Sobriety is fucking boring and useless. I always want to be buzzed on something, even if it's just for a subtle effect. Enticing the senses thru drugs is an easy means of entertainment and if I'm on a stimulant I can enjoy all the other amenities of life while high. I don't mind calling myself a drug addict, why should I give a shit? At least when you're on drugs with a long half-life, you don't have to focus on doing drugs all the time. Just make an effort to be addicted to the right shit. So many people are obsessively engaged in way more lamer normal hobbies that aren't drugs anyway. I just don't want to be so fucked up to the point that the dr00gz pose more damage than personal benefit in my life.
2016-09-07 at 5:24 PM UTC
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I'm slowly turning into obbe
When it comes the illusion of the self, I think the feeling as if we have subjective control over our thought processes and our conscious sense of choice is an illusion; a byproduct of imagination often rooted in fear of the present moment and who we'll become in our deepest flow state if we let go of trying to force ourselves to be something. Other than that, I don't really see any reason in disenfranchising from the idea of self-image and saying no self exists.
