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2019-12-12 at 6:21 PM UTC in Lol at this quote from British conservstive party politicianNo
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2019-12-12 at 6:11 PM UTC in Greta Thuneberg Named 2019 Times managizines person of the year
Originally posted by iam_asiam68 but you can tell she thinks she is normal but brighter than the rest.
i would love to show her my posts so reality sits in.
bet that pic of her showing alcohol syndrome would be a pic of frightened horror.
the guy who shot up vegas was claimed to have suffered from that.
so you know immediately right away, they ain't mentally right upstairs!!
I think he was selfish blowing his brains out so he couldn't be studied properly.
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2019-12-12 at 5:54 PM UTC in Greta Thuneberg Named 2019 Times managizines person of the year
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2019-12-12 at 5:48 PM UTC in Greta Thuneberg Named 2019 Times managizines person of the yearThere's something really annoying about her face and demeanor. I know she has ass burgers. Attention seeking little retard.
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2019-12-12 at 5:03 PM UTC in What are you doing at the moment
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2019-12-12 at 5:03 PM UTC in Black people have to know they're objectively ugly
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2019-12-12 at 5:02 PM UTC in I got some more space heaters :)
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2019-12-12 at 5:02 PM UTC in Society should return to a gold and silver based monetary system.
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2019-12-12 at 5:01 PM UTC in Dump idiot Trump
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2019-12-12 at 5 PM UTC in what's the last thing you bought?
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2019-12-12 at 4:59 PM UTC in Dump idiot Trump
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2019-12-12 at 4:58 PM UTC in Hey guys what would you do if
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2019-12-12 at 4:57 PM UTC in What are you doing at the momentMatthew feels like he's really in with the crowd.
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2019-12-12 at 4:55 PM UTC in What being a Pollack is really all about explained
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2019-12-12 at 1:02 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕
Originally posted by Solstice This is why I find it hard to consider myself an alcoholic sometimes. I can get a bottle of whiskey, tell myself I'm just having two drinks that night (maybe 5-6 oz total), and I have my two drinks and can put the rest away. Sure, I have nights where I binge drink a pint's worth in a sitting but it's only when I consciously decide I'm getting fucked up, never because I only planned to have one or two and end up losing control. I'll crave it here and there but even then I tend to talk myself out of it anymore. According to AA people you supposedly lose your mind and go off the rails if you attempt to drink at all so it's like, eh.
Yeah I fight trying to class what category I fall into, whether this is me in denial or w.e, fuck-knows. I can go months without drinking. I'm not some piss head that shakes and craves it in the mornings so I guess I'm not an alcoholic per se. My father is a controlled alcoholic which I always found amusing. He drinks home made bitter daily but has a cut off point, never seen him drunk in my entire life. He says he only drinks to enjoy, not to excess which I envy. To be honest we're all big drinkers in my family, even my sister who is in a respectable civil service job can put it away.
I just HATE the cringy emotional or angry state I get in when just drinking which is why Cocaine had always helped me keep level headed somewhat ( bar the deep level cringe talk but that applies to almost everyone). -
2019-12-12 at 12:38 PM UTC in US military is testing "underwater bullets"I thought the thread title said "underwear bullets". I must be due a stroke or some shit.
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2019-12-12 at 12:34 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕
Originally posted by CASPER Let yourself believe that you can drink in a year. If you still want to then, so be it. At least for me though, the urge to drink went away a few months ago.
I just miss the social aspect to it but being able to maintain good relaxed conversation without losing all inhibitions by not drinking is great. It's like being yourself, 24-7, rather a disrespected mess by the end of the night. I feel people will be put off by myself not drinking and I get that. I always felt awkward/ anxious if I was the only one drinking. -
2019-12-12 at 12:28 PM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕
Originally posted by Solstice Glad you kicked the coke it's a shit wasteful drug
Yeah I'm hoping to kick the bottle as well cause that's my biggest trigger. When I go without both for 3 plus weeks I tend to feel closer to the "safe zone". I just feel more...normal, like refreshed/ born again.I hardly sleep at all in the Winter but I feel really good considering. I don't really enjoy Christmas, not for any particular reason I just find it really mundane. To compensate I've ordered a shit load of books so probably just going to read and eat good food/ hibernate in my apartment/ exercise.
When you admit you're not safe even from yourself it really hits home just how fucked up/ how far you have pushed your body's addictiveness by excessive, repetitive hedonism. Over the years the more I've abused the more and more worse I've grew accustomed to/ need if that makes sense?
Dinking even 1 bottle of beer is enough to trigger a bender. I see the outside, albeit cold, to be where the temptation lies with my friends and associates. They are now THE DEVIL! There's a certain feel good factor around the self control side but there's always this thought in my head that plans for occassional dates when I can actually drink and enjoy myself although I don't think this a possibility, just a dream.
*sigh*
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2019-12-12 at 11:57 AM UTC in The R'tarded thread: The Shitfucking Edidtion 💩🖕Sobriety feels damn good.
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2019-12-12 at 11:37 AM UTC in How are you feeling at the moment..
