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2024-11-09 at 9:42 PM UTC in Olympic Football Roster Announcedare you okay??
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2024-11-09 at 9:41 PM UTC in NFL rookie projections Vic Beasley among intriguing defendersPick a side! this is nuts
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2024-11-09 at 9:38 PM UTC in Football Sunday Discussion & Criticisms (Mostly just be critciizing people as always with no real on topic discussion)I forgot it's the bye week, so no game tomorrow, but the boys will come back stronger next weekend and wipe the floor with the 49ers! Go Hawks! šš
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2024-11-08 at 11 PM UTC in What bread are we rocking this Friday night?does beer count? it's got yeast
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2024-11-07 at 11:38 PM UTC in THE MAGA PARTY!,,, the GOP is dead, republicans are going down with the dems,, get ready for THE MAGA PARTY lefty's"hispanic" represents a larger diversity of countries than all of Europe and yet people think it's a homogeneous block that all votes the same way
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2024-11-07 at 10:52 PM UTC in š§šš All FOODIESā¦. letās Eat it, cook it, or kill it!!! ššš§can't go wrong with chicken and lime... yum yum
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2024-11-07 at 10:50 PM UTC in Olympic Football Roster AnnouncedKenyu Sugimoto hasn't played olympic football in years lolz
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2024-11-07 at 10:43 PM UTC in Football Sunday Discussion & Criticisms (Mostly just be critciizing people as always with no real on topic discussion)Despite the performance of my team these past weeks i'm still hopeful that they will pull thru this weekend, and I think the medication is working because I haven't been doom spiraling after each loss
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2024-10-27 at 3:24 AM UTC in Football Sunday Discussion & Criticisms (Mostly just be critciizing people as always with no real on topic discussion)My recent stay in the mental hospital may or may not be attributed to the recent losing streak of the Seahawks.. I think I remember posting in this thread a few weeks ago.. feels like a while and then it was just loss after loss and other stress in life building up and I just snapped. They didn't let me keep my phone. but after seeing that last game I perked right up and i'm back home now ready for tomorrow
May Jerrell save us š -
2024-10-27 at 3:13 AM UTC in I just got out of a pychwardMe too, just in time to watch the Seahawks game tomorrow.
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2024-10-15 at 9:16 PM UTC in This is a better outcomeThe chaos, the confusionātheyāre part of the journey. I learned that in the shadows, where secrets dwell, lies the potential for growth. Itās in these tangled moments that we find clarity. Embracing the unexpected often leads us to the most enlightening paths, revealing that our worst fears can transform into the best outcomes.
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2024-10-09 at 6:29 AM UTC in The Quiet TugThereās a quiet tug
It grows in the shadows, nameless. I tell myself I can ignore it this time, that Iām stronger now, but thatās a lie Iāve repeated too often. It waits in the silence, biding its time, creeping back in the spaces between thoughts. It doesnāt care if I notice or notāit knows.
What is it Iām running from? Or toward? I donāt even know anymore. Itās not something I can name, but I can feel it like a storm beneath the skin, a disturbance I canāt place. Iāve been here before. In the quiet moments, when the world is still, and the only sound is the hum of thought. This is when it strikesāwhen everything should be calm, but inside, itās chaos.
Itās not a voice, not really. More like a pulse, an insistent rhythm in the back of my mind, urging, pushing, pulling. I donāt know what it wants. Sometimes, it feels like destructionāother times, release. But itās neither. Itās both. Itās everything and nothing at once.
I give in, sometimes. Not because I want to, but because the pressure becomes too much. The line between thought and action blurs, and I find myself following it, moving toward it without even realizing Iām moving at all. Like sleepwalking. Like Iām not fully awake.
And when it passes, it leaves me hollow. Empty. But in that emptiness, thereās something almost comforting. Itās done, for now. The tension dissolves into stillness, the storm recedes, and Iām left to pick up the pieces of whatever remains.
Why do I do this? Why do I let myself fall? Itās not even the falling that scares me anymore. Itās the moment beforeāthe creeping sense that somethingās wrong, the knowledge that Iām losing control, and the sinking certainty that I canāt stop it.
I donāt want to name it. Giving it a name would make it real, make it something I can confront. But itās not something that can be confronted. Itās part of me, and thatās the worst part of all. Itās not outside. Itās inside. Ingrained. Inescapable.
Because the truth is, thereās no real escape. Only pauses between the storms. -
2024-10-05 at 4:10 AM UTC in What are you thinking about....a big ole slice of 'Umble pie
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2024-10-05 at 4:07 AM UTC in Football Sunday Discussion & Criticisms (Mostly just be critciizing people as always with no real on topic discussion)Gotta support the home team, man.
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2024-10-04 at 6:56 AM UTC in Are you looking forward to the big war with Iran?La Embajada de EspaƱa en TeherĆ”n permanecerĆ” cerrada el martes 4 de octubre de 2024, segĆŗn el calendario laboral de nuestra embajada.
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2024-10-04 at 6:25 AM UTC in Football Sunday Discussion & Criticisms (Mostly just be critciizing people as always with no real on topic discussion)those Giants are going down!!!!!!
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2024-10-02 at 8:11 PM UTC in š¦š¦š CrispyLand. šš¦š¦frank....in....sense
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2024-10-02 at 8:06 PM UTC in For anyone considering getting the smallpox vaccine...they put steroids in the vaxx it makes these "super women" go nuts and shoot people!
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2024-10-02 at 8:03 PM UTC in EWWWW LOOK AT ME IM IRISH
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2024-10-02 at 8:02 PM UTC in Ranking the most and least welcoming members of the forumHello!
