Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
"Better than I felt in years..." I always heard this by countless people 50% or better were proven to be liars but those who told the truth I am beginning to get it...understand. Over 10 days without a single shot/drink...I don't know the exact date but its been YEARS now that I ever been this sober. I really feel like things and I am changing for the better...the rage, all the bullshit in the past I clung to or anger me is all but gone. The shit that I blamed myself over or I allowed others to take the blame. I am sorry but really not I chose to and had to learn the hard way. No regrets...well maybe not DWELL on that shit as much. I think there are a few things I could and should have done or said better to one or some. Its been a very revealing personal journey...the last lil while NOT just the last 10 plus days. I really wish this continues. The next step is my dependence in every way...its gonna be long and hard since I was always an entitled piece of shit with several chips on my shoulder but if I can be sober through this..anything is really possible..right? I hope so. I know hope isn't the best word but that some shit I have to work through to. Thing is I am actually getting there and somewhere and not in a rut anymore. I just gotta keep that focus. Not lose it...as I have countless times over the years.
Ok probably rambling now but fuck people if I can get to this glimmer of hope and contentment after nearly 30 years of being an pill popper(anything that I could find) Dabbled in every conceivable drug, and more importantly drunk...anything is possible I really am finding to be true. Real shit and Talk over. I'll be back as Arnie would say....the less though means real life is and will always be more important. If I slip...well I will have 10k posts by 2021. Simple as that. Love ya peeps.
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Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Glad you feel good ^
Over 6 days now. Officially the longest I've gone without the alcohol in Idk exactly but definitely over a year. No raging. Not feeling much as I am whenever sober but I sometimes would fake a smile or some shit like that to feign interest in whatever was going on. Not much going on with the feels. Not really more active either...I get out a few hrs a day but thats about it. I don't FEEL like getting out more than that. I sleep a couple hours more a day or night...sometimes nap during the day. Not really enthuased about much. My online time is a lil up too. Ugh I guess its been worth it so far. Maybe I need to just keep on trucking and hopefully I feel an abundance of emotion soon. Unless I'm a robot and don't even know it.
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Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Rough start of the week really edgy but feeling better every day now
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African Astronaut
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Maybe you got a disease Casper! Look up some rare ones that have your symptoms...especially ones that have emotional and physical like symptoms and shit. Watch the show HOUSE! from beginning to end...you may have one of them!!
Do surgery on yourself as well!!! you might find the problem ALL ON YOUR OWN.
AS FOR ME I'VE Been alcohol free for 4 days 12hrs! this is the longest I've gone without in almost a year..if I make it to tomorrow night about 8-9 p.m. I will
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Dregs
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[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
I rather have or be a scythe
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2020-02-29 at 3:42 PM UTC
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Are you doing anything.....
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
No. If it gets bad or worse in Toronto I will flee North to where I grew up...and my private Oasis is forever protected from ALL VIRUSES over the years its been proven to be true...so why give a fuck?
So what if I get it? death is all about part of the process. Why fear the next logical process?
Oh good morning Tech. Good solid thought provoking thread. Seriously no trolling. I am just in a place where I don't really care...DRUNK AND SOBER ME. I have had a great life in many ways...sure a lot of hardships but I wouldn't go back
If the virus finds me, it finds me...if it does I will die..most likely. As for friends and family still alive that might catch it? I really have moved on from all of them. I might post a lot about them but I honestly can say if any of them got it I wouldn't care anymore. NO edginess here. If this virus happened 20 years ago? I might have cared a bout a few but there is no going back so its really pointless to think about.
I do enjoy reading others and your responses. Just being real.
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Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
No. Just rape, torture, and kill those that really get to your heart. If ya got one. I got some robotics in there...or may need them soon so I don't care about them worthless whores.
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Dregs
African Astronaut
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Originally posted by Cheyes
Beep
Doctor Dregs here, what the fuck is your problem(s)? Dr. Casper is off on some Italian villa with some understanding beautiful petite cunt thats been there for him lately...she should be raped and killed but the Dr has helped me lately so MAYBE some mercy on her worthless cunt. Maybe not.
Tell me all about your problems...and I will write ya up several treatments and prescriptions for you FREE OF CHARGE because i care so much about YOU.
If you want to sexify me...FREE OF CHARGE UNLIKE THAT PIECE OF SHIT DOCTOR CASPER.
LETS cuddle IF ya don't wanna talk..and IMPREGNANT ME NOW.. Casper isn't around. I will kill the baby asap. Truest Romance ever Cheyes.
Kill the leeches in my ovaries though babe...they ain't acting right. Thanks
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Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Nothing really new but took a couple days away from the online world. That was different and refreshing. I even got outside in that snowstorm for almost an hour...probably killed off a couple pounds on that dangerous track on all sidewalks no one one bothered to shovel. Fucking heart was like the Roadrunner time I got back home.
Done complaining. Know this was really off topic. Sorry but not sorry..too lazy to find the more appropriate thread.
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2020-02-10 at 4:01 PM UTC
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Dad thread
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
only thing that piece of shit and i had in common is we were/are both scorpios, he introduced to whisky both of us love(d)that shit...boy did he ever regret that one. only talked to him a few times after he kicked me out at 15..2 funerals and at that crack house he was staying at about 6 months before he died. we just couldn't stand each other most of the time...he really hated everything about me and when i got ol enough not to back down to him and i was a drunk i hated everything about him too. our last talk was less than a dozen words and i said them..he didn't say shit. fucking coward. when i got the call he was found dead in the crackhouse with his meedical issues i went on a almost 4 day binge...i was supoosed to go his service but last minute said fuck it and passed out for like idk 15hrs plus til my brothers handed me a new asshole and gut for not showing up. fuck him.
me and mother got along okay...it was hard to reach her at times when i really needed her but when she was coherent and with me or anyone she was a great mom. did her best. i just never felt close to her. she died a lil bit before that piece of shit...didn't hit me hard but always felt like something was missing when she passed. i think if had've been more in tune with the here and now...expressed herslf...and got out more i think she could have lived a helluva lot longer.
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Dregs
African Astronaut
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where is the option to kill each...?
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giving Casper his morning BJ...hmm 8/10
he was a lil bitchy this morning
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2020-02-24 at 5 PM UTC
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I need a good day today.
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Don't WE ALL? come on dude..I wish and deserve to have one happy ending a week? but does it happen?? Next to never. Good luck though dude.
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Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Good to know. Never go full retard on me or us...or yoself. Baby steps like "What about Bob?" google it if you don't get it. You are Bill Murray only fatter. Is what I'm sayin. Probably fatter than you so no offence.
Keep it up dude..Doc. I may need ya for another dozen or so years. I don't want to make to my 70's though so you got that dude. If I ever end up in a home for the geriatric JUST KILL ME. WITHOUT ANY HESITATION.
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2020-02-21 at 4:35 PM UTC
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Random image thread
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2020-02-22 at 1:41 AM UTC
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Nice ass thread
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Originally posted by Obbe
More of this please
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2020-02-22 at 1:38 AM UTC
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I'm quitting alcohol for good
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
maybe make a thread and call star trek out..verbally and textually kick his ass all over space
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What did you eat today?
Dregs
African Astronaut
[that freakishly double-edged allmouth]
Some concoction of beef burger, diced bacon n an onion, haberno bold sauce, salt n pepper...over zesty doritos. Didn't strain...now my heart is acting up. Fuck. It was awesome though
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