would be an anniversary of half the years of my life spent on totse and iteration spinoffs or bbs with totes former members.
I hope the best for you guys.
I'm sure Lanny will need to move. Wouldn't be surprised if he closes down as well.
Maybe he'll throw you all a cakegirl event in Vegas when he closes this down.
Anyways, later guys. You kind of help me learn stuff about Jeff ..not much but photos posted helped me.
Thanks for old school memes of totse.
Weird thing, much of the new start up mellenials weren't even born in 93 and making bank in San Fran
Curious what the next form of networking will be
Home computers dial-up to .com to mobile and next ..well none of us are young enough to not be squares
It's coming soon. Maybe totse and friends will show up in some form.
I wasted years. Wish I never found totse. But I wish I learned coding in the early days
L8r Totseans, DH'r and all the NIS we are.The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-10-08 at 3:34 AM UTC in Ask a white Muslim ex con tortured genius anythingThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-07 at 2:37 AM UTC in is rehab a meme?Coke is a habit forming and triggering drug but its physically addictive effects are minimal unless you're whitney houston. I hope you haven't been doing shitty repress cut with ice or levamisole or something
I haven't done coke for years but I'm still triggered by a lot of things. Substitution and lifestyle are most important things with coke that I found. If you're isolating a lot, it probably is a good idea to get out more. Like they say in 12 step programs, you just have to change 1 thing: everything. hyuk hyuk hyuk that's stupid I know, but stopping coke can require a new environment and a lot of other things. It's likely affected how you view yourself and fucked up your dopamine receptors a bit. Bust nuts, eat food, hit the gym, drive fast, etc. do anything that'll keep your brain turning and receiving rewards or you're gonna find it really hard to think of anything but coke and you're gonna poop your pants when you see a rolled up billThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-10-03 at 4:46 AM UTC in Climate change denial is retarded
Originally posted by mmQ So you can take mathematical steps to determine measurements. You cant just simply look at a tree and KNOW . It's still cool but at least dont mislead .
If I'm standing at the bottom of a tree, the base of the tree is by 90 degree corner. I back up until I'm looking 45 degrees to the top of the tree. The distance from the base of the tree to where I am now standing is the same distance from the bottom of the tree to the top of the tree. I measure that distance and I know how tall the tree is without having to climb it. If I really was senile, could I even figure that out?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire! -
2019-10-01 at 4:27 AM UTC in Climate change denial is retardedThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-10-01 at 4:13 AM UTC in Climate change denial is retardedThis is why wheede is badThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-09-29 at 2:09 AM UTC in I have too much social anxiety to tell random women on the street they look beautifulDude, this becomes a lot easier when you realize most girls are complete losers. You need a girl with mental health and/or addiction issues too. Girls sit around and dream and fantasize about shit and are skanky enough to not have a guard up when they should. Even if a girl doesn't give you her number she's happy to talk to someone. Sploo, just realize that your bundyness isnt apparent upon first glance, you look downright nonthreatening. If you endear yourself to a girl (music, animals, fucking anything non rapey) they'll overlook other stuff pretty quickly once they have any kind of emotional investment (which 90% are actively looking for on a daily basis everywhere they go, citation:makeup) and will probably like you if you appear to not like anybody but them. Shit's not hard, jut don't be a spazThe following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
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2019-09-28 at 2:37 PM UTC in The hole was too smallNiki Minaj removed her spine so she could eat her own ass they said.
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2019-09-24 at 10:18 AM UTC in Does anyone fish?
Caught this yesterday.. anyone fish?The following users say it would be alright if the author of this post didn't die in a fire!
