aye, fellas... How are you all? I'm back... And I got your fix of bullshit that is too long for you to read... And I'm probably going to read some old posts... To kind of put myself in the saddle... Anyway... 19 months left folks... I'm going to bang this out and walk a free man again... Freakin get my life back. Only reason I'm here... Is because fona didn't answer, I was going to touch base w him and get it started.. Instead, here I am... And I'm going to give it my best, here... Again... So... Here I go.
Well, so... It's been about a year... And I said, I told myself I was never coming back... *sigh*. Anyway... So, what's new, you ask? Well I just got a book, and I'm back fell in love all over again (I think). Marijuana is legal here now, Milena is still lusty, and my house is a mess. Freakin... I'm tired man, so tired. Bill Krozby is gone... Freakin, where is tara man, I day dream about that ass... Freakin... Plasma, is a real score... I got some seeds and swim is growing... Freakin... I've been sleeping in the closet... It's so cold. Lanny, man he probably.. Someone told me he got swatted (fona(told me that)). Freakin... My gut is a wreck from processed foods and malicious insolent malnourishment. Uhh, freakin... *sigh*.
Been looking at chatgpt, it's pretty tight... Freakin... Carts, hit hard, the dispensary has the game in a "Lock". freaking... I hate going for food... I don't know what I'm going to do/what to do about permanent residence constituance... It's not really appropriate I feel to just be bogarding my Father's cash when he goes to work and I sit around screw off all day. EUfrekin... I do need to move to a house though... Freakin... Down home is falling apart. Two houses burned down in my village and I'm worried. Freakin... Stimulus checks, chea right, get a life... Freakin.. Donald trump is (going (to be))president... Again, which is fuckin, fucked... I think... Freakin... My house is so cold... And when I turn the heat up, it is so hot. Freakin...
Bought a new xbox one las year. Gta 5 is still great... Freakin fallout 76 is... Alright... I guess...
I'm back to elder scrolls online again too... And it's a whole vibe... I met a single mother on there last weekend, and she's sitting there talking about... Absolutely nothing I can piece together... Freakin... My dad gave me me an amazon gift card and I bought madden and my new book with it... Freakin... The book, the DIB, is pretty good, and it came with some gift cards... Freakin...
I miss candyrein. I don't know if she's even still posting... Freakin... Titanic two is coming out, and I have mixed feelings about that... Freakin... What else... Freakin... Food is through the roof. I have a texas de brazil gift card and all I can think about is eating recycled furniture...
freakin what else is there to tell ye, freakin... Fona, I sent him some pictures. I sent him a pic of my sprouts, a video of one of the local malls and my book... Freaking... The mall, I love it. It's like having sex with a mixed girl who's actually white... Freakin...
As I DIGRESS... I been lookin into air rifles... And I'm trying to find something in a .38 that is got a 30 round clip... Idk if I'm living a fantasy or not... But they got a .30 with like a 30+ round clip.
Ohio state beat texas, They're going to the ncaa championchimp. Freakin... What else... Is... Good... About, Ohio... Oh we finally recreationally legalized which is great... Our dispenseries very well may have some of the greatest product... In the world... Freakin... That purple nerd vapen disposable is pretty wonderful... Freakin... What else... Is new... My dandruff... Is... freakin foul... bleh sorry sorry tmi I know I know... It's life... Freakin... What else...
Mansions... There's some pretty gnarly Mansions! On this continent... I thought about cloning a female recriprocate from plasma(my (plasma)) is possible... Because... I need to retire... I'm sure it's possible, and in all reality... I would... truthfully... Profile their (her) parent as (TO) my Mother and claim no DOMAIN [PARENTHOOD] rights... Because, who wants to be fucking their own daughter, that's disgusting... Freakin. To be continued... Oh and I also have to think about... Am I going to do this ligase by ligase, or am/would I need/want to obtain a random (female) sample and work with I got... *shrivels* ugh, but... As I digress. And it's not like I'm going to blow a load in a petri dish, I want to use real HUMAN factor... But I'll get into that later, I don't know if it's possible, and I still haven't gaven up on dating. A thirty two year difference is kinda lame I guess, SKUL.?
Freakin... Milena... Is a whole vibe man... She wears me out... She's (still) heavy and I don't know if I want to be with someone inconsiderate... I keep trying to tell her to get us some wax from the dispensary but she don't want to hear it. Freakin... THe dispensary, wax... That purple nerds wax hits pretty hard man... THe dispensary by my house has good bud too but the pen i bought doesn't have a lot in it. Freakin...
Buying offline is about a fifty fifty chance, because, sometimes it's good, and sometimes it's not... RIGHT? Freakin...
I haven't seen a counselor in like... Years... Because... I... Am... the... Program... True? freakin ten years of this. So tired.
Christmas eve I went down to grandmas and I took my vape I got off the internet with me... I busted out a unit and bought it off the internet... It was 4 grams of wax, but it really did kind of taste like soap.
Freakin the mall... Has my heart chained in a vice grip. I look at all the chicks... Xochitl Gomez has a banner in the hot topic and I melt when I look at her and smell the sweet incense fragrance of the smoke shop spencers arcade candy cologne and sweet roll vendors. Freakin... All that shit... Man, it just... Freakin takes me to eden man.
Freakin my plants... Are growing but it's too cold to put them in the window because my house is so chilly. I sit there and freeze. The closet is clausterphobic... But I don't really want another liability in my life with the growlights in my APARTMENT and what not... My house is a mess, and I spend like atleast 10 minutes a day looking/calling for my phone. Freakin...
AS. I. Digress.
My Mom wants to go on a cruise... And I really don't... I just want to sleep... Even if it is in my closet... Because all I care about is finishing this (my) case.
Freakin... Chatgpt, is... Ight... But it's kind of a pain in the dick to have to wait 4 hours to continue your conversation that you could just be having with google.
Freakin... The goodwill had a sexy ass rubber band gut chick shopping there today (yesterday) and I looked at her, and all I could think about was smashing... But then this mature was kind a putin something down for me to pick up and I was a little interested but I really was seriously trying to find a book to read... Freakin... Goodwill has some good books, but it's lame dickin off looking at dick and jane books when the center is right across the street and I'm literally trying to [(save lives)]... Which... is not anybody elses fault, at all... It's just kind of like getting spat at in the face, you know?
Freakin... Fona, I was trying to get a hold of him... I was trying to get some teamwork... Idk though, that hepatitis case is a lil concerning though, because I/me/he/we/(I) gotta account for our chickens and cover our asses because if i get his germs it's (over)... Freakin...
My plants, are wonderful... I did the time, I did the research, I paid the price... They're in the laundry room right now, and I have to be super leary, because their setup is super [clandestine] you know?
Freakin... I asked for the health department building the year before last in [september] (october(?)) Because it's falling apart and I was fin turn it in to bruce wayne manor and turn up... I got tested that year and I was clean.. I got tested last year. I did not go to the follow up test... Because I just don't know what the fuck I'm going to do going there spending more money to get there than to treat it if I gotta have that liability concretely accounted for regardless (and it is) you know... Fuckin bullshit, I need that blood.
Freakin... Lol call me crazy, but the fuck is it relevant to when I got healthcare sticking me with microplastic anyway, Dude?
Oh, and don't get me wrong, I gotta dark spot for the fellas too... Freakin Stoinoff... Said "I need to be on that shit". Yea, Hey fuck you too bud... Kwias, and don't get me wrong... He is... Not... Not... a prick, but I still don't got time for that billy bad ass bull shit when he sat there and psyched me up for months and was like... "Yea, I'm a resident"... Fuckin
asshole
Freakin... Candyrein... Man I just love that girl man... All I can think about is swimming my pride in her festering stank ass crouch wound. Oh my god... I talked about nigger fever... I was ill twice last year man... At the beginning of the year and towards the fall quarter... I've been treating my body like shit... Little sleep... Freakin... I fell ill playing the sims while Milena was over, I was trying to build a big house, Man... I had made a big lunch that day and I must of had gotten food poisoning or something... I don't know... Freakin... And the other time I fell ill in february while I was out playin buyin them lotto tickets. Freakin trying to strike it rich and buy my mom a house. I really am schizo ant i... Psyche... Freakin... Idk. Idk what to do, but I do want to make some moves before I leave this earth... I gotta get some numbers from the mall, Or something...
FReakin. What else... Milena... Is allergic to nickel (too) and I sat there 'proposed' to her (with a nickel ring) freakin, she was like "ok", and I was like "ok". So now we gotta figure out if we are coming or going. Freakin... Anyway.
Mental health... blah blah blah what is 160kb to 8gb of ram, blah blah blah my ass blah blah blah, blah blah blah... Yes uh huh thank you, uh huh uh huh thank you uh huh thank you...
Anyway... back to where I was... My computer shut off and I thought I lost (all) my work. Freakin... Anyway... As I digress...
Bill Krozby is... Dead... (seriously?)... Freakin... My ass, yk... Kafka... Can't be dead... Freakin... ykwias... Anyway... Lanny... Is probably still rockin... Freakin.... Malice, that dude... Freakin fried... Anyway... As I digress...
So let me ask you this question... Do you think it's really worth my time to even consider.... Wait wait wait hold up hold up I know where you're going with this... It wasn't Milena- hold up wait up wait up... No, let bygones be bygones I got shit to do... And I been trying to ditch her. As much as I love her she just ruins me sometimes man, and I am scared she could hurt me real talk... Freakin... I'll get into that some more, but right now I gotta bang this out so I can reflect...
Freakin... Speedy Parker,, who is that that fuckin quck mix ready, and who that dude, man that dread rodent man dude.. The raskal king, that tacho, I know... Freakin... as I digress... Nevermind, I gotta communicate competently... Freakin... anyway fulkz... Freakin... Baltimore
Is history...that place, man... I walked there the year before last (2023) freakin roundtrip was 30 miles... freakin fiending for prilosec tabs... Freakin... Franklin (county) is hell man... Freakin idk if I got drugged, or psyched, but that place had me fucked up. As I digress...
Peters... Freakin I sit here and ping pong my feelings about brother man all the time man... Freakin... All I can think about is the fact that he has a (full-blooded) sister and I don't and rah rah rah team team team
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you know what I'm saying though...
Freakin... I threw my benadryl away, because it had me... well hold on hold on... I dropped it on my pissy floor... Fucked up... I remember looking at it and all I could think about was urea poisoning on top of a dilerious induced saw campaign
Freakin... What else, do ya'll need to know... Freakin... That, small soldiers, I went bought it rented it and watched it with milena.
Freakin... What. Else.
Freakin... Houses... Man fairfield county doesn't really have anything special, but god forbid despite the fact that I had my case.... Freakin... I guess that
IS karma biting me in the ass. Freakin all that shit. them houses are so nice, but they just don't look like they feel like home and that got me fucked up because there ain't a lot of houses to buy... Freakin anyway... I've done the whole list... MULTIPLE times, and it's nothing but a heart ache lookin at the same mfing fields monontouiously OVER and OVER again because real talk I know there is not a lot of options... Globally... And I am just so fucked up on that... Even when despite the fact maybe probably you could even probably maybe even have the freakin money, because the truth of the reality is... THere is a lot of freaking people man... Freakin... ANd I DON'T want to have children... It's like that video on pornhub titeled "I WANT TO FUCK FOREVER DADDY" freakin all I can think about is being a stable adult man. Anyway..
Freakin candy, where is she, she gon have to get in this thread...
THat pornhub shit... As x-> goes to infinity it got to go.... Freakin... Anyway...
the college, man last year... I freakin got kicked off the campus man which was fucked up because I was just trying to bang out some reps in the gym, man... I'm fucked up. Freakin yellin at people gettin upset... I just needed to talk to somebody man... And it's hard when I'm black white and yellow... And they only wanna talk to me like I'm black, or I'm white and yellow... Because this shit... Man you gotta have ALL your shit together.... And even look at the calculator shit... It's easier to score shit junk than fuckin around on the campus because everybody is all in a bunch. I almost contracted pancreas cancer at marietta trying to have a conversation with my track coach, man.. 's fuckin ridiculous... nobody can function, man....
Freakin.... Moving on... Freakin... there's some nice mansions, here there and there and here... But it's just a pain in the ass to want to do anything because of the stigma... It's stigma to live in condo knowing the lawn boy thirsty. It's stigma knowing my mom works for the state at public safety 30 steps from the prison i was incarcerated at man... Fuckin bullshit
freakin all this shit man, and I know the folks know how to handle themself, i just contend with the fact that I know thoughts can be intrusive... And you want to talk about hurting others... I mean, dude, look at me. The fact I was hurting MYSELF was/is what makes me even most fucked up.
Ok, yea. I know.. Here look at this, let's talk about the real big elephant in the room too yo, look at weed man, he's fucked for life, he was... already... That's what makes me even more frustrated... BECAUSE IT IS A SURE thing
and I'm fucked up because I don't not love the folks, but the liability is just so great, Man... I gotta really think about this shit man... Cause niggas talkin bout 19 years to release... ON the gateway. got me fucked up man. Scared. Scared.
But I don't want to talk about him.
I been thinking about these women. A lot of beautiful girls... just in my town man... And one day I'm sitting here like... I want 5 women, I want 2 girlfriends I want to get married to Milena... All these scenarios (delusion) I play out in my head... And it don't help I watch the videos... all this shit man no help.. And veins... Freakin all this shit man...
Freakin... Lanny about to make a movie of my life... fuckin... 12 years a dave... fuckin tarded... I'm sit there show up and go to intellectual like... Can I has money... money man freakin... what the f, man... Freakin...
Freakin... Bill Krozby I had a dream... Freakin we was playing some blizzard game and he called me an accept-tard for taking a trade and I was like huh what how lol what, and the word morphed into the word artifact lol.... I know that dude ain't dead man...
Freakin... Zok the f that guy... zoklet was tight...
Freakin I'm burning out writing this shit man...
Freakin cicada is coming this year... Which is cool I guess because I could stack up on the plasma eatin them...
Freakin plasma ludicrious. Freakin...
all this stuff... I miss candy and she look good in her uniform man... Freakin... Them ludes... I be lookin at them. But it's crazy thinking about dating a black girl... Man i really hope she didn't get fat man please god ahh. freakin...
run on...
I'm sum this up, cause I want to chat to some folx man. I been out for a minute... and I got some things I gotta square up...
Freakin the mall is hot
candy is hot
the dope is hot
my book is hot, I'm find something. But those subs get me everytime man, and I'm trying to figure out if I can bang them out on parole. Freakin... Anyway... I gotta get to town wednesday see this little spongebob chick in town, Maen. Freakin... I gotta make something work, and a job just sounds like a pain... but gettin paid ' all different types of ways. post replies
