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2020-05-12 at 12:55 AM UTC in How will this work?Murder everyone who has dark skin.
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2020-05-12 at 12:50 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)Bro seriously all I picturing is me, Dregz, you and §m£ÂgØL taking fire
Oct: "Muh fucka',no leave niggurh behind!
§m£ÂgØL: muh fuckhers: raises and shoots gun at all the Nonces. (Pure Nonces gettin'spreaded)
Dregz: Emergherd FUCK YOU! (Stabs a Nonces to death)
Oct: "C'mon let's get to tha' choppa'!"
All 4 of us escaping to freedom! -
2020-05-12 at 12:24 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)Meh gerrhed
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2020-05-12 at 12:12 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)I don't give a fuck. I am proud §m£ÂgØL will be there to pick.y corpse up cause that what true bros are.
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2020-05-12 at 12:11 AM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
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2020-05-11 at 11:59 PM UTC in An opportunity for blacks to apologise for their rampant violence against whites
Originally posted by Ernst Kaltenbrunner ive been to several countries in subsaharan apefrica for extended periods of time and i can confirm the indigenous population is a pestilence upon the planet that should be eradicated. i could write books on the bullshit niggerdom ive witnessed. shit that doesnt even make it into the media…and shit that ive just seen start to get into the media, 20-plus years later.
Your Nomme de guerre was a true hero.
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2020-05-11 at 11:56 PM UTC in The Retarded Thread: Get off that bus editionI wish vampires were real. I think everyone on this site would not be missed. Hell, I would even make Wariat a vampire just so we could beat the shit out of him everytime he brought heat on us for 12 year olds.
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2020-05-11 at 11:53 PM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬How can we even mend this?
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2020-05-11 at 11:49 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by CASPER Thanks man. That means a lot. Like…i intellectually acknowledge ive improved a lot. And im also a terminal realist. Wishful thinking just doesnt become me. i have to acknowledge that there are some pretty major physical and logostical limitations now. Like im turning 32 pretty soon. Could i take out a loan and start law school this year? Yeah probably. But id be almost 40 before i finished, and be massively in debt. I jst feel like I dont have the luxury of making some of the choices id want to make. Could i move out right now and would it i prove my mental state? Itd be really difficult but i could pull it off. But now that my moms been unemployed for 2 years, and is almost 70, i feel like i cant leave her here. All the years she put up with my bullshit, it seems irresponsible to just let her fend for herself.
I feel like a prolific guitar player who has an arm amputated. Sure you can say “one day ill be able to play again”. But youll never be anything near what you were. And if what you were is something fundamentally important to you. Is a new life of compromise and incompleteness worth living to you?
Im not even like….”sad depressed” anymore. Im just exhausted. And im 31. I cant imagine feeling this broken down and numb if i were 70.Theres just no inputs. Nothing interests me. Nothing feels worth it. Every day is groundhog day. I forget what day it is. What time it is. I forget laundry in the washer and it mildews. I forget I was hungry a d theres shit burning in the oven. I forget im behind the wheel of the car for a split second. I dont feel like ME. “Me” just feels like a little animal in the cave of my head, and all my muscles and bones and ligaments are just this tightly wound fraying cord and wet, heavy blankets stapled into the meat of my shoulders and back and legs.
I have noimmediate plans to do anything. Theres a little toxic spark of hope that always has me think that i can work my way out of any situation. That no matter how bad something gets, i can always game way way through it. But im starting to learn that its not the case. I gave Malice shit bc i felt like he didnt try enough to make things better. So at least im trying. Even though I really dont feel like trying. If nothing else,just being a little bit more of the person i want to be, and less and less of who I was. But i acknowledge that life is chaos and things dont work according to how we think they should and sometimes things just dont get better. I dont think anyone should feel some moral obligation to stay needlessly suffering if theres no need to. Ofc theres the animal anxiety and wanting to stay conscious as long as possible, but objectively theres nothing more special about this hunk of meat and any other.
Idk.
BRO
I'm like 2 seconds from resurrecting a true OG Totse Nig who actually has made it (Fubi) Someone who has been what you have been through, H 'n all. You CAN DO THIS NIG! Be the Sensai you was meant to be! -
2020-05-11 at 11:42 PM UTC in What's the NIS mortality rate?There is no way Jeff's legacy is carrying on without us. Not even Spectral. If anything, I want him beside me as we end this shit storm together
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2020-05-11 at 11:40 PM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬Once upon a time Starr and Saul got along.
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2020-05-11 at 10:21 PM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬
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2020-05-11 at 10:17 PM UTC in if you had to go to prison
Originally posted by Hikikomori-Fujoshi I would kill my mom, then go out and kill as many people as I could before killing myself.
I actually want you to kill yourself more than Wariat. You may have more intelligence but since you admitted to can't live normally as a human but only as a retard Autist, urgh; die. -
2020-05-11 at 9:28 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)
Originally posted by CASPER This is a super accurate representation of how i feel.
Like…im so fucking depressed and isolated that i cant even be verbal with people anymore. Suddenly it makes sense. Like one of those caged animals that goes insane. Like i avoid HAIRCUTS because having to sit and small talk with someone for 30 min is UNCOMFORTABLE for me. its fucked. Whenever i have to talk on the phone,the most i can manage is a few monosyllabic grunts. I just feel fucking retarded. Theres nothing to talk about. I might as well have pulled up a chair and stared at a wall for 13 years.
Going to my job seems pointless. its cheaper to hire me than to design automation to have robots do my job. buying nice clothes seems pointless. Shaving and grooming myself and basic hygeine seems like a complete fucking ordeal. Dating seems fucking pointless. Taking medications for things im just going to have to deal with later seems pointless. Being nice to people and common courtesy feels some elaborate display.
Everything is fucking exhausting. But it is what it is. A lot of people are dealing with a lot worse shit.
Bro I wrote a deep worded response but the page refreshed and I nearly smashed the monitor. Like... if you killed yourself, I know that post would have helped/saved you.
You have all the ingriedients to succeed. You don't need to change, you just need to be more of YOURSELF. We all see this daily, this online person, not PERSONA, I refuse to believe it's a concept. You are what you are, cause when you're online that person deep within you comes out. The one that gives us advice, the one we can all go to. I want you to believe in yourself, and to know life owes you a decent slice of a real future. We don't depend, we LOOK UP to you.
That has to mean something. Cause if you give up, then what kind of inspiration is that?
That is the kind of person you are. DO-NOT-GIVE-UP. -
2020-05-11 at 9:19 PM UTC in if you had to go to prisonLOL OP you love jail that much go stab a Polak and write to us from there.
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2020-05-11 at 9:17 PM UTC in 🍬🍬Candy~Land🍬🍬I'm tired
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2020-05-11 at 9:14 PM UTC in An opportunity for blacks to apologise for their rampant violence against whitesMuhammad will fuck her
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2020-05-11 at 9:14 PM UTC in The Recovery Thread (The Other TRT)I hope I get a bullet to the head. I've always fantasized about the immediacey, the quick end to all that worries. A bullet to head is an honorable death.
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2020-05-11 at 8:34 PM UTC in any of you think people wre talking about you when theyre not?Yeah loike...I'm thinking of seriously fuckin' the corporate world and 'ya know...WALKIN' DOGZ 'N SHIT!!!"
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2020-05-11 at 8:33 PM UTC in Even Candy's friends don't think Futureman is realI miss those days. Free of conflict & bull shit
