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2020-07-27 at 6:18 PM UTC in OpiatesAfter getting fucked off benzos i just said fuck it and moved to opiates yeah not any better but atleast i dont have seizures anymore and can remember what bullshit i said. Considering this streets dont get pure oxy of course its fentanyl, so now i have a tolerance and it fucking sucks $20 for a pill and i could snort the whole thing barely get a nod at this point im smoking em off foil
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2018-01-17 at 5:43 AM UTC in Anyone on here follow eachother on social media?I find I use social media less and less but this has been an ongoing question for me.
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2018-01-17 at 5:42 AM UTC in can't stop takin drugs
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2018-01-17 at 5:40 AM UTC in can't stop takin drugs
Originally posted by greenplastic Anybody else have this problem? I've been a polysubstance ABUSER for about 15 years now (wow), sometimes going for long binges where I became a shell of a ghost of my former self over a period of months, sometimes going on the clean n narrow or whatever, but most of the time having some balance. A couple years back I did way too much 4f-mph and basically ruined my life. Even though I didn't really fuck anything up that couldn't be repaired. Now I can't stop taking etizolam and weed all the damn time. Yesterday I was so benzoed up and my friend brought some fent that I tried and I guess I fell out and just kinda woke up to him kinda looking at his phone anxiously like his gf wanted him to go home but he had been there telling me to wake up and my lips were blue and brewing me coffee or some shit. And I'm still tizzed up this morning hitting my vape pen drinking some coffee about to go to skool, lol.
what 2 do. why do i always want to blunt out my life. i dont really get it.
I personally been/going through this. -
2018-01-10 at 2:37 AM UTC in Five Starcle MenAnybody know this band?
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2017-12-05 at 4:26 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by I main Luigi on smash 4 I don't know any specific sites I mostly just googled stuff over the years and learned slowly from experience, lots of plants are cloned and grown in a similar way to weed, I also had a nice garden, lawn and worked at a garden store so I learned lots from there.
It's pretty easy you just need to learn lights, nutrients, air movement, soil/soiless. You can even practice clones cheap with tomatoes and a jar of IBA rooting gel.
Plenty of places to find all this stuff, I don't think anyone here has ever wrote a comprehensive weed growing guide probably because theres so much info out there It's kinda pointless to rehash basics.
The more advanced stuff is mostly things for large scale or saving money like mixing your own nutes instead of buying General Hydro premixed which most growers do because they can afford to spent $200 for a large 10L jug of micro, veg and flower.
I see, thanks for the info helped alot! -
2017-12-05 at 4:24 AM UTC in Anyone else hate being sober?I hate the feeling of being sober. I won't let it get any farther then weed, and occasional drinking, and "occasional" xans or lean. I mention this because I've seen alot of people on here take a liking to meth lol.
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2017-12-05 at 4:17 AM UTC in Toxic people
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2017-12-05 at 4:14 AM UTC in Toxic peopleI was just researching this as well, Yes I am starting to take them everyday and I don't even remember conversations with people or whole days at times when I take 2-3 or even 4 pills.
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2017-12-05 at 4:12 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by Zanick Particularly immigrant parents are sometimes remiss to acknowledge psychiatric diagnoses in their children, prescription or not. I promise you, though, if you go to college you will get to enjoy the freedom you want from your parents, and you will have access to a student health plan that lets you access mental health services. You only have a little bit of school left, and you can absolutely turn this around because hardly anything counts before college anyway.
Otherwise, what will you do for money to afford food, housing, etc?
I was thinking of literally just getting a minimum wage job getting an apartment with a friend and growing weed haha. Yes my parents are exactly as you describe them. If I do attend college it would be for audio engineering but I don't really need school for that half of the courses are online lol. -
2017-12-05 at 4:07 AM UTC in Toxic people
Originally posted by Zanick Yeah, I was horrible when I took clonazepam. My whole life, I had no idea that I was actually swimming in crippling anxiety. When I finally had a little pill that made it go away, I couldn't stop.
This is my current situation! although I have the willpower to stop I just don't want to. My gf hates this drug as well haha -
2017-12-05 at 4:06 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by Zanick If there's not a pattern of abuse, and you want to move out at 17 to grow hydroponics with your friend, you might actually be a hoodlum. Please don't take this personally: I also wanted to move out and do drugs when I was 17. If you want my advice, talk to your folks about your anxiety and have a good cry. Then get to a family therapist. I know that sounds shitty right now, but in ten years your priorities will have shifted and when you start thinking of starting your own family, you'll regret not working things out with your parents.
I've been to therapy, Thanks for the input nothing personal, I shared the information for a purpose haha. In my eyes, I am not moving out to specifically do drugs but I am going to because I don't want to be "controlled" by my parents any longer as that's what bothers me most. Fun fact they don't believe I have anxiety. I don't blame this day in age what teenager hasn't self diagnosed but even my school counselor has told them. -
2017-12-05 at 4:02 AM UTC in Toxic peopleXanax, although I am not dependent and could really fight off any urge of popping the stupid little pill, the sensation is too nice.
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2017-12-05 at 4 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by I main Luigi on smash 4 I used to sell hydroponics stuff you can read a lot from indoor gardening books, lights are the biggest expense and indoor isn't easy on a low budget.
Outdoor is pretty cheap you just need gardening bags and lots of good dirt which is also cheap and a decent spot away from everything.
Start everything indoors beforehand though, with seedlings or clones. Coco bricks are also pretty useful and cheap in bulk
I have a friend has a small setup in his apartment (6-8 plants) he recommended a site called seedsman I believe? Would this be reliable. Where could I find info about growing, difference between clones and all that at? -
2017-12-05 at 3:58 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by Zanick I can understand your motivations for wanting to leave, but is there more you aren't telling us? Without going into specifics, is there physical or emotional abuse happening? Do you feel unsafe in your house?
There's definitely been some abuse (normal shit getting hit for breaking glass or talking at school) I mean mostly due to me being a anxious boy with my parents getting divorced (this mostly causes my anxiety and probably some other shit as previous ex gf's have told me) but I have respect for my parents as they do not speak English and made the best they could but, like I said it's more due to not getting long and I've never been the person to depend on other people. -
2017-12-05 at 3:53 AM UTC in Moving out at 17
Originally posted by Little Mac & cheese Yeah I did it and it was the best thing for me even though I had no internet, no money and a shit job I made a fake Facebook, hooked up with a bunch of people, started flipping ounces and QPs of weed, hash and getting into extractions in my tiny little basement suite that didn't even have a proper bedroom.
I bided my time and eventually had enough resources to teach myself to make weed oil, grow a few weed plants and trade my way to a few thousand dollars in cash which I used to rent a nice 2 bedroom apartment with my best friend and we celebrated new years with champagne and lots of hash.
I still look back to those days in that dingy basement surrounded by idiots and thieves, and I was with a pregnant girl I hated. I would read chemistry and meth stuff which is how I hooked up with this IRA chemist guy in California and we got into Bitcoin early and made cool profit for us both.
Then I got into meth, more chemistry, got sick of working and took a year off to do research which ended in a horrible mess of fire and destruction and now I am thousands of miles elsewhere doing something totally different with my life.
I was 17 when this all started now I'm 24 and it all happened so fast, I've had 2 jobs in this period of time, one for 4 years and the other for 1 year. Mostly I just sat around for much of that time shit posting on Rdfrn or this site in summer 2016.
Also my dad moved in with me sometime in 2015 maybe earlier because his girlfriend left him and all the utilities were in her name.
I am possibly getting an apartment with my close friend, have been looking into growing my own weed as that would be convenient and a form of income. Do you have any videos or tips on how to get started into growing? -
2017-12-05 at 3:50 AM UTC in Moving out at 17I don't fit in at all never have. for some reason I grew up with a different mentality, I'm seen as hoodlum by my family and the more time I spend with them the more increasing hatred I feel.
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2017-12-05 at 3:49 AM UTC in Courage the cowardly dogSoundtrack is nice as well. Might take some psychedelics and watch it with my girl see how that goes
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2017-12-05 at 3:39 AM UTC in Moving out at 17No, Currently looking for one as I still have a bit of time about a year or so before the actual time I have to leave. I'm going to have to find a way to maintain a weed budget as well. Anyone out there do this ? College is somewhat not an option for me I hate school with a passion.
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2017-12-05 at 3:26 AM UTC in Courage the cowardly dogThis show is a fucking trip how they let my generation watch this shit at age 5 and shit is crazy.