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2018-03-02 at 6:35 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by §m£ÂgØL2becausescronfuckeduptheforum I am not picky. I'd enter a relationship with someone fatter than you. I don't find it attractive, I just literally don't care. It isn't an issue for me or something I think too hard about. But if I were paying for it, I certainly would be.
Like Benjamin Franklin said, "In the dark, all cats are grey."
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Well, that isn't what you said when I was in a relationship with you, nor even after. You'd encouraged me to put my weight back on at one point, which, hey, nothing wrong if you like heavy girls, but, definitely goes against what you're trying to out across here.
I agree that looks are subjective, and while I have struggled with my self esteem, and how I see myself, I do see that there are enough men out there who do find me attractive these days, and more than just a few. Attractive enough to chase me for a relationship, to fuck, to even pay to fuck me, and to want to marry me, and the last of those is the only one that truly matters to me, that my soon to be husband finds me attractive and is satisfied with me.
Your opinion of me means nothing anymore, §m£ÂgØL, and the only reason I even mention it, is because of the contradictory statements you've made. It's clear you're just trying to hurt feelings, which is quite sad, in my opinion. Funny someone would try to do that, regarding physical appearance, when they literally have a dish in the middle of their chest, and as a 20 something year old, look 12, which I guess is why you can't be picky. -
2018-03-02 at 6:19 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Lanny I think the bigger concern than using needles (I think the ship has sailed in terms of health risks there) is that you're using opiates and T-PAIN while pregnant. There is good evidence prenatal opiate exposure has adverse effects on children, and T-PAIN is like russian roulette. Sure, it's probably not as bad as crack or alcohol exposure but it's still extremely reckless to put your child through that. You know I try not to beat up on you here for amusement, I know things are tough for you, but I'm sorry, your decision to expose both of your children to these drugs in utero is wrong.
I know you don't, Lanny, and respect and appreciate that you don't, but first off, where at all did I say I was using opiates since I've been pregnant, and for that matter, in the recent past, prior to my pregnancy, at least in any regular fashion. I cannot afford opiates, first off, nor do I want to pay those prices, hence why I have been using T-PAIN for so long. Granted, I have, prior to pregnancy used them periodically, but with no regularity, and we are talking months to years in usage, and usually those have been to treat severely acute painful episodes, and most have been prescribed use to boot.
I agree, that T-PAIN quite possibly has more unforeseen risks, since, unlike traditional opiates, it has less usage, which means less information regarding it's long term effects that it could possibly have on users, and a fetus, especially, which is why if I could, I would switch to a traditional opiate, rather than stay on T-PAIN, but that's no feasible for me.
Regarding detrimental effects on exposed children, what exactly are you referring to? Granted, I don't think any pregnant woman should be using any drug recreationally, but it's often the case a doctor will prescribe drugs that do pose risks, risk sometimes far greater than opiate usage, when the risk is warranted for particular conditions in the mother during pregnancy. MANY woman are on methadone throughout their entire pregnancy. It's often pushed for in cases where mother's are addicted to heroin, because cold turkey discontinuation could, and often does result in miscarriage, poses a greater risk to the fetus than if continued on an opioid(remember, high levels of cortisol, and in my case, and others with chronic pain, would result in extended exposure of cortisol, hence why even drugs like hydrocodone, and even dilaudid are prescribed to pregnant woman isn't terribly uncommon for pain issues that arise). I know after speaking to pregnant woman the other day. She was on pain killers for a few years, discontinued, got pregnant, and said she "knew she'd go back to using" for all the stress going on in her life currently, so she was placed on methadone without even being physically dependent, which I personally think is stupid, and a poor choice, but I guess, if she's really struggling, would be no different than someone being on an SSRI, or other antidepressant, or even anti-psychotic, where the risk of self harm, or other negative behaviors would pose a far greater risk than the use of those drugs.
Hell, I am being prescribed an antiepileptic drug currently, for my seizures, which began not that long ago, and have been encouraged to take that during my pregnancy. Should I be shamed for using that as well? Where a doctor is advocating it's usage, and there is a huge risk of injury to myself, and my unborn child if I continue seizing sometimes upwards of a dozen times a day, some days? or what about propranolol, another which is prescribed to me because of my tachycardia, and aneurysm? I have thought it through, and tried to do the best research I can, and feel that the reward out weighs the risk regarding my T-PAIN usage. (methadone withdrawals are fucking terrible for a baby to have to go through cold turkey, and it would also be an issue for me to breastfeed if I were on it. My son, being breast fed for first 3 months solely, and half and half for 6 months, then as much as possible until first year, did not have a single day of WDs, nor any negative symptom from exposure, or discontinuation, which another reason I have decided to continue this route) Some may agree, some may disagree, but if I truly thought it would be in the best interest of my unborn child to discontinue, I would, without a second thought. This is not me trying to justify my usage, nor making excuses. Even with that, my seizures get much worse when I go through WDs off T-PAIN, and that's even when I've had traditional opiates to help out, which again, is another risk. Of course no doctor would prescribe or encourage it's usage here in the states, for one, because most have no fucking clue wtf it is, secondly they would be worried about malpractice, telling a pregnant woman to take a drug not approved by the FDA here, and another reason is $$... they got to keep the legal drug dealers (methadone clinics, since you know damn well, regardless of if my usage is warranted for legit pain or not, I would be lumped in as a drug addict for using drugs without a script if they knew about it) in clients, and also bill insurance for as much as they can. -
2018-03-02 at 4:01 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 Yeah, I edited to tell you that you were less than less than attractive. Very stealthy. Fucking whore.
Yes, that's already been covered. I am a "fucking whore", and fine if you want to think I am "less than attractive", but you sure as fuck were down and all over fucking this "less than attractive" ass not long ago, and that was when I was much heavier than I am now. Me commenting "Stealth edit, I see" was simply explaining why I had replied to the comment prior, and then to the other shit you added after, since it'd been made very shortly after your initial posting.
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2018-03-02 at 3:53 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 There's no double standard. Bill Krozby is a whore too.
Prostitution is an undignified career for lazy women with no talent. You have to be a manipulative person to be a prostitute, because you have to act like you enjoy it. I know you, for a fact, don't. You're basically allowing yourself to get 'raped' for money.
If you had any sort of dignity you would be working towards building a future. Nobody is going to want to fuck you in ten, even five years. If you look at all the top elderly pornstars, you can tell that they were attractive and fit as young women, and continued to do so. You were never attractive or fit. This is not a career that will provide for your children in the long term.
I would not sleep with a prostitute. Might get HIV.
When I was referring to double standard, I was meaning clients and/or being a client of a prostitute. You did state to me in the past you had no qualms with fucking a prostitute, or if someone chose to be in that line of work.
You may find it undignified, but why is that? Why do you assume it's for "lazy woman"? Granted, I am in this because of my health, and whole reason I began. It's pretty easy work, I have decent clients who treat me good, and when I can't work a particular day, it's no big deal, even if say I need a week off, I've still got my guys who'll be happy to see me next week, and won't mind too much if I have to reschedule, as they've all come to know what's going on with me. Again, I've really gotten lucky in that, but lets say, someone in a bad area of the world, or whatever, where work is hard to come by, and prostitution is the only reliable way to support their families. Is that them being lazy? I think it's them doing what they have to do to survive, and more power to them. Or what about models? Are they lazy too? or Actors, even?
Manipulative? They want sex, and I need money. No manipulation involved. I choose to do the act, and they choose to pay me for it. Yeah, I do act like I am liking it, but no different than the cashier or stocker at walmart pretending they like their job, or the sales person at the car dealership who pretends he wants to be your friend to get that commission. Any job requires you to do something to get paid, and quite often many don't like it, have to pretend they do to get paid for it, and even more often the employer is fucking over their employees... at least when I'm fucked, I get to use lube. I may not like sex with these people, it's not ideal, but it could be worse, and I'm treated better than any other place I've worked before, and appreciated more too.
As for my attractiveness... it's funny there was a time you thought I was. Granted, I am not the mainstream picture of beauty, but I do see my worth, and it's more than you're willing to admit these days for sure, and my clients seem to appreciate my looks, and have been a huge boost to my self esteem. Even at that, I've always had a pretty face, and while you might recognize that, the rest of me you wouldn't. I've lost a massive amount of weight, and I don't have very much loose skin as you'd think. I'm 5'8", and about 140 right now. I agree that prostitution isn't the greatest long term job to have, but I'm doing better than any other job I've ever had. I'm actually able to save, I have a fuckload of time I can spend with my son teaching him, spending quality time with him, and I can splurge on him when I want to. For right now, it's working out pretty damned good, and while yeah, this isn't a forever thing, for my health, my son, my daughter to be, and my husband to be, it's what is best atm. Even if this isn't something I could do in 10 or 15 years, who says that's what I'm going to be doing? I live modestly, and save as much as I can, and I do have a good bit put away right now, for the future. With my health, there isn't much of a future for your typical career with me. I am working to get on disabilities, but it always takes forever, but when I do, I'll be ending this shortly after.
I feel I should have no shame, or feel undignified because I am honest, both parties know where we stand, and it's not harming anyone. An undignified job is being a burglar, being a politician who lies and fucks people over, being a CEO who doesn't give a fuck about the conditions peon employees/sweatshops are forced to deal with, and who fuck people over to where they need a second job to make ends meet, when there is no reason a living wage couldn't be paid. This are undignified jobs. At least I can sleep at night with what I do for a living, not sure how people like that do it. -
2018-03-02 at 3:21 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 I like how hydro says she's a 150/h prostitute like she's proud of that or something.
All that means is you're charging prices that less than average looking women charge.
Your clients are getting ripped off.
Stealth Edit, I see.
For my area, that's about the going rate. Sure, if you're a super model body, you could make more, and others do charge more, but they also get less clientele too. I know one girl who charges $400. She gets way less bookings than I did, and not many regulars to speak of. Because of my health issues, I've had to decline a lot of jobs, and even before I found out, I had pretty much stopped seeing new people, only doing that here and there, as I felt up to it, but nowhere near to my full potential.
As for being "average" and them being ripped off: Looks are subjective, and if they're happy and satisfied with me, how are they being ripped off? There's also the other side you're missing too. A lot of my clients are looking for the emotional side, where someone talks to them, makes them feel special, and shows them genuine human interaction beyond just "wham, Bam, Thank you a'am". Dude, some of my clients, most as a matter of fact, take me out to eat now and then, and I've even been taken shopping. Granted, part of the shopping trip was for lingerie, I was treated to a few pieces of new furniture by that same guy when I moved into my house I'm renting now, and some things for my son. I have definitely gotten good at treating my clients to the GFE, and some of these dudes are not only paying me for my time, but sugaring me too. -
2018-03-02 at 3:08 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 I like how hydro says she's a 150/h prostitute like she's proud of that or something.
Where did I come off as proud? I stated the facts. I am not proud of what I do, but I'm not ashamed either, and I won't let others try to shame me for what I do. I am honest, and straight forward about shit, so why should I be ashamed? Especially about honest work that others are satisfied with? I mean, if you were some religious fanatic, and "by the book" and that religion forbade prostitution, then I would understand more, but wtf? Why try to shame someone over that? or is it specifically me? I recall you saying that you would fuck a prostitute if not for the money a while back, so what's the deal there? Why the double standard? -
2018-03-02 at 3 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.To add to that, even if I was pregnant and IVing, IVing by itself isn't that bad as long as you take proper precautions, and are clean about it, using fresh needles, using alcohol on the site before and after, and pretty much not being a total retard. If I were to go to the hospital for literally ANYTHING right now, the first thing they would do is get a IV catheter stuck in me. I could go for a stubbed toe, and literally, there would be a bitch getting IV access. Shit, when bitches are giving birth what do you think they do in a hospital setting? That's standard as fuck.
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2018-03-02 at 2:55 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Enter WHY THE FUCK DO YOU EVEN HAVE NEEDLES
YOU'RE PREGNANT RIGHT NOW AND EVEN IF YOU WEREN'T YOU HAVE A KID TO LOOK AFTER
WHAT IN HOLY MOTHER OF FUCK AM I READING
WTF is wrong with having needles? I keep them on hand for emergencies. I have one badass first aid kit. Need sutures? not a problem, along with Lido and Lido/Epi mix, and even a few pain pills for dire emergencies. Need to be put into a cast? I can do that too. Anaphylaxis? I got Epinephrine and Dexamethasone. Panic attack/Severe anxiety? I got some kpins, and xanax for that emergency too.
There isn't too much I can't treat. -
2018-03-02 at 2:49 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by greenplastic totaldiabetessupply.com niggaaaaaaaaaaa
Actually, I've just been using ones from the doctor's office my friend works at. I use the big 3ml syringes, and 1 1/4" 25 or 27 gauge needles. To IV with them is a bitch without someone to help, but it's not that hard as long as you're patient. Otherwise, I used to just go to walmart for insulin rigs. -
2018-03-02 at 2:45 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
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2018-03-02 at 2:42 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Issue313 Heterosexual aids transmission from female to male almost never happens. Like 0.3% each time. Add in a condom and it's basically zero.
Hydro did you share needles? It's still a very common means of transmission.
And Enter, stop pretending like you care.
I have never shared needles. I don't need to, I have always bought by the case, and even right now if I needed needles I have an endless supply of fresh needles. I've never been in the situation to share needles. -
2018-03-02 at 2:39 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Enter §m£ÂgØL, I'm serious. You need to report her somehow. She's having sex with strangers despite having HIV. Isn't there anything you can do?
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 Her state doesn't have any HIV laws.
Dude, HIV laws are for if someone knowingly infects another person. If you recall, I told you, my clients, they got tested literally right after I came back positive, so they KNOW I am positive. I haven't been seeing anyone else since, these are people who KNOW I am positive and just don't care. There is no law against having sex while being HIV positive if the other party has been made aware of my status to begin with.
Frankly, I was surprised too that anyone would stick with me. A couple didn't, granted, but a few have came out to be extra generous knowing my situation which also has surprised me.
Originally posted by Enter But she's putting others at risk with her HIV.
That's their choice, and they are well aware. I told everyone who I have had sex with my status so they could be tested too. Everyone, literally everyone, and I've seen the results is negative. So I don't know wtf.
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 That's what they get for fucking a fifty dollar prostitute
I haven't charged $50 in months and months. My rate these days is 150/hour, and has been for a while, and doesn't even account for my tips, or gifts I'm given quite often. I've been doing quite well, and at least comfortable now doing this. I really did luck out with some good clients.
Originally posted by HTS How is hydro only worth $50? I've gotten paid more than that. She's seriously selling herself short. She's pretty enough to earn more for sure. 😢
I would thank, but I guess I can't for low post count or something on this alt. (Don't even think of banning it Lanny, I clearly remember opting out of taboo, and fucking shouldn't have even been hit, since I didn't even use the word, you faggot. Fix your code or something.) -
2018-03-02 at 12:07 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by 杀死所有的白魔鬼 Enter, get kik already. #forumboyz
Also as for HIV, it is conclusively detectable after 6 months. It doesn't lay dormant for tests (since the tests are actually testing for the antibodies, not the virus.) Only symptoms may lay dormant. There's no way hydro 'got it from her ex' since she was with him for 10 years and did tests in that time. I also did tests (and had sex with him lol) and now, years later, still do not show positive.
Just saying
Well, you definitely are wrong. It can take a long while for someone to test positive, years, albeit, it IS rare. Just because you tested negative, doesn't mean he didn't have it. It's possible you got lucky, and I didn't. -
2018-03-02 at 12:04 AM UTC in The Retardest Thread: Fashionably Late Edition.
Originally posted by Enter Maybe you fucked all those users just because you're a fucking WHORE, did you ever think of that, cunt? Your ex sat around playing video games doing nothing all day? You're the fucking worst for choosing him as a mate and having a BABY with him. Disgusting, worthless cunt.
It's not possible I cared and loved them, at least at one point? Well, that is the truth. For all they can say, I didn't do anything that remotely looks like usery, and as for being a "whore", yeah, that is my profession atm. I don't enjoy it, it's a job that pays pretty well. I went a good period of time not even being able to enjoy sex, and it was really fucking painful when I did, which I do experience a lot when I do work now too, and I definitely don't have the highest sex drive to begin with. Even so, what's wrong with a woman who enjoys having sex? Why not shame men for the same sort of behavior?
I agree, I was fucked up for choosing that. I didn't realize that's who he was until it was too late and extremely hard for me to get out of the relationship, which would have cost me a lot to get out of. I did eventually get out though, when it came down to the health and well being of my son. -
2018-03-01 at 11:54 PM UTC in Who's the most sane NIS user?
Originally posted by Enter you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.you're bringing an AIDS baby into this world
you're pure evil.
Not like I can get a legal abortion now, as far along as I am, anyway. Had I known I was positive earlier, which I had been tested back then, I would have. I am taking retroviral meds now so hopefully she won't be positive for HIV. Eve so there's a 1 in 4 she would anyway even without. -
2018-03-01 at 11:47 PM UTC in Who's the most sane NIS user?FUCK! Goddamn it! I thought I opted out of taboo a while ago anyway, so wtf, Lanny? I fucking didn't even say the taboo phrase, I said goddamn "dungeon", not fucking "dung", so that's not fucking fair, you bitch.
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2017-07-04 at 1:20 PM UTC in How hot is your weathergirl?
Originally posted by 霍比特人 Wow, you really are fucking dumb, aren't you?
Not only did I visit hydro and her child that isn't mine, but I changed his diapers and fed him and played with him and did all of the normal stuff that normal people do with babies. I've probably spent more time with hydro's kid than you've ever spent with your own.
Can confirm. -
2017-07-03 at 10:25 AM UTC in Which poster do you miss the most?
Originally posted by What_a_Kreep Before I signed up for Zoklet around 2013/2014ish I used to lurk a lot (probably sometime around 2012ish. There is only one that sticks out to me. It was a poster named STD & I always thought he wrote interesting and enjoyable to read posts. I never interacted with him but as far as as poster who no longer post that I wish would come back. He's the dude.
1337 were just talking about him the other night on his ride to the dope man's house. That and Gun Lover too... STD was syphilis before he got busted with card readers and shit, or so I am told by 1337, then after his prison stint he came back as STD. -
2017-07-03 at 10:21 AM UTC in Lanny broke the login system! Yay!
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2017-07-03 at 10:19 AM UTC in A letter to the spider in my bathroomReminds me of the stories my father would tell me about Les and Henrietta.
Dark elves, male dark elves in particular, usually don't deal with Lolth, or want shit to do with spiders, but Henrietta was different. Female dark elves worship the spider queen, torture and do so much evil... Henrietta wasn't like that. She was this big hairy spider, who didn't jive with Lolth.
Sugar, like refined sugar and shit, would be a rare treat, I think, in the underdark... Man, those were some stories, yo... 13 year campaign... fuck... epic.