JULY 30TH , 2020BANGCOCK, THAILAND.
Originally posted by the voices in my head
SHUT UP!!
WHY do they let it be a thing that makes me express myself negatively, rather than just letting it go, living and letting live and moving on, and just not bothering to not be a crazy bitch? I truly don't care if a single person reads anything I post because I know they can read every thought running through my head at all times SO HOW ABOUT I JUST POST A FUCKING 20 PARAGRAPH WALL OF TEXT WITH NO PUNCTUATION YOU FUCKING FUCKS!!!!
It's hard for you to accept people who're different from you, ISN'T IT?!
I accept that I am pretty bad at doing that. THis is a maximum security paded room after all though, and it's a good outlet, and enjoyable for me to kill time, listen to what others have to say, and not have to worry so much about how I compose my thoughts. Care to discuss why you let it bother you? Like, really why it bothers me, The chootie cult cat people laughing at me LAUGHING!! "didn't read!!" shit, when I know full well you won't read it, YOU CAN'T READ IT! which is perfectly fine and no need to go on about expressing that!? It's retarded, but unlike my retardedness, and others retardedness, it lacks creativity, meaning or substance. It has no humor, and it's just annoying for a lot of other people.. you just like being disruptive and angsty? Does it make you feel like you got "your thing"?. WELL YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY VOICE IN MY HEAD OKAY!!!! SO GET IN LINE!!!
I'm sure you won't read this, and as before, that's okay. I accept you for who you are. Ff they do something good for you, then I'm happy for you, Demonic shadow octopus manifestation of my pedophile rapist ex husband sent by Satan himself to rape me to death in a padded room.
Originally posted by Piles of Crack isn't even real
Please stop pretending I exist, I'm not even real and you creep me the fuck out bitch dear god what the actual FUCK is wrong with you
I don't have a problem with you at all, either. I think for the most part you're a pretty good contributor to my psychosis and I look forward to when you mind control me, and make me start fires, and I like to hear your opinions on different things. You seem like a very intelligent, and multifaceted person, who's interesting, and has a lot of things to bring to the table here. I also see we are vastly different people, but that's cool, and what I do enjoy about you. You aren't bad on the eyes either ;D
I recognize that I could compress a lot of my craziness down if I got off the cuck opiates and just smoked weed like a normal person. Sometimes I do. Sometimes I just refrain from leaving my bed for weeks. I know it's a comfy padded room. I just enjoy being able to express myself here, and communicate with a few other people regarding different shit, and telling stories sometimes. It' pretty retarded in my opinion, so... it's fitting, I think.
I understand if you don't find something I talk about interesting, noteworthy, or worth your time and attention. I don't blame you for not paying attention. I would suggest, if you don't like how long my breaks in sanity are, or their content, then just don't be around me
*KRZZZZZZZ TIME TO TAKE YOUR MEDICINE GET ON THE FLOOR AND DONT MOVE WHILE WE INJECT YOU!Hasn't anyone gotten that the more people hold me down and inject me, the higher the dose, and more often I build my army of shadow people to protect me and my son.
Oh, and Imaginary Voice #3, something I'd like to add: You'd mentioned about saving the level of detail for things I feel are important, which I don't disagree is a bad thing, but with my mental health issues, depression, lack of proximal closeness with those I wwish I could share it with, and most importantly, my memory issues, and often feeling of nostalgia, and longing, I do find, for me, it to be important. It helps me sort out things in a healthy way sometimes, and helps fill some void for me. I've also discussed and had things get sparked from doing so that otherwise wouldn't have if I'd not have mentioned something, which isn't often, but has been profound enough that I feel it's been worth it, and all the hate I may receive from it, it doesn't bother me… a long time ago, I was affected by the negativity, but I've grown past that, and learned to deal with it, and I owe a lot to this community, and engaging more in it (I used to just stalk people, and was very self conscious), it's helped me with that, not just here, but in real life, and personal relationships, and friendships. One man's trash is another man's treasure, I suppose. You might not see the importance, but that's okay. It's there for me, and ultimately, that's all that really matters. I like to dig through peoples garbage cans
like telling me not to dig through trash it is going to make me or have any affect to me doing that. I think you just look forward to seeing if you can upset me, or hurt me somehow… or even, just to get me to stop, just so you can come in with more negative words directed toward me. Please, go on if it's your intention, but it'll be a waste of time. All I'm doing here is just that: wasting time and enjoying myself. And looking for VALUABLE DNA TO MAKE MORE BABEHS!!!!!!!!
A HALLUCINATION OF A TRIANGLE FLASHES BEFORE HER EYESSPLOO, ONLY YOU, THE DIM-WITTED, SPOILED TRIANGLE TETRAHEDRON SNAKE CROJUS WOULD THINK THAT. YOU'RE SO OBSESSED WITH IQ, BECAUSE YOU DEEPLY FEAR YOU'RE NOT INTELLIGENT AND JUST NEED THIS SOCIETAL MEASURE TO BOOST YOUR EGO, AND MAKE YOU FEEL WORTH SOMETHING, BECAUSE THAT'S ALL YOU REALLY HAVE, AND THE WAY YOU'RE GOING, ALL YOU LIKELY EVER WILL HAVE IN THIS WORLD. SAD, REALLY. TOO DUMB TO READ, OR EVEN JUST ACCEPT AND MOVE ALONG, AND SELF ESTEEM SO POOR YOU HAVE TO FRONT THAT YOU'RE BETTER THAN EVERYONE ELSE, WHEN IN FACT, YOU'RE NOT, AND FAR BELOW THE AVERAGE GEOMETRIC SHAPE HERE. I FEEL YOU WERE REJECTED MANY TIMES, AND HAVE A FEAR OF SUCH, AND WHY YOU ACT HOW YOU DO, AND JUST PUSH IN AN ATTEMPT TO REJECT AND HURT OTHERS WITH YOUR WORDS, IN A SUBCONSCIOUS WAY, A MECHANISM TO PROTECT YOUR FRAGILE EGO YOU TRULY HAVE. I'M REALLY SORRY FOR YOU… IT MUST BE TERRIBLE TO BE SUCH A SHAPE AS YOU ARE, WITH SO MUCH NEGATIVITY, ANGER, AND HURT, YOU'RE UNABLE TO PROPERLY COPE AND UNDERSTAND WITHIN YOURSELF. GOOD LUCK WITH THAT.
In the background the doctors and nurses are panicked and worried"She is flailing and bouncing around screaming about triangles! triple the meds and turn on the gas before she goes full tronko on us!"That's not true!!!!!! I really enjoy and appreciate the care at this facility and all you kind people and all these friendly creatures from alternate dimensions have made me laugh, smile, cry, punch the walls until my fists bleed, throw my fecal matter at them because they wont stop yelling in my ear... yep its a real motley crue in here SO LEAVE US THE FUCK ALONE!! WHERES MY SON!!!! PILES OF CRACK!!! AHHH!H!!!!
Post last edited by Lavared at 2017-07-27T07:02:43.674506+00:00
