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2017-05-13 at 8:13 AM UTC in Rape culture in america
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2017-05-13 at 8:10 AM UTC in Hey malice
Originally posted by Malice There can come a point where words fail, and there's just absolutely nothing you can say that will make a difference. I've read such an absurd amount, I wanted to experience the greatest literature, films, books on existentialism, I met with a psychologist weekly for 2 years, one for at least 1 after that, and it never helped, if anything it made me feel worse. I also have severe anhedonia and feel a complete lack of connection to others, a complete inability to relate to anyone, to find any meaning and fulfillment in life.
I cannot convey everything I've experienced, everything I've learned, that led to this.
I'm going to start Nardil tomorrow, and it has a pretty high chance of working if I can manage to stay on it and get a high enough dosage. I'm also going into therapy and will try to get out as much as possible, volunteer at some animal sanctuaries.
Can't guarantee it will work though, some people are just extremely treatment resistant, and there's something about Asperger's, these profound neurological differences, that seem to predispose you to some of the worst life outcomes.
I was wrong when I said I made a breakthrough, I'm still having serious thoughts of suicide, and erratic behavior can be an impending sign of it.
Ultimately, I can't tell you how it's going to turn out, but Lanny was probably right when he said I'll likely never get better. It could well be within a year, but at some point I'm going to have to make the decision. i have to be honest with myself and accept that due to everything, my life is very unlikely to have a happy ending.
There's nothing else to be said. I just have to wait and see, hope for the best.
you won't get better because you choose to be a pussy and rely on jedi medications, thats all lanny was implying
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2017-05-13 at 12:26 AM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right nowssri's are dangerous and mind control pills
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2017-05-13 at 12:22 AM UTC in The Rock is the best actor is modern human historythe rock is going to be our next president
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2017-05-12 at 10:57 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right nowMalice is going to be walking around wearing dark glasses tell he's thirty five saying "they just don't get it man.."
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2017-05-12 at 10:46 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right nowMalice just needs to get a job and start somewhere dealing with people instead of being in his own head all the time. the constant I hate society, i need ativan, i need money from society, i always want to be medicated mentality is extremely detrimental
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2017-05-12 at 10:36 PM UTC in I'm everythingyou have faggot disorder
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2017-05-12 at 10:29 PM UTC in Rape culture in america
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2017-05-12 at 10:24 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
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2017-05-12 at 10:20 PM UTC in Rape culture in america
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2017-05-12 at 10:17 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
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2017-05-12 at 10:16 PM UTC in Just a heads up about extreme aggression and how I react to phenibut.
Originally posted by Malice Heh, well it's not like I hurt myself, but I just go into this unbelievably vitriolic and misanthropic state where I absolutly attempt to psychologically destroy anyone who slights me. It's like it literally triggers full blown psychopathy in me.
you're starting to sound like 16 year old sploo more and more errrr day -
2017-05-12 at 10:14 PM UTC in Just a heads up about extreme aggression and how I react to phenibut.
Originally posted by snab_snib haha. phenibut makes me act like an asshole sometimes too. not violent, but an asshole, sure. it just makes you give less of a fuck and some people don't have many to begin with.
pretty much this, but phenibut only really worked for me the first time i ever took it, other than that it just gave me a headache and feel sick at varying doses -
2017-05-12 at 10:13 PM UTC in Rape culture in america
Originally posted by reject Yea like if 2 equally drunk people shag it's still the man's fault because, idk, sexism. If the chick can't make an informed decision to consent to sex or not, what makes the guy able to?
I mean, we've all fucked fat chicks we wouldn't touch when sober. Well, Bill Krozby would, but besides the point
dddeeeeurrrrhh sick burn bro!
but anyways it wasn't about the drunkeness that was the issue it was about the entrapment (penis fly-trap) that got him busted -
2017-05-12 at 10:10 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
Originally posted by reject In the view of amateur psychologist Dr Reject, it appears that Malice is lashing out at his mate, possibly as a defence mechanism to stop someone becoming intimately attached, for fear of his other half getting bored with him and ditching him for a better lover.
MALICE : "FUCK U I HATE JOOO!" (queue analytical tears) -
2017-05-12 at 10:08 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
Originally posted by reject Zero.
I smoke weed, drink occasionally but not every day like I used to, and take codeine, well shit, I can't remember the last time I had codeine.
And that's it, nothing else these days, more weed than anything else, about a gram a day and beers or a bottle of vodka at the weekend
thats cool, I wish they sold codeine freely here in murica like they do in the uk -
2017-05-12 at 10 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
Originally posted by snab_snib i've always wanted to try electro-convulsive therapy. i'm actually pretty sure that it works.
yeah... sure... just ask rocky erikson/daniel johnston how their electro shocks helped them...
rocky erickson rocks but he's crazier than a shit house rat, he used to sit on benches in the park and break into analytical tears
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2017-05-12 at 9:56 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
Originally posted by reject You know I'd prefer to go down the CBT route than drug route, I mean, imo drugs don't really cure anything. Sure they might mask or help symptoms, but ultimately you're still fucked in the head, but now just fucked in the head with drugs.
Kinda weird I'm against taking pharmaceutical drugs to help my mental health but put a chinese made RC in front of me and it'll be straight in my blood stream
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2017-05-12 at 9:55 PM UTC in Pro: About psychiatrists, even if you don’t need one right now
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2017-05-12 at 9:53 PM UTC in Rape culture in america
Originally posted by RestStop Sounds ridiculously similar to a set up. I would bet someone had a personal vendetta against the guy and all the actions of the two girls were already mapped out. *Starts fucking girls friend* Girl two "Hmm I think I'll just record this here"…
exactly but thats not how it was reported in the video.. like what the fuck, and live streaming it... the girl that live streamed it got 9 months... but to be honest I don't think the guy deserved 9 years...
its so convoluted, ive even read about girls taking back consent after the deed was done... but it was consensual... but say a like guy fronts really hard saying he's balling or some shit like that and later she finds out after fucking him a loser man so she gets pissed because she feels "cheated" and can take back consent.
some women are so fickle, but that guy really got burned
