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  2. Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING IV: The Flower of Death and The Crystal of Life Fonaplats is single.

    Does he like horses?
  3. Well that didn't go too well.

    I got woken up to the police saying I broke in and I had to tell them I got locked inside and I have anxiety about setting off an alarm so I didn't leave and I just fell asleep waiting for someone to show up.

    They took me to the mental hospital and gave me some weird gown that doesn't fit me. It was weird because when I walked in I instantly recognized someone I know from town but they were just getting out so i'm in here with a bunch of old people that don't even know how to use facebook. They just stare at the TV all day and eat toast.

    They forced me to take my meds so i'm probably gonna have a nap soon, I don't know when the doctor is supposed to talk to me but I feel trapped in here and my mom isn't picking up the phone. At least I'm warm and theres internet access (monitered)



    Originally posted by tee hee hee are there really no gentlemen left in this world that see a lonely woman sleeping in the cold and don't want to help her? Were all those story book fantasies lies because it sure feels like it. I have always believed it was a man's job to look after me (a woman) and give us children and bring home the bacon while I cook it and ride my horses.. I guess that's too much to ask..

    This only happens if you're under 25.

    I turn 30 this year

    Originally posted by MORALLY SUPERIOR BEING IV: The Flower of Death and The Crystal of Life There's lots of single guys, but you sound like you're waiting for a 6'3" millionaire bodybuilder.

    Just someone that will accept me..
  4. Originally posted by Grylls pics

    I can't take pictures my phone got stolen! I'm still at the library, I hid behind a shelf and they closed it and locked me inside but it's warm and the computers still work

    Originally posted by Technologist You don’t know me hun, but why would your mom be so mad for you going off your meds? Seems like there’s more to it, unless your parents are barbarians.

    I faked a mental illness to get on them and I didn't need them so in her eyes I was 'scamming' the government but the only reason I got on those stupid pills that just made me sleep and gain weight was because of the bs with my ex and him dumping me and parading his new girlfriend all over facebook

    It's not fair, he gets a good life with the stupid bitch he cheated on me with and I end up a laughing stock and sleeping in a library.. great
  5. So... I took all ur guys advice and got off the medication I was taking but didn't need and came clean to everyone about the truth and they reacted like I expected. My doctor flipped out and reported me so now I owe all the money they gave me. My mom slapped me and kicked me out in November and I've been homeless since then. My phone got stolen out of my Pocket when I was sleeping on a bench and I spent Christmas hiding in the family barn with my horses.. the only friends I have left. I'm making this post in the library but I've been here for 5 hours because it's cold outside and I think they want to kick me out. Should I go to my mom and apologize or try to find something else? I'm hoping some prince charming in shining armor will come and save me so I always walk around and smile at people but so far nobody has asked me out or offered to sweep me off my feet and treat me like a princess.. are there really no gentlemen left in this world that see a lonely woman sleeping in the cold and don't want to help her? Were all those story book fantasies lies because it sure feels like it. I have always believed it was a man's job to look after me (a woman) and give us children and bring home the bacon while I cook it and ride my horses.. I guess that's too much to ask..
  6. Originally posted by Mad Matt You belong to me now girl :)

    Lol you joker

    Thanks for all the help Matty I really needed someone to talk to.
  7. Update : I've been crying my eyes out all night, got paid at the start of the month and snuck out to get liquor. I spent it all on booze now having no money is another lie on the pile.

    How the hell did a drink a 40 of vodka every day? This is getting ridiculous
  8. What does this have to do with any of MY problems?. You are all just posting funny memes hahaha laugh it up because while your all out enjoying life I've been here, stuck feeding the horses and going on Facebook all day.

    I looked through all the profiles of all those happy times when I was getting out of the house and working, spending time with my bf and the animals and we even had plans for a baby. Now he is parading his new girlfriend around town and taking lots of pictures with her I'm sure just to make me feel worse.

    How can people just destroy a person then simply move on and forget and treat them like they don't even exist. I went in to town with my mom today to go grocery shopping and today it really hit me hard, I used to say hello to people when I would go out but today those same people just looked at me and kept walking. Did they forget me? Or are they just not wasting their time, why say hello to someone you never see?.

    I told my mom and doctor I want to start going out more and become independent and learn to live on my own again but my mom says Ive never lived alone (not true, when I was with Jeremy I was paying the bills, cooking cleaning while he just drank his beers and watched UFC with his friends) and I can't survive on my own with a mental illness.

    See! If I even bring up the IDEA of escaping this hell they just pull me right back in and convince me the best thing to do is to go home and stay on the property and only come to town when it's important. Then a few days go by and I realize I have no life I'm missing out on life and there's nothing I can do about it.

    I can't even go for walks off the property anymore or my parents flip out and think I'm gonna run off and go kill myself so I will be walking around quiet at night and my mom pulls up in a truck crying because she thought I was running away.

    I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I think about hanging myself in the barn where my horses are because nobody would find my body if I did it in my room they would just think I was depressed and sleeping.
  9. Originally posted by RisiR † How are thighs supposed to look like the night sky anyway? Fucking dumbass horse fucking bitch ass nigga.

    Are you Randy Airlines?

    Well aren't you just charming

    Originally posted by Cootehill You should go to town. People will be glad to see you trying to make an effort to get back to health.
    Last time I went out alone I kept running into people and it was really weird and awkward because they kept asking me how I was doing when I was fine before they started asking me
  10. Originally posted by RisiR † You should talk to a family member and tell them that you can't continue living like this and that you can not longer hide from your fears but have to tackle them right on. Then you ask for help and if they will take you outside. Then you make progress and over time you are even able to leave your house alone and…

    Are you retarded?

    It's just more lies! Im sick of living a lie but no matter what I say to anymore I will be lying if I keep it up or revealing the lie if I tell them so im damned either way. No escape
  11. Originally posted by Technologist Nope, it’s all your fault. You scammed the government and now you’re stuck living in your parents home…..karma.

    Agoraphobia cannot he cured, but it can be maintained enough to be liveable.

    Cheating the gov. is total BS. You made your bed, now you get to lay in it. Enjoy!

    It's not cheating the government if I couldn't work because of depression. I shouldn't have said I have agoraphobia, that was a mistake but I was mentally ill and dealing with stress at the time so I don't think they can charge me with doing something illegal if I wasn't of sound mind.

    You dont know what stress I've been through so don't assume things about me.
  12. Originally posted by Jiggaboo_Johnson Go to the pub…who cares what your family thinks.

    I havent been there since my 21st birthday.

    I'm almost 30 now /sigh
  13. So this all started when I got cheated on a few years ago and it made me very depressed so I stopped going out and gained a lot of weight. I had to take medical leave for my anxiety and depression issues and somewhere in that mess of self pity I convinced myself I had agoraphobia because I would get physically sick at the thought of trying to date again.

    I was doing cognitive behavioral therapy for a year and taking medication but I was so hurt by the relationship I never actually tried to improve myself, I just wanted to not have to work again or ever leave the house and eventually it worked I was getting money from the government every month and working on my condition.

    But to make it believable I had agoraphobia I had to stop going to town and my family would do all my shopping for me and I only went Into town for doctor appointments. They would ask me how much anxiety I felt coming in today, etc. Truth is I wasn't anxious at all, I was faking it because I still couldn't face reality.

    That was years ago, now if I were to walk into town and any of my family or friends saw me they would probably freak out and think I snapped or went crazy. I got over the relationship a while ago but I have trapped myself in this lifestyle of sitting around and going on Facebook all day

    How do I get out of this situation? How do I just "fake" a cured agoraphobia? It makes no sense. I feel like I'm gonna get caught and have to pay back all this money they gave me if they find out none of it was real.

    I would just kill myself if they made me pay it all back! I don't know what to do! I RUINED my life for no reason! It's all HIS fault!.
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