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2017-05-09 at 2:11 AM UTC in weed ruined my life
Originally posted by SCronaldo_J_Trump Your life must have been pretty fucking insignificant and meaningless for a plants thats been around thousands of years to ruin it.
Its called darwanism you fucking cuck I smoke meth, weed, I do bundy and heroin and I work every day.
What the fuck is your excuse?.
the excuse would be that whole "fucking cuck" thing i have going. i don't know dude, its a mental problem. i'm not trying to bitch, i'm tying to find hope that i'll revert out of this dumb cunt phase.
is meth as tight as people say? it was always on the to-do list. -
2017-05-09 at 2:03 AM UTC in weed ruined my life
Originally posted by RisiR † Ohh yea,I forgot to mention that I experienced all your symptoms, as well. I had a heavy psychosis from all the drugs but it went away and now I'm just suicidal depressed and kind of a piece of shit. Eh.
what was your recovery time? did anything aid it? did you have occasional feelings of clarity as you were recovering?
is this depression caused by drug use too? -
2017-05-09 at 1:57 AM UTC in weed ruined my life
Originally posted by Open Your Mind Drink a lot of water. You say you've lost sight of who you used to be, but I'll tell you what, you never really were the person you thought you were in the first place. You are what you do though, so start doing the things the person you want to be would do.
Your brain low on power? You gotta recharge it. Eat better food, and work your mind as of it were a muscle. Put it to work. Figure things out. Solve problems. Create something new.
You are experiencing social issues? Talk to people. Get into conversations. Learn how to better express yourself.
Also don't worry about it, don't worry about out how things are, but know that if you want things to be better you have to make them better yourself, there is no secret, there is no gimmick or trick, you just have to put in the effort to improve yourself and be better.
Good luck, I hope you make your life better.
i appreciate your response, i should have emphasised the positives in my life, i do assistant manage a restaurant, and i spend all of my free time reading or learning music theory. the problem that i'm having is not an emotional or spiritual one, in fact, i can barely feel emotions at all. its a physical chemical fuck up in my brain. I can only compare the feeling of it to being in a dream, where you really have no mental control, no ability to think cognitively, things just occur, and whatever minimal conscience you have reacts.
its like trying to sprint with broken legs, i try my best to not be retarded but there are mental blocks that i can't see through. fortunately the work i do is second nature now, but reading and playing music will takes months for such minimal progress.. which i can settle for, but its far from ideal. -
2017-05-08 at 6:10 PM UTC in weed ruined my lifeI'm 20, I've been sober for a year now, no drugs/alcohol, not even coffee or paracetamol.
from age 16 -18 i smoked weed regularly, then 18-19 i would smoke everyday, i would also dabble with other shit (acid/mdma) maybe once a month.
start of last year, i started feeling phased out during sober days, having trouble connecting thoughts, bad enough to scare me into abstinence.
within a month i had no ability to think, constant anxiety, memory was shot to shit, total bring fog, social skills of someone dangerously autistic, brain felt as if it was running on 2% power,
and utterly lost sight of what my personality was like prior to the symptoms. i figure i smoked too much weed during a crucial point in brain development and that I've done irreparable
damage.I don't socialise anymore because its embarrassing trying to spit words out at people, only to get a confused response.
to put things in perspective, trying to concentrate long enough to type this post is making my brain ache. though lately I've been having momentary glimpses of clarity, for about an hour every month or so, showing the contrast of how my brain should be functioning is fucking staggering.
has anyone experienced anything similar? or know of anything that could help?