2016-08-29 at 6:17 AM UTC
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confession
Most of you have likely guessed that I am a raging homosexual hiding behind a computer screen. it has weighed on me being this person with two identities and being born australian I had no chance whatsoever to fight off the burning desire for cock.
the first time I had a homosexual urge was when I was 12. I went with my uncle and older cousin to a beach. while there I saw several men gallivanting around in tight speedos and I soon got an erection which became embarrassing and hard to conceal. I scrambled for the nearest mens room near the boardwalk before my company would see me in such a state. as I entered soon behind me followed another man, wearing a speedo. it was one of the men that I had been staring at and admiring from afar until my problem came up in my swim trunks.\par
He was a good looking man in his 30's, tall, dark hair, and a charming smile. He hurried behind me and approached me and said he saw me looking at him and he glanced down to see my raging erection which became unconcealed at this moment. we were alone as the last man inside exited leaving just me and this tall handsome man clad only in a sky blue colored speedo. I could not help but look seeing him closer and the giant bulge that stood right in front of me. he asked if I liked what I saw, clearly aware that I could not take my eyes off it. I grew even more nervous but could not help but shyly nod that yes I did want to see more. I was so intrigued by phallic objects way before puberty struck and also had an obsession with other men's penises but had no comprehension before this why that would be they always excited me. I would take every chance I could to glance at the men in my family when they weren't aware or "accidentally" walk in on them while they were undressing. this was a fantasy come true for me.
I stood there trembling as he slid down his tight speedo revealing this elephant trunk of a cock. I could tell that this cock was growing like mine in my trunks. I didn't even notice that my hand had already slid down my trunks and I was playing with my own cock slowly until just then. he smiled and asked me if I wanted to touch his. unsure but completely turned on by this chance I reached out gingerly touching the mushroom shaped head of his penis. he made a soft moan as I did and with this positive reassurance I grasped the girth of his cock just barely able to wrap my hand around and began stroking slow at first then speeding up. a minute had gone by and here I am in the stall of a mens bathroom stroking this horse cock attached to the most handsome man I had ever met in my life with my other hand pleasuring myself with this complete stranger. I was about to cum, he could tell since I had lost myself and was unable to keep the same pace with his cock. he reached down to my hand to stop me. I reluctantly did and glanced up at his face again. I saw something in his eye like he had a plan. so here I stood coming back from the near brink. I wondered and my mind raced as to what he could possibly be planning.
He turned me around and said in a deep commanding voice to be a good boy. my trunks were dropped at my ankles and before I could do anything he grabbed me by the back my hair slamming my face into the wall. I began to protest now scared to death of what is happening. he grabs my ass and he started to feel around my waist until he got to the base my my cock, playfully teasing it. with short strokes to bring it back to life since it had gone slightly soft from the sudden shock of his actions. quickly my cock is now at full attention. i cry out in shock as I feel the handsome man ram his middle finger into my asshole. he did not use any lubricant before doing so so now all I feel is pain radiating from my ass. I got scared and tried to fight him off now unsure of what is about to happen but still I am hard and excited. as my fear grows my stomach begins to cramp. I had not shit in 2 days now but the chili dog I had ate earlier that morning started wworking on my intestines. I said no in the loudest voice I could muster at the time. he said you don't really mean that, and I didn't but I was terrified now. his middle finger was still slightly just inside the sphincter of my ass. he pushed deeper and as he did a groan came from me. he pushed right against my prostate and now I was close to shooting my load again. he ripped his finger from my as and I tried to turn around but he pushed my frail weak 12 year old body by the shoulders against the wall again. I could see as I glanced from behind him spiting in his hand and rubbing it on his cock.
I began to tremble. I said no again. not because I didn't want this huge cock where his finger had been but because I was on the verge of shitting myself. he didn't listen and before I could do anything I felt my asshole ripe, burning in fiery pain like I never had known before. I screamed but he grabbed my mouth to muffle my cries
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I was in tears. he told me to jack myself off as his cock was just slightly in my ass burning still. I felt his cock soon plunge deeper and I felt like my intestines were going to tear. pain and pleasure. soon my small 12 year old penis shot its load against the dingy wall of the bathroom and I felt him throb inside my ass as he came. he was breathing heavy and a minute passed and he ripped his cock from my ass. as he did the pain from the pressure stimulation and him rapidly removing his cock from my tight ass caused an explosion of feces to shoot from my ass mixed with his cum. it was diarrhea, splattering and spraying the man who not stood mortified with shit covering his cock that was rapidly going flaccid. my trunks were soaked with my own shit around my ankles. he looked at me mouth agape. at what had happened. I was so scared not knowing what to do. he turned and quickly fled out the door leaving me there to ponder what I should do now and how I was to explain this to my uncle and cousin. I walked up to a sink and tried washing myself off but the acidic shit smell and stains were to much to get off. I walked ashamed back to my uncle giving him an explanation that I just couldn't hold it until I got there. he looked at me trying to figure out how I let this happen. I was forced to ride home in the back of his pickup truck bed.
his caused me to be ridiculed by my cousin and his friends for many years to come but they didn't know the whole story. nobody has until today. every since then I have been completely turned on by other men and developed a scat fetish from the experience. anytime I take a shit it arouses me. I can look in a bowl and see the turds swimming around and imagine those phallic log shapes penetrating me. I also enjoy licking assholes when I am with another man that I am having sex with. sometimes I shit on their chest right as I cum to remember the first time I experienced cock. this is my confession. I'm glad I could get this off my chest and shit it on to yours.
